War Of My Life

Life is a marathon and I'm running out of breath. It's getting incredibly tiring to just get out of bed and fulfill the day's agenda like a routine. There are days when I just feel so lost and misguided that it's difficult to find a purpose.

It's survival of the fittest.

The question is, what am I really fighting for?

I've stopped believing in so many things that there seems to be nothing left to keep me grounded.

There's only been 1 war that I've fought for all of my life, love. But even I lose hope sometimes due to the countless battles lost. I'm pretty sure I've discredited the very existence of love more than once and there's really nothing worse than losing faith in everything (the only thing) you ever believed in.

However I wouldn't be writing all of these if I have already given up, my body would probably be found floating in the infamous reservoir of the East that has drowned 6 lives in the past 5 months.

I guess I just need something to look forward to in relation to love and its other incarnations.

That is the war of my life.

Come out angels
Come out ghosts
Come out darkness
Bring everyone you know

I'm not running
I'm not scared
I am waiting

And well prepared

I'm in the war of my life
At the door of my life
Out of time and there's nowhere to run away

I've got a hammer
And a heart of glass
I got to know right now
Which walls to smash

I got a pocket
Got no pills
If fear hasn't killed me yet
Then nothing will

All the suffering
And all the pain
Never left a name, oh

I'm in the war of my life
At the door of my life
Out of time and there's nowhere to run
I'm in the war of my life
At the core of my life
Got no choice but to fight 'til it's done

No more suffering
No more pain
Never again

I'm in the war of my life
At the door of my life
Out of time and there's nowhere to run
I'm in the war of my life
I'm at the core of my life
Got no choice but to fight 'til it's done

So fight on (I won't give up)

Fight on everyone (I won't run)

Fight on (I won't stop for anyone)
Got no choice but to fight 'til it's done
Fight on (I won't give up)

Fight on everyone (I won't run)

Fight on (I won't stop for anyone)
Got no choice but to fight 'til it's done
So fight on (I won't give up)

War Of My Life by John Mayer.