Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Photograph...

For all the camwhores in the house,I've something which all of you can enjoy and salute our effort in trying to be one or rather a group of camwhores.This is what happened when you get too bored and too unproductive to do group work at a certain Starbucks in a certain part of the City Hall area.Also,this has got to be one of the main reason to get an iBook besides having GarageBand,looking really cool and having the magical Apple button.You're part of the minority in this world that believes that Apple is the best thing that ever happened since your birth and because you're the owner,you're even better than the best people on the face of this earth.No,I've got nothing against Apple,even I'm after one myself.But after watching XiaXue diss the hell out of an iPhone on Youtube,it makes me think twice about it.However,I will still stand my ground that Apple will be making a hell lot more profits just by selling a straw called iSuck.Yes,I suck with iSuck and the China's version will be called a uSuck so the whole world sucks,literally.And when Steve Jobs unveil it to the world,Bill Gates will ring me up and hire me as a future technology expert.Anyway,presenting camwhore session 1.
































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































The next time you leave Dawn,Sammy,Hazwan,Wahidah and myself stranded in some unknown island,make sure you provide us with an iBook,some Starbucks to get high on and some food for us to survive on,we'll ensure that we'll camwhore until our dying day and set a Guinness World Record since Sammy's a hardcore camwhore.We're feeding off her aura in being thick-skinned and learning the secret arts of taking photos of oneself with one hand.Next lesson will be 'Taking Cute Photos of Oneself With No Hand'.


I think everything in this world is judgemental.Beauty pageants are never fair,judges are judging based on how much they want to sleep with one of the ladies on stage or how many times they have slept with the ladies and from their own definition of beauty(see slim,tall and fake/plastic parts of body).Art is overrated,they sell because of the name of the artist and whether he/she is dead.If your name ends with Picasso or Da Vinci,you're a genius but if your front name is Tom,Dick or Harry,too bad,you're just an average Joe who's trying to scam the whole world of their money to gain fame and money.And if you're still living,you're just an ordinary person whose artwork is called rubbish.People seems to only appreciate things when the person involved is dead,when that happens people praise him for his twisted way of art.Who are we to judge another's view of the world.I'm starting to get really insecure in that sense because statements are made by people to influence us to their point of view.And this also refers to schoolwork especially when teachers mark your essays,the way you structure your answers for comprehension,summary and so on because each of us respond to stories differently.At least have a guideline on the basics but let us express ourselves the way we want to,not a textbook way of answering.So yes,I'm persuading you readers right now to think,not judge about all that's considered equal.
A split second late will turn a genius into an amateur photographer...

Her name was written on a photograph
Right next to her red, sunburnt face
It all had happened in that long tall grass
About a mile from her old place
I can't remember how it started
And if it lasted that day in the sun
We said that we were going to study hard
We held our books instead of hands
She held a blanket over cans of beer
I can't deny I was so full of fear
It's just another story caught up
In another photograph I found
And it seems like another person
Lived that life a great many years ago from now

When I look back on my ordinary, ordinary life
I see so much magic though I missed it at the time
When I look back on my ordinary, ordinary life
I see so much magic, though I missed it at the time

And there's the first time that I tried that stuff
I think I look a little green
I remember throwing up behind a bush
And I found it hard to use my feet
And who is that easily led little boy
Who's really off his head?
It was the same night that I kissed that girl
The tall one with the auburn hair
I remember laughing 'cause to kiss me
She had to sit down on a chair
She tasted like the schnapps she'd drunk
And the cigarette she'd stolen from her mum
And it's just another story caught up
In another photograph I found

When I look back on my ordinary, ordinary life
I see so much magic, though I missed it at the time
When I look back on my ordinary, ordinary life
I see so much magic, though I missed it at the time

When I look back on my ordinary, ordinary life
I see so much magic, though I missed it at the time...


Photograph by Jamie Cullum.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

One Foot In, One Foot Out...




When these two clips are the best thing that happened today,you know that something's wrong somewhere.Then again,funny stuff makes me happy about the day even when it feels like the sheet-iest day of your life.And I haven't been watching,reading or hearing any hilarious things anytime recently so today was more productive in that sense,thanks YanHan for sending me the link.Well anyhow,it's still normal and human enough for me to actually realise that a joke a day keeps me awake and I haven't lost my ability to think.

A few days back,I was reading the newspaper about weird names.I remembered posting about weird names celebrities give their kids,and I thought they were bad enough.Mark Lee is forgiven for suggesting Love Lee as his daughter's name since it's nothing compared to the rest of the weird people in this world who is preparing to give their kids an insanely difficult life from getting mocked because of their name.Bus Stop Number 16,what kind of name is that?You don't name your kids after the place you made out at,if that's even where you conceive the baby.Can you imagine the kid in class when the teacher is taking attendance?The next kid on the list will go,"I'm Train Station Number 17,beat that 16." He's cursed for life that's for sure.And yes,a pair of twins is named Fish and Chip.They're perhaps one of the all-time favourite food by man since it's very first existence.I won't be surprised if they became the mascot for Fish & Co. or Long John Silver's or wherever that sells this poor sea creature that's deep-fried in batter or bread crumbs along with French fries.There's even a wikipedia page on it,http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fish_and_chips.And I thought something's wrong somewhere with me,well these people are definitely worse.Stupid names are unique but there's a reason why people don't pick this stupid names,and it's not just because they're labelled stupid.

Serious note now,SavingSomeone is playing at Homeclub next Saturday,August 2nd at 8pm alongside other great bands such as The November Iris,DeafeningSilence,Sunny's Violet Ray,Audiocean,Mannequin Masquerade and many more.Door is open at 2:30pm but our slot is at 8pm so stick around if you're planning to catch the other great bands playing on that same day.Tickets are at $12 and no,we're not profitting from this.It's going to be an awesome gig because we have a solid song list,we have Bryan Ulric Santa Maria on drums,we have the multi-instrumentalist Eugene on the Telecaster guitar,we have the pretty boy Ryan on the sexy Stratocaster and we have the China-born Charlie who's got Cove of Saosin's voice.Oh not forgetting Pete Wentz on bass,just kidding I'm nowhere near his standard,in terms of showmanship at least.I know it clashes with the first day of Singfest but I'm sure that most of you out there will give up the $150 tickets to catch us right?Right,anyway I really hope to see you people at Homeclub at 8 and don't be late or else you'll miss our set.


Whenever I put one foot in,you made sure that the other foot stays out...


I don't want to talk to anyone but you
And tell you what I feel and the things I'm going through

And I want to be blind to the things that drag me down
And I want to be blind, I don't want to sell out
Cause you are more than I could ever pretend
To know that the first thing about love and what it means
That I will hold on to your words forever
To know you, to see you, to touch you
You're all I want
You're all I need

I can't ride this fence, it's tearing me apart
One foot in, one foot out, I can't keep this straight now

And I want to be blind to the things that drag me down
And I want to be blind I don't want to sell out
Cause you are more than I could ever pretend
To know what the first thing about love and what it means
That I will hold on to your words forever
To know you, to see you, to touch you
You're all I want
You're all I need

And I'll do anything you want me to, I promise
Tell you what you want to hear if you just
Let me stay here with you forever
It's where I want to be

Want to know you, want to see you
I can feel it, when I touch you
Want to know you, want to see you
I can feel it, when I touch you
When I touch you, you, you...


One Foot In, One Foot Out by Ruth.

Friday, July 25, 2008

Dressed In Black...

It's finally my 300th post anniversary and it's such an appropriate timing because after an extremely gruelling and painstakingly long week,it's the weekends.Not exactly much of a break because there are still so many things to do,projects and whatnots.The pile of work is endless,there seems to be new ones each time but now that it's coming to the end of the semester,I don't think they're going to add anymore projects to the list.If any of you out there is still having this illusion that life in polytechnic is slack,here's a dose of reality for you,it's not.And to think that this is only the first semester which seniors have described as the honeymoon period.When you finish a project,another comes along and the best thing is,most of them have the same deadline week so imagine yourself digging for time to meet the deadlines.It's not so bad if you're doing individual work because you only have yourself to depend on but since many are group works,it'll be even more interesting as everyone's busy on different days and also the different grouping.Picture this,20 students in a class,5 modules,5 members per project,5 different groupings for each project.Formula for stress,that's for sure.

So as SavingSomeone waits patiently for the results of the Tapestry08 auditions,we had an awesome time at the studio today.Busm's presence has certainly boosted our music to greater heights and also,he has injected this freshness into the band which makes us eager to jam.What more anticipating for gigs in the future.We covered Fightstar's Paint Your Target today and I think we did them justice.Overall,our session was pretty messy but it was one of the most fun because we were moving around a lot and we can feel the tightness in the music.I'm pleased to say that Busm's role is very crucial because he has elevated us to an extent that we're more ambitious now in terms of picking songs.Music taste-wise,I'm sure he fits in since his genre is so broad that there's a lot of common favourites between everyone of us.Person-wise,he'll get used to our nonsense and seating plan-wise,we're going to need another table since most places provides table for 4.Now all we need is for him to give us more feedback on how to improve ourselves and add his own flavour to the songs so he has some say.

Anyway,Ryan has just started a business and he has got all the blueprints covered.He is getting Threadless shirts to this sunny and recently rainy island.So please support him by placing more order and give this guy a harder time.Why buy from him,you ask?Well,simple answer,he sells them at a cheaper rate than say Billboard at Far East which inflates the prices by a lot.Imagine buying something for $40 when you can have it at less than $30,and it's not $29.95 either.And if you look at their catalogue,you can see so many cute,funny,hilarious,cute,cute and did I say funny designs at reasonable prices.It's a steal and as of now,I have 1 shirt on the way in slightly more than a week's time.Why shop at Topman and Co. when there's a cheaper alternative in the form of Threadless and Ryan doing all the dirty work.All you have to do is find the design you like,choose the available size,contact us,meet Ryan at either Simei or City Hall Mrt,pass the money and transaction is done.It's that easy.No,I'm not paid to do this but I'd love to.I'm just a promoter for this project because I too like the designs and would like more of you people to enjoy wearing them with as much pride and laughter as I do.Click here http://www.threadless.com/ for the catalogue and click here http://iamryansaw.livejournal.com or leave a tag or comment or msn or sms me to place an order.


Dressed in black you walk out the door,but that's okay because there'll be another in white...


Dressed in black you walk into the night
The night is what we call your name
Your name says what you are
You are lost in this naked world
In this world you had your hope pinned on a sunday evening
After all the colours fade
Colours helped you smile
And your smile is fading
Dressed in black

Dressed in black
Dressed in black
Dressed in black
Dressed in black

Dressed in black you walk into the day
The day you didn't even ask for
But you are the only one
You are lost in this naked world
In this world you had a dream of being a sleeping child
And you wake to your life
And your life of a child
And a child is wailing
Dressed in black

After all the colours fade
Colours helped you smile
And your smile is fading
Dressed in black

Dressed in black
Dressed in black
Dressed in black
Dressed in black


Dressed In Black by Shirlyn Tan.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

My Blue Heaven...

I'll fly you to my blue heaven if you let me,even if it's above your cloud number nine...


Two sides twist and then collide
You're calling off the guards
(Am I coming?)
I'm coming through
(Am I coming?)
Adulterous conditioned to a spin cycled submission
You know, sometimes it just feels better to give in
(Sometimes, it just feels better to give in)

And it's all too familiar
And it happens all the time
All the cards begin to stack up
Twisting heartache into fine
Little pieces that avoid an awful crime
But it's you I can't deny
(You I can't deny)

Dull heat rises from the sheets
I'm both a patient boy
And a jealous man
(Am I coming?)
My double standardised suspicion is remedied
Oh, my blue heaven
Sometimes, it just feels better to give in
(Sometimes, it just feels better to give in)

And it's all too familiar
And it happens all the time
All the cards begin to stack up
Twisting heartache into fine
Little pieces that avoid an awful crime
But it's you I can't deny
(You I can't deny)

We swing and we sway
As this tiny voice in
My head starts to sing
You're safe, child, you are safe
(You're safe, child, you are safe)
You're safe, child, you are safe

We swing and we sway
As this tiny voice in
My head starts to sing
You're safe, child, you are safe
You're safe, child, you are

Safe (safe, safe)
You are safe (safe, oh)

We swing and we sway
As this tiny voice in
My head starts to sing
You're safe, child, you are safe
(Am I coming?)
You're safe, child, you are safe
(Am I)
Coming through?

Is this all too familiar?
Does it happen all the time?
I'm just asking you to hear me
Could you please, just once, just hear me?
More than anything you wanted to be right
Still it's you, you, it's you I can't deny
(You I can't deny)
It's you I can't deny...


My Blue Heaven by Taking Back Sunday.

Monday, July 21, 2008

The Permanent Rain...

Some people just have all the luck.Sure they win some and lose some,but they sure won a lot more than I do.I was randomly looking at my posts last year and I found that lady luck has abandoned me for possibly someone who's less lucky than I am.Although I can't pretty much think of what could be worse than whatever I've been experiencing.Rotten luck,tough luck and the list goes on at the number of luck that has somehow stuck to me and there's no way I can repel them.I'm really hoping it's not embedded in me for the rest of my life or else,I'm going to be one miserable son of a bun.The last thing I want to be is the bread dipped into the butter at Breadtalk with the floss representing the bad luck and jinx that I'm cursed with.

Anyway,I've found out how selfish I am as a person.This also refers to the paragraph above because I'm self-centred mustard who spams this blog with me,myself and more I.The best defence to that statement is,because this is my blog.And so,since I'm in charge here,I have the power to place myself in the centre of the universe while the people around me revolves around my big head.It's perfectly fine because this is just a blog and I'm not as self-centred in person,hopefully.But I dare say that any resolution I made about better-ing myself has failed,or at least not been successful.I still end up making the same mistakes and regretting them,but smart enough not to learn from them.I keep falling for the same old tricks,then again it's easy to fall into temptations isn't it?It takes just one second of sudden and impulse urge to push us toward silly things and it takes forever to make things right,that's if we re lucky enough to be given the chance to 'repay our debts'.More often than not,we're unable to take back whatever's said and done.

On a much lighter note,I love the weather today.Chilly rainy morning reminds me of the good old days.Though it was a different kind of warmth then but that's okay.I'm praying for more of such mornings in the near future.More raindrops and stronger wind,please.All I need is a hoodie and some nice caffeine to keep me company through the permanent rain...


So why the sudden change
And what's this all about?
I know they speak your name
But where’s the sound right now?
I can't stop praying you'll hear me play
I know that I’ll be with you there someday

So where the hell's my hope
And why can't I just try?
You know I've lost a lot
But I won't let this die
I know I've got a friend up in the atmosphere
And another reason not to fear the sky
No, not tonight

Can I pull out all the stops
And get out of this town?
I want to make you proud
But I really don't know how
I know it's not helping to hear me say
“I wish it was me in the car that day”

Though something made me stop
And think of what you said
You know it meant a lot
But I was just a kid
One with all these dreams of growing up and
Playing music on the road
I’ve been screaming all these years and
Thinking of you both

So where's my hope
And why can't I just try?
You know I've lost a lot
But I won't let this die
I know I've got a friend up in the atmosphere
And another reason not to fear the sky
No, not tonight

I wrote this note
Because I never even told you
You know I've got some things to sing about
Like we were young and holding true
To all these songs that always made us pull through
And now I've got some words that I'll write down
I'm sending this shit out

So where's my hope
And why can't I just try?
You know I've lost a lot
But I won't let this die
I know I've got a friend up in the atmosphere
And another reason not to fear the sky
No, not tonight

So where's my hope
And why can't I just try?
You know I've lost a lot
But I won't let this die
I know I've got a friend up in the atmosphere
And another reason not to fear the sky
No, not tonight

So where the hell's my hope
And why can't I just try?
You know I've lost a lot
But I won't let this die
I know I've got a friend up in the atmosphere
And another reason not to fear the sky
No, not tonight, no, not tonight...


The Permanent Rain by The Dangerous Summer.

Friday, July 18, 2008

Colors...

After today's design basics lesson,I can never look at colours the same way again.I've always find it fun to play around with photoshop but ever since just now,I find even more reason to want to use it for every picture that I have which is why I'm going to start playing again after I'm done with this post.Call me extremely outdated but really,who can blame my extreme laggy-ness,I'm like a Pentium 1 cpu while the world is paced at Pentium D.Well,the colours lesson still intrigues me somehow.It has sort of made me see new channels which I haven't seen before.No,I'm not saying it just because someone cured my eyes from the colour deficiency thing.I just see things in more details now,I think I'm starting to value colours more although I'm still a big fan of black and white.I wonder how is it like seeing the world only in shades of black and white,I think it'll be pretty cool.Then again,you won't get to see the vibrant world filled with all shades of colours that it's impossible to give a name to all.Also,I wonder what it's like seeing things from another person's eyes as in literally.Not just seeing the person's view on things,but seeing it as in according to his or her eyeballs because everyone sees things differently just like everyone perceives things differently.

Besides,I don't have the photographic skill and ka-ching resources like a certain Ryan Chang who has spent bombs in acquiring his gears so I shan't compete against him on this sort of things.Instead,I'll complement him by editing the photos he took like say for band pictures and stuff so we're like saving a lot of money on unnecessary photo shoots since we can all go DIY and use whatever knowledge we have.It's so much more fun because we know ourselves and we know what image we want to portray towards the viewers.I know the professional photographers are really creative people who does an awesome job and I'd love to have a photo shoot one day,but for now,let's just be ourselves and do it the way we want it.Besides,it's more personal that way since we each contribute something to the band other than just through the music aspect.

Oh right,since I haven't made the announcement here I might as well include it now.Those of you who hasn't heard the latest news about SavingSomeone's new drummer,go click on our myspace link on the right of your screen and read our latest blog post.I have to say that I'm really excited about this whole saga and I can't wait to play at our next gig which isn't even confirmed yet.Wait,I'm already excited about the next jamming session because the previous one was insanely insane in a good way.I kept laughing because I remembered how the song was played the last time and comparing them to the new version which are breathtaking.It's like comparing Russell Peter's jokes with extremely lame ones.I'm not saying Eugene's lousy,anyone who can play the drums are like a zillion times better than I am because my hand and leg co-ordination is so bad that it's shameful,it's just that the new ones are from another dimension.Hopefully,we'll get to showcase him soon because I can't wait to see the look on the faces of everyone watching.


Spin the color wheel and tell me what my mood is...


Now, let's take it back to January
An overflowing heart and empty wallet scene
Some wheels and a guitar yeah, you think we're crazy
Driving on the ways of the high and free

And so, we just hold on

I remember rolling
Through some state into a hotel scene
With pennies to my name, I remember thinking
I can't sleep, but she's loving me

And so, we just hold on
Just hold on

And here with you
Under these colors
I'll stay with you
There is no other
We share a name
We share a wonder
And on the roads ahead
We'll keep going further
Whoa, whoa

And all the struggles and honorable mentions
That pave our history
Well, all of my attention
Is here surrounding you
I forget all that has used me, bruised me
Rolling on through

Because here with you
Under these colors
I'll stay with you
There is no other
We share a name
We share a wonder
And on the roads ahead
We'll keep going further

The rest is right, the rest is wrong
The rest will come when it comes along
The rest will find us, we belong here
Oh, oh

The rest is right, the rest is wrong
The rest will come when it comes along
The rest will find us, we belong here
Oh, oh, oh
Yeah

And here with you
Under these colors
I'll stay with you
There is no other
We share a name
We share a wonder
And on the roads ahead
We'll keep going further

And here with you
Under these colors
I'll stay with you
There is no other
We share a name
We share a wonder
And on the roads ahead
We'll keep going further

The rest is right, the rest is wrong
The rest will come when it comes along
The rest will find us, we belong here...


Colors by The Rocket Summer.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

The Departure...

Angst.A mixture of frustration,anger,sadness and confusion.Thanks alot,really.I caught the most obvious of hint so I'm going to return the favour.It's a shame that it has to end up this way but it probably doesn't matter as much to you as it is to me.I'm just glad that I can finally get this over and done with before things got out of hand.So here's the departure,from me to you...


And this is the last straw
The time is now I can finally see
Through these walls that you built
This is the hole you call the truth

We've had enough of these useless ties
We've seen enough of what we could be
This has become something we've never believed
Slowly but surely it'll take us all away
(It'll take us all away, it'll take us all away)

I remembered what you said to me
Everything will be the same like it used to be
Now I know what I mean to you
If I can't do everything that you want me to

(If I knew the truth)
Then I wouldn't be here
(And now that you've got)
All that you always wanted
(This place isn't what)
You said to be so beautiful

Running away, nothing has been done
Shattered dreams and broken hearts
The time has come to recover what we've lost
The time has come to take back what was ours

I remembered what you said
Everything will be the same
Now I know what I mean
If I can't do everything

Just like the words
We used to say
Just like the battles
We fought before
Just like our bodies
And our souls
Fade away
Just like our memories
Fade away
Just like our families

Over and over
Over and over
Over and over
Over and over
Over and over
Over and over

(When will we love)
(Before it's too late, it's too late)
When will we love
Before it's too late...


The Departure by A Vacant Affair.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

The Beach...

Another day by the sea.Another day of footprints left behind on the sands.Another day of watching the sun set into the horizon.Another beautiful place with great atmosphere.And as the stars starts to shine accompanying the glistening moonlight,fingers locked.Gazing into each other's eyes,trying to see through the window to each other's hearts,they leaned closer.Keeping each other warm despite the chilly evening.They talked about the day,how tiring and awfully scorching the sun was.Their uneven tans and badly sunburnt skin and they laughed it off.Running aimlessly with the sands on their feet,into the ocean and by the poolbar.Relaxing music blocking their minds from wandering back to the busyness of life.Their mind contained three words just for the day,'you and me'.As another wave crashes,they talked about the present.The present being them lying down,counting the stars together at that very second.Slowly,the future came about and they could only smile because they knew they had everything that the world has to offer,in their hands.He took out a piece of paper and handed it to her.It read,'your smiles keep me up for days' and with that,she whipped out her million dollar smile before giving him a peck on the lips.


To my other half,I'm still waiting for you to show so that I can finally take you the beach of possibilities(I'm going to need my caffeine fix now)...


Well, you're a long walk from my street
And I'm dying in this summer heat
I hope like hell you're waiting, waiting
Everybody's living like they're crazy in love
I'm a dizzy mess, and everything is so above me
From the floor I found the life I lead today

Well, they can take, take, take the kids from the summer
But they'll never, never, never take the summer from me
It was the very first time that I lost my mind for the week
They can make, make, make me forget the weather
If I never, never, never wash the sand from my feet
It was the very last time then we said goodbye to the beach
We were showing off, we were showing off our teeth

So make one last call back home
Cause tonight we go it alone
And I hope that you know I'm waiting, waiting
(Tell me do you feel me?)
Everybody's singing like they're crazy in love
We made a dizzy mess of everything but it was enough
To bring all the boys and all the girls together

Well, they can take, take, take the kids from the summer
But they'll never, never, never take the summer from me
It was the very first time that I lost my mind for the week
They can make, make, make me forget the weather
If I never, never, never wash the sand from my feet
It was the very last time then we said goodbye to the beach
We were showing off, we were showing off our teeth

You're going out in style
And I'm getting tired of all your lying
(Tell me do you feel me?)
(Listen can you hear it?)
Stop pretending
(Cave in and believe me)
(Open up and scream it)
Stop, the answer's in the smile
And I'm coming clean
Just give me something
(Tell me do you feel me?)
(Listen can you hear it?)
Stop pretending
(Cave in and believe me)
(Open up and scream it)

Well, they can take, take, take the kids from the summer
But they'll never, never, never take the summer from me
It was the very first time that I lost my mind for the week
They can make, make, make me forget the weather
(Make one last call back home)
If I never, never, never wash the sand from my feet
(Tonight we go it alone)
It was the very last time then we said goodbye to the beach
(And I hope you know I'm waiting)
We were showing off, we were showing off our teeth


The Beach by All Time Low.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Breakdown...

Hectic week and somewhere along the way,I forgot to breathe.It is by far the most energy-sapping and time-consuming week ever.Never have I clocked such long hours in school though I foresee myself clocking even longer hours in the near future as my role evolves.I found something else that has made a difference to my life,it comes in the most unlikeliest of places.It's the staff room of T17,it is in fact Oops! temporary headquarters until we have our very own clubhouse.I joined with the thought of easy cca points but turns out,I got myself into a very big mess.At the same time,I found something a little bit more enriching rather than just winning a match in badminton like how I've always spent my cca life thus far.It is a new field of area for me to discover and learn,a pasture I've never stepped on in my life.It's exciting,a long and winding journey with topsy-turvy mountains and valleys to overcome.While I'm still fresh,I better grasp as much learning points as I possibly could in the near future because they will come in handy for sure.But more importantly,I felt welcomed there despite being the odd one out.There was this homely feeling whenever I entered the room that makes me want to stay there and make myself useful even when I'm not delegated a particular task.

Anyway,this week has it's fair share of ups and downs.Setbacks that made me think,wisely and from an unbiased point of view.I felt really really bad because of this so-called status and the power of link.The ugly side of human which I've been forced to follow as a carrot dangling at the finish line.I know I've spent countless hours in trying to make something out of nothing happen but it's doing me any good because I felt that I didn't deserve it in the first place.As a result,adjustment to accommodate the unexpected was made.The only thing I want to do now is to justify the action and prove the people wrong.In fact they may not be all wrong,something was indeed lacking.Maybe it's the luck needed but sometimes we just have to bear the brunt and claim responsibility.Despite all these,I believe that a resurrection may be on the cards soon.Also,a revelation has been made and truly,I was impressed by what I saw and hear from that short period of time.At least I know that they truly deserved the chance in reaping what they sow.


Sometimes I wonder why things turned out the way it did.It's cruel.The best excuse to negative happenings has got to be the simple "that's life".Such thoughts got me thinking even deeper,it's a kind of cliché quote which we only use to describe the worst moments of our life but really think of this,is negative events really what made up life?The main component of life is actually suffering?Or is it the part in which we recover from such situation that we realise what life is all about.Then again,it's saddening that we actually have to experience a loss before we realise it's importance and thus,us actually moving on towards the future is really what matters.I'm really not a future-minded person,I don't think ahead.I live the day as it comes and I have soft spots for the past and everything that's in past tense.I'm very much intrigued by the past when I should be more interested in the future so in a way,I'm living off the past rather than the thoughts of the future.Again,the sudden rush of emotions got me indecisive on what I should I feel.The rain didn't help either,all that was lacking is some caffeine to help calm me down.It's a breakdown,more than anything else...


When was the last time you talked to me?
Seriously, I feel like I don't even know you
And I would rather me leave
Than stay and watch you make a fool of me

You might as well leave
You might as well let me know now
You might as well go, go, go
I never wanna see your face around here anymore

Cause it's a breakdown
The breakdown
Where do we go from here?
It's a breakdown
The breakdown
Whoa whoa oh
Whoa whoa oh

You know that I'll be lying if I said
I wasn't getting quite bored of you yet
And your consistent state of nagging
And your constant state of panic is unnecessary stress for me
You're the tip, tip, tip top of the charts
You're the very best thing I've ever done
But the reality is that I wrote this song for you

You might as well leave
You might as well let me know now
You might as well go, go, go
I never wanna see your face round here anymore

Cause it's a breakdown
The breakdown
Where do we go from here?
It's a breakdown
The breakdown
Whoa whoa oh
Whoa whoa oh

When wood floors meet high heels
And shadows form from chandeliers
When wood floors meet high heels
And shadows form from chandeliers
(Ah, ah, ah)

You might as well leave
You might as well let me know now
You might as well go, go, go

I never wanna see your face round here anymore
Cause it's a breakdown
The breakdown
Where do we go from here?
It's a breakdown
The breakdown
Whoa whoa oh
Whoa whoa oh...


Breakdown by Forever The Sickest Kids.

Saturday, July 05, 2008

Back To Our Innocence...

Here's what the reading of stars tells me for the day ahead, "Take a second before you act on any of your impulses today. It's not that your gut is telling you something that's wrong, it's just that if you act too quickly right now you could end up regretting it. Things haven't completely gelled just yet, and if you jump at something or someone too abruptly, you could create a tense situation. So wait for more information to come in on that job, person, or social opportunity. It might be hard to bide your time, but you'll be glad you did."

Don't we all sometimes wish that we could be young again.Leading carefree lives and the only things that mattered were toys,colour pencils,candies,balloons and our mother to cater to our every need since we can practically get awway with anything.Life's getting more hectic every day and I haven't even included the aspect of life as a student.It's solely based on life as a teenager,or at least one who assumes himself to be of the same mentality of this group of young people.It's not even mid-life crisis yet so I can't quite imagine myself in worse condition,maybe I can but I'm not sure how long I could actually survive the harsh reality.I need a getaway plan,a nice holiday to anywhere.Away from society and the reality and someone to keep me company in case I get lonely.That's all I need for now,a foolproof escape route.




















All our life, we try to find the way back to our innocence...


I want my life to be
More like a symphony
With chords encased
And scores of grace
That rivals symmetry
I want my chance to behold
The truth and watch it unfold
As complex equations are worked out with patience
Where angles are right and sides are adjacent

All our lives
We try to find a way
Back to our innocence

I want my life to be
More than just lucid dreams
So when I wake up
I can take us on journeys
That only a child would think of
To the depths of wonderful places
Where we're invincible and nothing can tame us

All our lives
We try to find a way
Back to our innocence
All our lives
We try to find a way
Back to our innocence

I want my life to be
More like a symphony
With chords encased
And scores of grace
That rivals symmetry
I want my life to be
More than just lucid dreams
So when I wake up
I can take us on journeys
That only a child would think of

All our lives
We try to find a way
Back to our innocence
We realise
That life in all of time
Are more than coincidence...


Back To Our Innocence by Self Against City.

Thursday, July 03, 2008

What We've Been Waiting For...

The summer is what we've been waiting for,or is it?


I have been waiting
For July to come around
I hear the Summer
Whispering the things to come

We have been waiting
For the sun to show it's face
Thank you sweet winter
But now we're desperate to move on

Go beyond the worst we've known
And build ourselves a brand new home
Maybe then we'll find the time we've lost

Set us free
Sweet summer day
We've been waiting much too long for you to come
Save me from
The worst I've known
And let me relive the days I've blown away

Time has changed so quickly
It's a shame we have lost so many things
That we will never find again
But it doesn't matter anymore anyways

Summer sings a song to us that I can't ignore
And I'm desperate for
I try too hard to keep my calm
But I just can't hide it anymore anyways

Leave behind the worst we've known
Build ourselves a brand new home
Maybe then we'll find the time we lost

Set us free
Sweet summer day
We've been waiting much too long for you to come
Save me from
The worst I've known
And let me relive the days I've blown away

Remember all the times we've wasted
Drowning ourselves from foolish dreams
We were betrayed by all the hope
But the summer will be a sweet revenge
The end

I have been waiting
For July to come around
I hear the summer
Whispering the things to come...


What We Have Been Waiting For by Daphne Loves Derby.