The Resolution...

And this year ended on the exact note it began and how it ended last year.It was filled with so much drama,I couldn't quite believe I was starring it in.Let's bring it back to January,things were slow.Then February came and things started picking up,I found something to believe in and place my two feet back in the sky.Soon,it fell apart again and March was spent in disbelief as to how things went so wrong.From April onwards,I had a new life.Poly started and although I don't think I have very much of a life there either,at least I had something to fill my days.I spent the months enjoying my alone time as much as I could,sure crushes came along every now and then but nothing progressed in the end.If there was something I was attached to,it was probably to the band,the commitment level more than tripled even though it has always been at 100% before.And December came along and blew me away.Just when I thought the year will end on a high,it spiralled just as suddenly.And I'm back on the ground with my feet firmly rooted and not picking up speed anytime soon.

Unlike last year,this year wasn't remembered for the regrets.I would never have changed anything or wanted to change anything that happened in fact,I would like to relive the year if I could.It's been an interesting year filled with so much hope and anticipation.Disappointments and cruelty too but everyday was special in it's own right even if it's just spending the whole day just lazing on my bed and doing nothing particular.I've discovered so much about myself and I'm extremely proud of whatever I've achieved and done.I couldn't be more amazed at myself and it's always great to have people around me who share the same joy I felt may it be my loving family or my crazy bunch of friends who became inspirations in my life.

If there is one thing I can be sure,it's got to be the fact that I've mellowed my rather eccentric temperament and emotion.I may have moments which made me really down but I will never be out and I will always bounce back better than before.I've experienced a lot of losing.Lovers,friends,would-be friends,my possessions and myself even.It has always been hard to take but that's life isn't it?As much as it is a cliche excuse,life lessons have always easier to take even if it means lying to oneself just to make one feel better.I will take things on the chin because if things were to turn out differently,it would sooner or later.If this is what people call maturity then I must say that age is finally catching up with me,if it isn't then I'm still thinking like a kid which can be a good thing anyway.

Love is not a feeling,it's an ability-Marty Barasco from the movie Dan In Real Life.And I'm proud to say that not one bit talented at it.Love has a funny way of filling my stomach with so much butterflies that I start choking over my own words and that can be frustrating at times.And then there are moments in which I thought that I was in control,truth is I can never be in control.It's either love is to unpredictable or I'm just not reading the cards and cues right.I guess I like to be in love,even if it's only temporary because I like the thrills and chills it gives me.I'd hop on the joyride any day if ever a chance came along but I've never been lucky.And this year's incidents ended on a similar way it did last year,I don't seem to learn don't I?It's funny come to think of it but we'll see how if the new year brings about a new fortune for me since my luck's been pretty much cursed.

Anyway,my new year resolution will be slightly different as to my previous years'.As long as I can remember,they've always been specific things based on events which I wanted to undo or unwrong.Since this year has been all about "change" and "yes, we can",I shall keep true to it until next year at the very least.My new year resolution will be not plan or predict what's ahead of me but to plan to be surprised by the turns of the upcoming events.Life's too short to think too far ahead anyway.

This paragraph goes out to everyone that I'd like to thank for making a difference in my life through whatever ways.My favourite boys of the band,EugeneLim whom I've had the privilege of 'gay-ing' with since our secondary school days and ultimate jokes that cracked me up.RyanChang who still amazes me with his photography skills and contribution to the band.LiuJialin, who's wackiness and antics never fails to amuse me regardless of how irritating they may be.BryanSethUlricSantaMaria,the coolest boy in the band who brings such enthusiasm and rejuvenated new life into the SavingSomeone.KathleenDavid who's seen the best and ugliest side of me and I'm still surprised that we are still friends wait,are we?KimberlyWong who will always be this bubbly girl that share my taste in music and given me my first hoodie.Hanis,the lost but not forgotten friend who has been a listening ear during my darkest period of my life and made my day just by being there for me.I hope you're doing fine wherever you are and we really need to catch up soon.My SP friends who've made school less boring and draggy.LauraLisa for the past month of pure euphoria and many more to come.You'll always be a song to remember and a day late friend.To all the bands that have inspired me to pursue my interest in music and made me believe in dreams.And lastly to all the inspirations which allowed me to pen to words.Oh yes,my pencil and black book for holding the secrets,memories and lessons in life that I can proudly hold to remember for the rest of my life.Apologies to those I've missed out,my mind has run out of fuel.

Happy New Year dear readers and I hope 2009 brings about a new meaning to life.


I need light in the dark as I search for the resolution...


There's a lot that I don't know
There's a lot that I'm still learning
But I think I'm letting go
To find my body it's still burning

And you hold me down
And you got me living in the past
Come on and pick me up
Somebody clear the wreckage from the blast

Yeah, I'm alive
But I don't need a witness
To know that I survived
I'm not looking for forgiveness
Yeah, I just need light
I need light in the dark as I search for the resolution

And the bars are finally closed
So I try living in the moment
Til the moment it just froze
And I felt sick and so alone

I can hear the sound
Of your voice still ringing in my ear
I'm going underground
But you'll find me anywhere I feel

That I'm alive
But I don't need a witness
To know that I survived
I'm not looking for forgiveness
Yeah, I just need light
I need light in the dark as I search for the resolution
I need light in the dark as I search for the resolution

(Tomorrow back from hell)
Resolution
(Some stories I will never tell)
Resolution
(And yeah,I'm almost home)
Resolution

And you hold me down
And you hold me down

Yeah, I'm alive
But I don't need a witness
To know that I survived
I'm not looking for forgiveness

Yeah, I'm alive
And I don't need a witness
To know that I survived
I'm not looking for forgiveness
I just need light
I need light in the dark as I search for the resolution
I need light in the dark as I search for the resolution
I need light, I need light

(Light in the dark as I search for the resolution)
Resolution
(Light in the dark as I search for the resolution)
Resolution
(Light in the dark as I search for the resolution)
Resolution...


The Resolution by Jack's Mannequin.

I Caught Myself...

And today,I caught myself...


Down to you
You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
From saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you, of you
You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I want
No, I don't know what I want

You got it, you got it
Some kind of magic
Hypnotic, hypnotic
You're leaving me breathless
I hate this, I hate this
You're not the one I believe in
With God as my witness

Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
From saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you, of you
You're pushing and pulling me down to you
But I don't know what I want
No, I don't know what I want

Don't know what I want
But I know it's not you
Keep pushing and pulling me down
But I know in my heart it's not you

Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
From saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you
I knew, I know in my heart it's not you
I know but now I know what I want, I want, I want
Oh no, I should have never thought...


I Caught Myself by Paramore.

Ho Ho Hopefully...

I'm still in a Christmas mood right now and I'm using the computer at my dad's place which takes forever to load and is too old school for things like Messenger or MySpace.Plus I've got to bear with watching the videos off Youtube without sound so I can't check for the authenticity of the lyrics below until I get back to the belly button of South East Asia,Singapore.I've only heard this song once yesterday and I thought it sounded great and appropriate enough even if it means breaking one of the rules of my blog which is to only post the lyrics of songs which I have already owned.Since I can't wait to post this before next year's Christmas so I might as well squeeze one in.I can't wait for my flight tomorrow and I want to get back to Singapore as soon as I can because I've been missing out on far too many things and I'm running out of time to catch up.I'm not looking forward to Monday though,school's going to be a big bummer which means I'll have to lead my busy,timetabled lifestyle again.

I guess this trip back home has been very productive and made me realise so many things.I've also had the luxury of time to think through so many things that flooded my thoughts in the last few weeks.I guess I found out first hand how much things have progressed so far in such a short period of time and how much I'm cherishing the little moments in life.I've never felt this miserable not being with the few people that meant the most to me and not spending Christmas with them.Sure I'm spending time with my loved ones here but it's different.This is when West Grand Boulevard's Flight Of Fancy comes in really handy and help make me feel better though nothing feels better than just being there in person,sure the weather's the same but the mood in the air is different.The feeling of being close to the people I would want to spend time with,I guess it's something which I've always taken for granted.It doesn't matter that much that people don't miss me whenever I'm gone,it matters more now that I'm the one who miss my friends and family when I'm gone.Call me weak but I've grown very attached to the country I've spent more than half my life at.I must admit that I don't have much of a social circle and that I don't even seem like the friendly type but I do miss the company as much as I like spending time alone.I guess I just found out how long I can stand just being with myself.Well,enjoy the rest of the holidays people or what's left of it.Oh,and remember to say your goodbyes to the end of yet another rollercoaster year.

With much smaller than three(<3),
Centre Claws.


Ho ho hopefully this holiday will make us believe that we're exactly where we're supposed to be...


December 1st, I'm in a foreign state
I'm running late, I'm all alone
Wishing I was home with you, baby
She's got a way of making things okay
When she's not around, when she's not around
I'm going crazy
We like to talk about the plans we make
And things we say when we're together
I hope for better weather this year
But you my dear, need to know
This year I want you alone

Ho ho hopefully this holiday will make us believe that
We're exactly where we're supposed to be
And we're ho ho hoping that
We all come back and as a matter of fact I know
We're exactly where we're supposed to be
Together by this Christmas tree

We go together like the winter and this sweater
And she makes me feel, she makes me feel alive inside
And when I look into her eyes I see the blue and green
Like christmas lights, like christmas lights oh what a sight
She says I've got a way of making everything okay
She's not alone, she's not alone, and never will be
Ho ho hopefully this year I'll have you alone

Ho ho hopefully this holiday will make us believe that
We're exactly where we're supposed to be
And we're ho ho hoping that
We all come back and as a matter of fact I know
We're exactly where we're supposed to be
Together by this Christmas tree

Don't you know this year I want you alone?
Baby I want you alone

Ho ho hopefully this holiday will make us believe that
We're exactly where we're supposed to be
(Exactly where we're supposed to be)
And we're ho ho hoping that
We all come back and as a matter of fact I know
We're exactly where I need to be
Together by this Christmas tree...


Ho Ho Hopefully by The Maine.

All I Want For Christmas Is Us...

Well,this post is written exactly a week before Christmas but I've decided to delay it's release until it's on Christmas day itself so for those of you who stayed tune to my blog during this festive season,cheers to you guys.I'm currently in Indonesia and I have a feeling I'm celebrating at some empty corner of the room cold and alone.Oh well,it could've have been far worse I guess.I am satisfied that I have a roof over my head and knowing the fact that everyone around me is safe and sound.Besides,it's the first time in years or as far as I can remember that I am actually celebrating this festive season with my extended family.I will be back in 2 days time so enjoy the moments while it lasts because it was good riddance that I was away right?Have fun folks,you are sorely missed.


All I want for Christmas is us,just you and I...


What to give the girl who has everything
All I want for christmas you
Here's my list I checked it twice
Wasn't good, wasn't bad, I was naughty and nice
Had my eye on you all year long
And now I know for sure
I wouldn't even have to try you on
No need for gift return

It's going to be a cold winter
But I won't need the heat to keep me warm
As long as you wrap yourself around me
On christmas morning
Whether it's now or later
So long as it's before you go, you know
My love is always in your favour
And now you know that
All I want for christmas

Sweet like a candycane
Hanging from the tree
I'll stripe you red and green
When you hit me like a sugar rush
No need for the other stuff
This season you're all that I need
They say wishing for you
Is like wishing for snow in southern California
But you know that I can prove them all wrong
Cause my love is true, I simply adore you

It's going to be a cold winter
But I won't need the heat to keep me warm
As long as you wrap yourself around me
On christmas morning
Whether it's now or later
As long as it's before you go, you know
My love is always in your favor
And now you know that
All I want for christmas

I can't say that I've been good all year
I'm making resolutions to get you here
And if it means being better than whatever, no sweat
Well I bet my halls that I deck for the cause
And santa claus, he knows what my intentions are
Even dismissing mistletoe so I get to know you
First of all, singing oh my god
You're the reason that I decorate my yard

It's going to be a cold winter
But I won't need the heat to keep me warm
As long as you wrap yourself around me
On christmas morning
Whether it's now or later
As long as it's before you go, you know
My love is always in your favor
And now you know that
All I want for christmas

It's going to be a cold winter
But I wont need the heat to keep me warm
As long as you wrap yourself around me
On christmas morning
Whether it's now or later
Got to tell you before you go
My love is always in your favor
And now you know that
All I want for christmas
All I want for christmas
All I want for christmas
Is us...


All I Want For Christmas Is Us by Jason Mraz and Tristan Prettyman.

For What It's Worth...

Here I am on a Christmas Eve in Indonesia for the first time in years and I'm feeling great and itchy because of the armies of mosquitoes giving me no chance to live and breathe in peace.The trip here has been pretty awesome although I miss Singapore just as much,if not more.I'm eating most of the time so three cheers to fatness.A lot of window shopping,very little shopping action but I'm satisfied with my buys thus far.I spent a lot of time with my lovely cousins from both sides and my oldest cousin got engaged,big shout out to him.I've been staying over at my mom's side for the past few days doing nothing in particular,lazing around watching dvds and visits to the nearby mall.Plus,the acoustic guitar always ready for me to use whenever I feel like playing or creating some random tunes.Managed to create some things using Bryan's riffs,I'll let him listen when I'm back there and hopefully he'll like it.It's missing the ending though,so hopefully we can come up with something together.I miss the SavingSomeone boys,I don't care if I sound gay or anything.And of course,I miss you terribly.


He was as scared as anyone in his shoes would be but there's no such thing as second chances.He had to take a chance,sooner or later and he couldn't run from it,unless the decision is already made up for him.He believed that he can conquer his fears even though it takes one hands to clap,at least he knew the battle is half won.He took her hand,she obliged."Don't push it," he told himself "the time will come." He opened his trusty black book,he chuckled to himself as he came across the heading of one of the pages 'Be Patient,Be Still'.He continued flipping until he reaches a blank page,he took out his writing pencil and digged deep into his thoughts."We will make this last forever,right?"he asked himself "for what it's worth at least..."


I miss you terribly
The distance can't control me
I promise we will pull through
I'm constantly thinking of you
Oh, hold your head up girl
And wear a smile for me
It still seems far away
But someday you will see

You know I'm worth waiting for
We've been through so much more
After all
So wipe away those tears (those tears)
Oh, we can conquer our fears
And never fall

I'm a thousand miles away
But please just hang in there
Someday things will be fine
We'll make up for lost time
Oh, close your eyes now girl
Imagine me right there
I'm sitting right beside you
All the memories we share

You know I'm worth waiting for
We've been through so much more
After all
So wipe those tears (those tears)
Oh,we can conquer our fears
And never fall (and never fall)

But they say
Good things don't last forever
And maybe I
Oh,maybe I'm scared of love

But they say
Good things don't last forever
And maybe I
Oh,maybe I'm scared of love

But they say
Good things don't last forever
And maybe I
Oh,maybe I'm scared of love

But they say
Good things don't last forever
And maybe I
Oh,maybe I'm scared of love

But they say
(But they say)
Good things don't last forever
And maybe I
Oh,maybe I'm scared of love

But they say
(But they say)
Good things don't last forever
And maybe I
Oh,maybe I'm scared of love...


For What It's Worth by For This Cycle.

Brothers On A Hotel Bus...

I came back from 4 long days of camp in which I played for the church band during praise and worship and I even managed to play for SavingSomeone on Friday evening at Cineleisure.We had lots of improvements to be made and we shall get down on them the next time we're jamming.I missed the trip to Pulau Ubin and that means that I still haven't landed my feet on that damn island.I was so shagged I slept like a log until night time after a nice hot bath during a cold day.The moment I woke up,I was greeted by the awesome news by my brother that my computer died.It crashed and thus I have no access to internet through my desktop,woohoo.That's just great,there goes my chance to catch up on whatever I missed out over the past few days.

Since it's past midnight,yesterday I had a pretty decent day.Lauralisa came over to watch Paramore's The Final Riot which is awesome as always and we played Sims for a bit before she had to leave for her friend's chalet.Oh we played with my new toy,a spy pen which can only be read under ultraviolet light,super cool for a cheap price.I shall go write more hidden messages to her.Met Ryan,Clement and Luqman at Siglap's Starbucks so that I can use the wireless and they also came over to my place to play Xbox.Somehow we ended up deciding to go over to Ryan's place and here I am now using the free wireless at the comfort of his home which feels really comfortable and homely.I'm staying over for the night here with Clement partly because I'm dying to access the internet and since both Ryan's parents and my mom's not around,I guess I can afford to stay here without any complaints.I shall go off to bed now though we're watching My Chemical Romance on dvd and the surround system is freaking insane that I don't feel like sleeping.Filming tomorrow or rather later,gosh.


Like brothers on a hotel bus...


You may tire of me
As our December sun is setting
Cause I'm not who I used to be

No longer easy on the eyes
But these wrinkles masterfully disguise
The youthful boy below

Who turned your way and saw
Something he was not looking for
Both a beginning and an end

But now he lives inside
Someone he does not recognise
When he catches his reflection on accident

On the back of a motor bike
With your arms outstretched trying to take flight
Leaving everything behind

But even at our swiftest speed
We couldn't break from the concrete
In the city where we still reside

And I have learned
That even landlocked lovers yearn
For the sea-light navy men

Cause now we say goodnight
From our own separate sides
Like brothers on a hotel bed

Like brothers on a hotel bed
Like brothers on a hotel bed
Like brothers on a hotel bed

You may tire of me
As our December sun is setting
Cause I'm not who I used to be...


Brothers On A Hotel Bus by Death Cab For Cutie.

No One Really Wins...

Welcome to EdTV's Music Awards 08,the annual gala whereby the awards is judged solely by me and my trusty iPod.And to add in the drama,this year is the first for me to hold such a grand event in my boring old blog.You audiences have the power to vote for your favourite artistes,not.I'm guessing noone reads my blog anyway so I shan't bother tallying up votes and whatnot so for those of you who feels that I made the wrong choice,feel free to leave your comments and if there are much response then I might let the people have the power next year.And as you can tell,I'm shamelessly biased and I like creating nonsensical awards for artistes that I adore.There's not even room for nominations although I had a very hard time deciding,so here goes.And oh,pretend there's a commercial break in during the breaks from every 7 awards.

Favourite Solo Male Artiste of the Year award: Jason Mraz.
Favourite Solo Female Artiste of the Year award: Tristan Prettyman.
Band of the Year award: Between The Trees.
Album of the Year award: A Lesson In Romantics by Mayday Parade.
EP of the Year award: There For Tomorrow, self-titled.
Song of the Year award: Darlin' by Between The Trees.
Lyrics of the Year award: Darlin' by Between The Trees.

Upcoming Band of the Year award: The Cab and Forever The Sickest Kids(tied).
Inspiration award: Jack's Mannequin.
Long Service(U.S.A) award: Anberlin and Relient K(tied).
Long Servive(U.K) award: Funeral For A Friend.
Best Live Act award: The Final Riot! by Paramore.
Best Live Acoustic Act award: Mayday Parade,barely edge SavingSomeone by a fraction.
Best Live Act I've Seen This Year award: Boys Like Girls.
One Hit Wonder award: Shake It by Metro Station.

Headbanging award: Fightstar.
Feel Good award: Cute Is What We Aim For.
Sing Along award: The Maine.
Most Epic Song award: I'd Hate To Be You When You Find Out What This Song Is About by Mayday Parade.
Most Worth It Album of the Year(and the year before that): We The Kings,self-titled($17 last November).
"Yeah" of the Year: Timbaland.
Dawg from the Hood Award: Kanye West.
Bubblegum of the Year award: nevershoutnever!.

Movie Original Soundtrack of the Year award: Borat and August Rush(tied).
Music Video of the Year award: Unwinding Cable Car by Anberlin.
Vocals of the Year award: Deas Vail.
Green Message of the Year award: A Beautiful Lie by 30 Seconds to Mars.
All Time High award: All Time Low.
Holy Band of the Year award: Underoath and The Almost(tied).
Best Cover of the Year award: Slam Krunk by Holiday Parade and I Wanna Love You by The Maine(tied).

Christmas Song of the Year(and the years before that): All I Want For Christmas Is Us by Jason Mraz and Tristan prettyman.
Youtube award: The Musical by I Set My Friends On Fire.
One Man Band award: The Rocket Summer.
Mind Blowing award: PmToday.
Local Solo Artiste of the Year: Weiwen from For This Cycle.
Local Band of the Year: West Grand Boulevard.
Local Song of the Year: DKNY by West Grand Boulevard.

Local Album of the Year: In Stores Now! by Jack & Rai.
Long Awaited Album of the Year But Still Not Out Yet award: Caracal.
Song to Listen to When I'm Down award: Miss Sunshine by Postbox.
Breakdown of the Year: Cheers to Love by Caracal.
Best Songs without Vocal Tracks Added Yet award: Tacit Aria.
Saviours award: SavingSomeone(I just had to shamelessly put ourselves in).
I Listen to Bands That Don't Even Exist Yet award: The Projectionists.

Alright,that's all folks.The artistes above are receiving their awards through free publicity and high recommendations by me.So yes,no one really wins this time...


Welcome love
I have made a place for you here
And I know every word they say
I don't want it, want to make you change

Change if you want
But don't you go and change for me
I can love you as you are
I didn't mean to make you want to leave

In the fight between my heart and mind
No one really wins this time
No one really wins this time

If you don't find a love you want
If I have acted ungracefully
I don't want to see you go
I never meant to make you want to leave

Go if you want
Make your way straight to the door
I hope that you will look back before you go
Cause grace always looks back before it starts to leave

In the fight between my heart and mind
No one really wins this time
No one really wins this time
In the endless fight of grace and pride
I don't want to win this time
I don't want to win this time

Change if you want
But don't you go and change for me
I will love you as you are
I didn't mean to make you want to leave

It's a fight between my heart and mind
No one really wins this time
No one really wins this time
In the endless fight of grace and pride
I don't want to win this time
I don't want to win this time
In the endless fight of grace and pride
I don't want to win this time
I don't want to win this time...


No One Really Wins by Copeland.

Darlin'...

I must admit that the past two days have been great,in fact great is truly an understatement.Yesterday's In Rock We Trust otherwise known as The Finale of School Invasion Tour is by far the best gig I've been to this year.Maybe it's because I'm biased but hey,bloody hell who gives a damn right?I was treated to awesome set after set by the biggest few bands in the local music scene namely The Fire Fight,Force Vomit,A Vacant Affair,Jack and Rai,Allura,Caracal,West Grand Boulevard and Plainsunset.I didn't stay for Plainsunset for personal reasons,ehem,Jon Chan and the long wait for West Grand Boulevard's set was so worth it.The only letdown was probably the the short set,4 songs by West Grand Boulevard is never enough for me man.I'm just so glad I found them back in the days and now they're churning out songs like DKNY which is so catchy and makes me high.Oh oh,and I just remembered that Bryan from WGB gave me the mic to sing along to DKNY.It was so funny because I was like super possessed when the chorus came along so by the time it reached the 'let's get over it' part,I was literally in la-la-land.Caracal's Cheers To Love is intense,The Fire Fight is jumpy,A Vacant Affair is moshy and Jack and Rai makes me gay happy,1,2,3.Yippee,I love talking like a small kiddo.

Ok anyway,today was spent mostly at Old School Sinema with Lauralisa.We caught 18 Grams of Love which was awesome.Lesson for everyone to learn is that you should never judge films just because they're local,I think the concept of 18 Grams is so original and it definitely scores a distinction in entertaining me.The couches are so comfortable,I can lounge and sleep on it like a baby(comfort level +10 in Sims).Sure the green tea is overpriced at $2 but the atmosphere was priceless(environment level +10 in Sims) and for once,I found a place where I can find solace besides churches.I shall go back there again one fine day before it becomes "mainstream",or maybe it already has just that I don't know it just yet.So I conclude that today is great,it's so great that it's epic.


He was battered to the bones.Yet,he hung on."Maybe,just maybe,"he constantly told himself in the hopes of finding that stroke of luck he badly needed and feeling sudden rush of desire to continue breathing.He caught a glimpse of a moving object from a distant.Ever so slowly,it crept it's way to him.Time and time again,his visions had succeed in toying with his mind but this time something just felt different.He was confident that it wasn't just a mirage and as the object got closer,he could only guess that it wasn't just something,it was someone.He then closed his eyes and started praying with much more faith,hope and love than he ever did.The clouds parted,creating a vertical horizon as to where the figure stood.Even though he know he was vulnerable,he stretched his arm in the hopes of reaching out to it and in turn,receiving a positive response.His outstretched fingers locked with the figure's.He felt safer now,as if all the troubles in the world was erased into oblivion.He told himself "live,because life goes on..." and he mustered his last ounce of strength to get on his feets.He looked at the figure in the eyes,apprehensive at first but he started tearing the next.Joy.


Sweet Darlin',this is my confession to the crimes of wanting you badly.And Darlin' if you're wondering,here's my answer.Yes,I like you.I don't love you.I can't love you.Yet...


This call is meant to be brief
A simple hello ending with goodbye
Then you say hello now
I am melting and now my goodbye
Becomes a goodnight

I don't mind if you don't mind
Please say you do not mind if this call
Goes on all night
Cause I have more to say
My afternoon was ok
My evening was fine but this night
I want it to be the best night
Of our lives

Sweet Darlin'
This is my confession to
The crimes of wanting you badly
And Darlin' if you're wondering
Here's your answer
Yes, I like you
I don't love you
I can't love you
Yet

These calls are getting longer
And these nights go on, forever
(Nights go on, nights go on)
I do believe I'm getting better
Knowing you
Hopefully all of you

Sitting, watching movies
We both know I do not watch a bit of it
Cause I am much to busy
Leaving my hand close enough
So you'll hold it

Sweet Darlin'
This is my confession to
The crimes of wanting you badly
And Darlin' if you're wondering
Here's your answer
Yes, I like you
I don't love you
I can't love you

And I can not stop thinking about you
I can not stop wondering
If you're constantly thinking about me
Don't close your eyes dear, I'm still staring
I won't lie dear, I'm still breathing
Even though your beauty is breathtaking

Sweet Darlin'
This is my confession to
The crimes of wanting you badly
And Darlin' if you're wondering
Here's your answer
Yes, I like you
I can't love you
I can't love you
Or at least I do not think I do...


Darlin' by Between The Trees.

Practice Makes Perfect...

Last night was freawesome,freaking + awesome.It was perhaps one of the most unbelievable day of my life.The day started out shitty,literally.I had a bad stomachache while waiting for the train at the platform so I had no choice to tap my card out again so let's leave the details out.I was late for photography class but slightly less than half turned up anyway so it's better late than never.I realised how tiring it was to carry my bass and pedal case around for a whole day,I pity my poor shoulders and the humid weather wasn't helping either.I skipped news writing class and went to City Hall to meet Bryan,Ryan and Clement.I also realised that I was underdressed,I know I should've worn my collared shirt but oh well.Soundchecked for an hour and we saw a poster being displayed at Esplanade itself and I was like,holy cow.I felt like we weren't ready for this and I tried lying to myself,brainwashing myself to not be nervous.About 45 minutes before the show,we were asked to head to the dressing room and wait until showtime.The organisers actually convinced us that the room was nothing fancy but in all honesty,that room felt like a million bucks.It was as if we were on Warped Tour or something man.Their treatment and accommodation was definitely first class,I can't quite imagine the treatment of the real big stars.We're just noobs who got a lucky break somehow.

We were stuffing food down our throats with less than 15 minutes to spare and we ventured out of the dressing room.The stage was set and there was actual crowds patiently waiting for us.I was overwhelmed but I realised not many people from my side showed up so I was less nervous.The first set was ok I guess,it wasn't good enough because we weren't interacting enough with the crowd.But I think getting the first set done was a scary experience,I think more than 50 people were watching us,that's a lot of people for me.We've never reached that amount of crowd coming down just to catch us in action but after all that was done,we were geared up for the second set.I actually wanted to play more songs because I was having so much fun.We were talking more in between sets even though it sounded more like mumblings.Still,the effort was there and it was definitely better than our first set by milestones.We had a mini-debrief and it was time to say goodbye to our dressing room.

So here's my thanks to everyone who came all the way down despite all your busy schedule to watch and support us,it means a lot to us.Hopefully we made it worth your while.I would like to thank all our friend-bands like Fire Away,Samson!,Tacit Aria,Maha from Ingride and Limelights of the Past.Busm's friends and church gang(Amanda,Ryan,Matthew,Benedict and Lynette),Zach from The Elevator,Jialin's girlfriend and classmates.Desiree and Adam's friends.Ryan's girlfriend and his classmates.Nicky,Jo and gang.Busm's folks and my mom.Lauralisa and friends,I was glad I knew her one day before the big day.And most importantly,the Esplanade organisers who did so much for us,not forgetting the sound crew from The Music Lab.Oh,and everyone whom I missed out,the passer-bys and anyone who turned their heads in our direction.

For those who missed our show,fret not because we'll have another one coming really soon and it's going to be a full-blown electric set.I shall post the details as the date arrives.I can promise it's going to be a blast because we'll be playing alongside super awesome and established bands.I shan't drop the bombs just yet,suspense.Lastly,I'm honoured to be in the band alongside my comrades in arms,Ryan,Jialin,Eugene and Busm.I'm going to cherish these moments forever.Here's to many more awesome gigs to come!


Practice makes perfect,practice makes perfect sense to me...


So sweet I can hardly speak
Due to such trauma in my teeth
But your body language is telling that you're worth the pain

So weak I can hardly keep
Shaky legs, holding up my feet
But your body language is telling me that I'm not to blame

Practice makes perfect
Practice makes perfect sense

I've become what a mother wouldn't want in a son
And I have done a few things I regret
But practice makes perfect
Practice makes perfect sense
To me

Wake up at first light hearing you calling out
For your criminal clothing that fled the scene
Upon being ripped free
Conversation ensued
And I want to do so many things to you
Sip after sip
You insist you're a hit
Sip after sip
Yeah, I swear I can feel it

Practice makes perfect
Practice makes perfect sense

I’ve become what a mother wouldn't want in a son
And I have done a few things I regret
I’ve become what a mother wouldn't want in a son
And I have done what a mother wouldn’t want
What a mother wouldn't want in a son

Practice makes perfect
Practice makes perfect sense
Practice makes perfect
Practice makes perfect sense

I've become what a mother wouldn't want in a son
And I have done a few things I regret
I've become what a mother wouldn't want in a son
And I have done what a mother wouldn't want
What a mother wouldn't want in a son

Practice makes perfect
Practice makes perfect sense
Practice makes perfect
Practice makes perfect sense
To me...


Practice Makes Perfect by Cute Is What We Aim For.