Too Much Food...

A bystander.That's who I am and always will be.

With the world shrinking and connections of people growing by the minute,it's always nice to see how the relationship of people go.Having the privilege to update oneself on the latest happening surrounding someone has become so accessible and I find myself voyeur-ing into people's lives.That how I like to learn,by observing.I can see some of the pick up lines actually being used by someone I know,and then I make a mental note on the findings and results.

There are only so many things which you can learn by doing something,partly because of the speed that time flies.Through observation,you get to experience everything in another ray of light.You ponder over why people do what they do and how they do it,whether or not it succeeds or tank badly.

Seeing is definitely not believing since we can never tell the full story of every single action/word one said but we create perceptions from those and we link them up as much as we can.If there is a couple sitting in front of me in the bus,and the girl is crying,my first perception will be that he said or did something which hurt her but for all you know,it might be because of the passing of her hamster.Again,I can only tell or rather,predict so much from the body language and whatever words I can hear from eavesdropping.I guess now you have every reason to run away if you see me within 5 metres radius from you because you wouldn't know if I was trying to 'invade' your life but you see,I will only be interested if you seem interesting enough.No offence but it takes a lot to be classified under interesting for me,just look at myself,you can stench the boredom of my life from miles away.

Recently,I found out that my friend's ex-boyfriend is seeing a girl,who also happens to be my friend's ex-crush(I still don't know why they didn't become a couple because the feelings mutual and they seemed so close).From my point of view,I think the guy is a monster.Based on my perception,he's a control freak who's insecure about possibly everything.Based on my feelings,the only word that comes to mind is hate.The girl however,is probably not my type but she's nice,to me at least.And though she might be his type,I think he doesn't deserve her.Now,I'm in the kind of situation in which I wish I could tell her my side of the story no matter how irrelevant or insignificant I am in her life but I can't.Because of my history of feuds and conflicts between me and that waste of space,I would only make things difficult for myself and I would not live to see the next chapter of their lives,which I predict will filled with drama,if I were to do anything funny.So yes,the only thing I can do is let nature run it's course and watch as she falls prey.

Of course not all of you will be agree-able to everything that I said because my description is flawed,it's based on my judgement and it's prone to contain bias information against the guy.Since there will always be two sides to a coin,I will never hear his side of the story,not that I want to because I will not accept his view anyways so that waste of space will be wasting his breaths.I'm sure he too has a lot to say about me but like me,his views are based on perceptions and biased opinions.

Which leads me to say that if I build a perception of the person standing next to me,wouldn't that be describing him according to my version of dictionary and definitions?If so,then wouldn't that make me the ruler of my world,the God almighty in that sense?That means that we're all living in our own world whereby we set our own rules and boundaries or where we draw the line for every issues we face.What we see the world as will define ourselves and how we see ourselves in our world,we are in that sense what we want ourselves to be.Which will then be linked to the quote 'Tell me what you eat, I'll tell you what you are' - Anthelme Brillat-Savarin,in other words you are what you eat.

For tea break,I had a sinful and oh so good takeaway from Chippy which means that I am unhealthy after which I had rice,vegetable,soup,egg and ham for dinner which means I'm greedy and I had pudding with cream for dessert which means I'm a pig.

So for me to know who and how to define people accurately,I shall observe their diet.Even if it means describing someone as eating like a horse like the rather infamous celebrity chef once said about a certain Victoria Beckham when she had too much food on her plate.


You can say that I'm one curly fry in the box of the regular
Messing with the flavour oh the flavour that you savour
Saving me for last but you better not eat me at all
Living in a fast food bag making friends with the ketchup and salt
People say that I'm crazy for not moving on to better things
Instead I'm sitting around trash talking with the onion rings
But it's much too soon to leave this easy life
Pass me the spoon, pass the analytical knife

Cause you're about to get cut up and get cut down
It's all about the wordplay, all about the sound in the tone of my voice
You gotta let me make my choice alone
Before my food gets cold
Better shut up or get shot down
It's all about the know-how, all just a matter of taste
Stop telling me the way I gotta play now
Too much food on my plate

Believe it or not I super-sized my sights on the surprise in the cereal box
My stomachs smaller than my eyes
So I went to see the doctor and he said "turn your head and then cough"
I didn't listen to what he said instead I couldn't wait to get off
He said I can have this but I can't have that
That I should keep wishing I was living the life of a cat but
I ain't the one whose gonna be missing the feast
Just like you ain't the one who seems to be calming the beast

Cause you're about to get cut up and get cut down
It's all about the wordplay, all about the sound in the tone of my voice
You gotta let me make my choice alone
Before my food gets cold
Better shut up or get shot down
It's all about the know-how, all just a matter of taste
Stop telling me the way I gotta play now
You're putting too much food on my plate, come on

Well if you are what you eat
In my case I'll be sweet
So come and get some
I'm so oh oh over it

Cause you're about to get cut up and get cut down
It's all about the know-how, all just a matter of taste
Stop telling me the way that I gotta play
You put too much food on my plate, come on
Get up and get down
Get up and get some
There's too much food on my plate, come on


Too Much Food by Jason Mraz.

Make A Decision...

This is a time for me to decide which of my commitments are the most important.It's not really that difficult to see just that it's difficult to say.The guilt of telling someone the disappointing news pains me and I try as much as possible to please everyone which can never be possible.Compromising is when you can do something about it but when you're given two completely different tasks in which occupies the whole day,there is no compromise.You have no choice but to pick only one,the most obvious being the one in which you either feel you're more needed or irreplaceable and the one you feel will affect your life more.Never have I been bothered with such commitment problems because of my lack of commitment and my unwillingness to try something new,until now.

This seems very unlike me to be considered having a life or at least some important things to attend to.I have to admit,from time to time,events such as this comes along which I'm very much involved in.As far as I know,I've picked the ones which has hot periods on different periods of the calendars and it's been according to plan.And because of this one-off involvement with someone that's not from our usual clients,I find myself having to deal with clashing of events.It's already decided which I'm going to attend,if the other one fails for whatever reasons however,I wouldn't mind being labelled the scapegoat.My only problem with that is the fact that I did try to make it best for all parties by sourcing and networking for replacements.It's not like I want something like this to happen or that I didn't do anything to try and help.

Enough about the rantings.It's easy living in my shoes,no doubt,until incidents like these came about every now and then.In other less important news,I've decided that I shall sit and wait for an angel to fall from the sky.Yes,I know sooner or later I would get up and start running again but at least for now,I'm resigned to this.Patience.I can neevr understand why and how people can be so fickle-minded or so simple-minded that they make can jump ships without looking.It's as if they overlook certain cracks which everyone knows will escalate to something more severe but yet,they choose to go ahead anyway with or without full knowledge.And of course I can't stand someone who contradicts his or her statement the day after.Anyways,(no link to any of the stuff written on top) congratulations Clement.Salute!And of course Shazlin,you too.As for me,watching and waiting from the sidelines is enough.


I made a decision and I shall stand by it...


A man stays in his house
He says no, I'm not leaving
You'll never scare me out
Not even if you throw your worst
I'll throw it down
And take it like a champion.
So here's your chance right now
Come on and make me foolish.

Run while you can
Forget your work
Learn to live
Fall to your knees
Forget your love
Let it fade away

The world will slowly see
That life can be so easy
Without our fancy plates
We never eat off
Stop me when I've said enough
We create our own prison
We're locking people up
For needing money

Run while you can
Forget your work
Learn to live
Fall to your knees
Forget your love
Let it fade away

Run while you can
Forget your work
Learn to live
Fall to your knees
Forget your love
Let it fade away

Run while you can
Forget your work
Learn to live
Fall to your knees
Forget your love
Let it fade away


Make A Decision by The Early November.

Beautiful Words....

I need words, beautiful words to fill these empty pages...

Slow down, this is such a blur
Tell me what's the hurry now
Have we been running round in circles
Missing all that we could be

You say
It's not
Too late

We are words
On pages that we've left unturned
An ending no one's ever heard
We are a story slowly unfolding
Beautiful words

I could walk across the ocean
With you walking next to me
And you could melt away this winter
Now we're starting over

We will see (will see)
It's not (it's not)
Too late

We are words
On pages that we've left unturned
An ending no one's ever heard
We are a story slowly unfolding
Beautiful words

That last
When everything else has passed
Even when all the stars are gone
I know every single beautiful word that we were will live on

I know (I know)
It's not (it's not)
Too late

We are words
On pages that we've left unturned
An ending no one's ever heard
We are a story slowly unfolding
Beautiful words


Beautiful Words by The Afters.

We've Only Just Begun...

I'm sorry for neglecting this space for quite a while now,been insanely busy during the last stretch of school and also uninspired to write.Well,I'm back for now until the busy days come again and I think I've got a few things to cover but I'm not going to bore you all with a whole chunk of words here.I shall divide,then conquer.Life's been pretty much the same except the increase in workload which is still bearable,I can't imagine how I'm going to survive the next semesters since I'm not one who will force myself to burn the midnight oil.Whoever said polytechnic life is a piece of cake is either a liar or is not a polytechnic student.At least for most part of it,I believe that I learn a lot more than say going to a junior college since I don't like dating textbooks.Not that I get to date anyone or anything else in polytechnic either.Thank God for the 3 weeks summer break,now if only the flu would go away because my mom's getting really paranoid whenever I go out.It has come to the extent that I'll have to be disinfected everytime I enter the house,and yes I'm exaggerating.Until next time,I've only just begun...


You'll have your ups and downs
Don't let them push you out
Cause time is all you've got now

Go make the best of everything you want to be
With ambition pushing forward
Your dreams upon your shoulders

Though impossible it seems
It's time to just believe
From here on out you're just getting older
Pick up yourself you keep getting closer

Let's just get it started tonight
All you've ever wanted its in your eyes
Just let it take you where you want to go
Just let it tell you what you want to know

You've got your destination
Progress has now been made and you
Will see the way you've wanted it to be

We've only just begun
There's gold that lies in us
Your hesitation's held you long enough

Though impossible it seems
It's time to just believe
From here on out you're just getting older
Pick up yourself you keep getting closer

Let's just get it started tonight
All you've ever wanted its in your eyes
Just let it take you where you want to go
Just let it tell you what you want to know

Let's just get it started tonight
All you've ever wanted its in your eyes
Just let it take you where you want to go
Just let it tell you what you want to know
Just let it take you where you want to go

The future holds a brighter day for you
But you may ask yourself tonight
Is it out of reach, out of reach,
Is it out of reach
Is it out of reach, out of reach
Or am I?
Or am I?

Let's just get it started tonight
All you've ever wanted its in your eyes
Just let it take you where you want to go
Just let it tell you what you want to know

Let's just get this started
(Where you are tonight)
All you've ever wanted
(It's in your eyes)
Just let it take you where you want to go
Just let it tell you what you want to know
Just let it take you where you want to go...


We've Only Just Begun by Run Kid Run.