Sliding Doors...

I think school's been stressing me out a little too much for my liking which results in me being in this rather crazy state of mind.I think today was the craziest of the lot but I shan't reveal too much because it's kind of embarrassing.I can't quite believe what I did either,I'm truly in awe of my courage yet shameless and almost desperate attempt to try something really crazy.I guess it has been a while since I've done anything as crazy but I can't do anything now since it's already been done.I'm contemplating on whether I should go for a plastic surgery to hide my face from the sheer embarrassment or an oath to never take the train to and from Eunos ever again.I highly doubt that anyone else saw what I did but it'll still be weird if I bump into that person pretending nothing happened.Hopefully if I did see that person again,we'll act normal and live our everyday lives as it has always been.

It takes a fraction of a second or a certain action and it's reaction to separate a genius from a group of idiots and honestly,I don't know how I fared but I'm possibly more related to the latter than anything else.Good job Ed,give yourself a pat in the back or a hug to comfort yourself from all this madness.Then again,I'm sure people have done what I did and probably fared far worse.Wait,what could be worse than what's happening to me now right?Rhetorical rant,just to please and make myself feel better I'll say "Yes!".

I know I'm not being brutally honest about what happened because up until this point,you guys probably still don't know what the hell I'm talking about but that's ok because that's just the way I like it.The reason why I like blogs is that there are always cryptic and hidden messages written all over the page and posts and it all boils down to you to find out what it is.It might not be the correct answer but at least you get a rough idea of what the meaning is and by then,you probably form impressions of that person,good or bad,right or wrong.

Judging from my blog,I think it's safe to say that I'm someone secretive who's very into lyrics and particular about the fine details like the commas,full stops,spelling and spaces in the lyrics aspect of each post.If you're not the type who bothers reading the whole post then you're probably missing the good points although as far as possibly I try to keep the titles as related as possible to the happenings around me.You have to pay attention to the nitty-gritty details and read the fine prints that's written in clearly enough for everyone,including the blind,to see.All you need is a little effort and nut cracking to tie the loose ends and there you go,the story of my life.This shows that as much as I am unpredictable,I am predictable enough in terms of expressing myself.

Just to make sure I remember this day,I jot it here so it's easy for me to access and recall in horror in the near future of my almost pathetic and futile existence.Maybe,which is almost likely,I will try and write a song about it too because I think the event is more than interesting enough to write about although I can't seem to find the words or the right idea to build the backbone of the song upon.Gosh,this is getting more pathetic and I'm feeling shitty all over.All I can do now is wait.

On a brighter note,tonight's jamming night.Hopefully it's productive and better than the previous one.Also,that the guys like the new song as much as I do because I think it's so much better than the ones I normally create.Besides,it's a song with story,history and meaning to me personally.I think I have a gift,talent or a curse depending on how you see it.When I come up with story songs,it seems to actually happen and worst of all,I get to experience my own work of art come to life.This leads me to my next point,I should write happier songs with a happy story and happy ending so that it would actually work out for me in the future.


Left a note and beat the sliding doors...


Another Friday night
And the week is over
Got a bottle of wine
And a meal for one
Never could have known
She was walking with me in the rain

Another back to back
Down the escalator
Beat the sliding doors
By a twist of fate
Than a glance behind an evening paper
And there she was

Lonely's gone
Suddenly I got this feeling
Lonely's gone
I spin around
Yeah, Yeah
I've left the ground
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

Should I make a move?
Did she catch me falling?
What I got to lose?
Will she cut me dead?
Before I catch my breath
Can't believe she's walking
Off my train

Beat the sliding doors
Is she gone? Don't lose her
Gotta keep my head
Someone taps my shoulder
Then I spin around and
She's just smiling
I guess she knows

Lonely's gone
Suddenly I got this feeling
Lonely's gone
I spin around
Yeah, Yeah
I've left the ground
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

Is this fate or happenstance?
Her design or my last chance?
I can't speak
Cause she takes my breath away

So it's Friday night
And the day is over
Crack a bottle of wine
Make a meal for two
But there's no room on the dining table
Here we go
Here we go

Lonely's gone
Suddenly I got this feeling
Lonely's gone
I spin around
Yeah, Yeah
I've left the ground
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

Lonely's gone
Suddenly I got this feeling
Lonely's gone
I spin around
Yeah, Yeah
And now we've left the ground
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

Lonely's gone
Lonely's gone...


Sliding Doors by Darius.