Lost...

The past two days have been heavy.I think I'm such a selfish person,I thought that yesterday was the worst day of my life because I lost my phone which I really treasured.Here's how it happened,I was in the cab with Eugene and we dropped off at his house's bus stop,Telok Kurau Lorong M.7 seconds later,I realised how light my pocket was and I tried to grab hold of my phone and I shouted "Oh my God,I left my phone in the taxi".Immediately,I dropped my bag and my bass guitar and sprinted after the taxi in the middle of the road.Honestly,I thought I was faster than Usain Bolt.It stopped to pick up another passenger and continued it's journey.I thought I had a chance as it reaches the traffic light but it just have to stay green and so I gave up and ran back to Eugene.I asked him to call my handphone number and I spam called my own phone for probably twenty times.At first,noone picked it up but after a while they were rejected.I managed to get a breakthrough but I was talking to thin air because noone replied me.After countless more rejections the lucky person who found my phone,picked it up and said that he doesn't know how to speak English.So you tell me now whether he was actually telling the truth.

I don't think the driver would do something like that,but I can't directly point the finger to the passenger either.I reported the incident to the taxi company,Singtel and the police so I'm just going to wait for the best.I got myself a new phone,which is the exact same model as the one I lost because it's still on offer and I don't want my mom to spend so much money on buying me a new phone because it's my fault I lost the phone and I'm paying the price.I feel bad because I've to use my brother's plan instead and that means he has to wait for 2 years now to get his new phone at a cheaper price.After building up the trust over my past 17 years of not losing anything,my parents has probably lost most of it thanks to this incident.It was a lapse of concentration,a careless mistake that I shall never repeat again in my life,ever.Anyway,please drop me a message using any piece of technology there is so that I can record down your number again.Thank you very much.

And today,as I was waiting for the bus to the Singapore Expo,an old lady who was sitting beside me starting talking to me.She looked really frail and her voice was really soft.For some reason,I moved closer and tried listening to her.At first I was quite apprehensive because she started out by asking if I was a boy or a girl.And she started asking me other questions like what's my age,where do I live,what school do I go to and although I wasn't really comfortable with it,I realised how important I was after that.She started talking to me about how she's living alone and she's visiting her sister at an old folk's home in Tampines.She brought her sister 2 curry puffs for $1.60 each.And after talking for a little while more,she smiled toothlessly.I told her that her bus coming because she requested for me to and slowly,she stood up,she inched her way from the seat and into the bus.That was when I thought that maybe that little conversation we had,no matter how pointless,kept her company for a while.Sure,I was a stranger and my first impression could be that she was senile and I'm trying my best to entertain her but it was worth all of it,I guess.I didn't want to ask any personal questions because I didn't want her to think that I'm trying to invade her privacy but I can tell she's really lonely.Whether or not,whatever she said is true,didn't matter much in the end.It was the little lesson in life that amazed me.

When I finally reached home today,the first thing I did was to grab the newspaper because I didn't have the chance to read it in the morning.Something from the first page caught my eye,sure the headline is big news but what got me into the story even more was the picture.I thought the picture looked familiar and as I continue to read on,I was stunned.My worst fear came true,Mr Michael Puhaindran's wife was held hostage and killed by the terrorists in Mumbai.Instantly,I didn't feel like doing anything that I'd planned to do earlier in the day and my first reaction was to check with my fellow church friends and the piece of paper that contains the catechists' name and contact number for my confirmation class.After making sure that my sources are extremely reliable,I slowly digested the news.It was tragic and surely a cruel way to mark the end of someone's life.Michael was one of the catechist for my batch and though he was teaching the Sunday class,I did have a few chance to talk to him and of course,I remembered playing soccer in camp last year in which the ball actually struck his side mirror and broke it.I've always remembered him as a patient,quiet yet sharp person who has this sort of inspiring positive aura around him.Surely he doesn't deserve to lose his wife after only a year of marriage?It felt just like yesterday that my friend told me about their wedding and how nice she was when they came over to their place.It pains me to see the outcome of what could have been a perfect,loving family.

Which is why I thought I was a selfish asshole last night for thinking it was the worst day of my life just because I lost a handphone.Sure I lost all my contacts,my messages and my pictures which I desperately need for my project dued on Wednesday.Besides,I deserved it because I was careless.On the other hand,Michael doesn't deserve any of this and I'm sure he is devastated as anyone would be after losing their loved ones.Here's my biggest condolences to Mr Michael Puhaindran and family,God bless them through this hard times and always.I will keep him and his family in my prayer and I hope you guys will do the same.


Lose,losing,lost...


I can't believe it's over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw
The writing that was on the wall
If I'd only knew
The days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying

Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears
Upon your face
I hardly recognized
The girl you are today
And god I hope it's not too late
Mmm,it's not too late

Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Til the light comes pouring through
Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your world's crashing down
And you can't bear the thought
I said, babe, you're not lost

Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you've gone crazy
But you're not
Though things have seemed to change
There's one thing that's still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly, fly, fly away

Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we'll get lost together
Til the light comes pouring through
Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When the world's crashing down
And you cannot bear the cross
I said, baby, you're not lost
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
Ouh, yeah yeah
I said, baby, you're not lost...


Lost by Michael Bublé.