Auld Lang Syne...

I can't believe today is the last day of year 2007,it's happened all too fast.It's almost as if 364 days has whizzed past me and here I am enjoying the last day as much as possible before it's 2008.Looking back on this year,I can say that it's been perhaps the best year ever but yet it's the worst.I spent most of the year in the hopes of getting what I want,most of the time it ended in failure.I can say that that's what keeps me holding on,the hope of a better day,the hope of finally achieving something.I've been breathing up til now because of this hope,even if it seems impossible and I'm just hoping for nothing.It's been a fruitful year spent spiritually,I've became more involved in church and feel the burdens on my shoulder slightly lighter.

As a person,I think I've grown.No,I'm not talking about growing taller or stuff like that.I've wisened up,though I know some of you think otherwise,I've become both more and less dependant on others and I've became more open and friendlier as some have told me.I admit that I've been more of a loner before and I probably still am,but I've come to terms with this fear of speaking out to people though I think it's just a slight difference unless you're from church because I didn't breathe a word until this year.In school,I've probably been the same person except the last few days where I spent most of the time keeping to myself instead so it's some sort of a reversal,no idea why or how it happened.I've grown to live with the fact that I can always depend on myself when there's noone to help me out,I like doing things on my own though I like some company too from time to time.In fact,I think it's more common to spot me outside alone with my earphones than with my friends.

I've made countless new friends,I've had moments of joy,pride and glory.I've been spending this holiday meaningfully and not just by rotting at home.I've worked my butts off for o level's though I think I've been in a rather slack mode for most periods of the year.I've reconciled with people whom I've had grudges against.I've scored lots of goals at streetsoccer.I've got myself a proper book to write my songs at.I've finally learned chords after being a total loser at guitar.I've bought a hell lot of albums.I've got friends who believed in me.I've got friends who appreciates my small effort.I've got friends who evolved from being just a hi-bye friends to a blossoming friendship.But for every sweet memories,there has got to be bitter ones that I wish could have been prevented.Some turned sour while others are just plain ugly.I can only say that I wish for certain moments to not have happened the way it did but I'm also thankful for those moments which turned out well.

It's been one hell of a year,I know next year will be just as tough and fun or maybe even more.A new year sparks a new beginning but hopefully not an end to those that's happened over the years.I would like to thank everyone who's come across my life in this whole year because in your own ways,you've made me who I am today and I'm eternally grateful for that.I can't quite imagine another way to end the year than to look back and reflect on everything that's happened and appreciate each second of them because it's been a year well-spent no matter how you look at it.Sure there'll be some awful moments but on the hindsight,there are things which I can look back and say 'Hey,I'm glad that this happened'.Let's look onwards now and welcome the 2008 with open arms.


Today is the day of auld lang syne...


Should auld acquaintance be forgot
And never brought to mind
Should auld acquaintance be forgot
And days of auld lang syne

For auld lang syne, my dear
For auld lang syne
For auld lang syne
May auld acquaintance be forgot
And days of auld lang syne...


Auld Lang Syne by Relient K.

One Of These Days...

My 200th post will be a pretty short one.Partly because I don't feel like writing much today,strangely.I started off today in the most different of ways.I was up pretty late and went to check my horoscope at 3 am after a tip-off from Hanis.Yesterday's prediction hit me pretty hard actually which is why I kept tossing and turning when I tried to catch some sleep though my eyes were very tired.I did manage to sleep for quite a long time actually.Let's get back to the horoscope thing later since I prefer talking about what happened today first.Spent the day rotting at home,at least with my guitar playing some stuff.Waited and waited for my cousins to finally arrive but we decided to meet them at Parkway while my mom stayed at the house for them to drop their bags before heading to Parkway on the same cab.Dined at Banquet,as always and we didn't really talk much.It takes time to warm up considering I haven't seen them for almost 8 years now or rather,two of them.I just realised I took over most of my cousins in terms of height at least so I'm happy but I still want to grow taller,at least 175cm.Reaching 180 will be unimaginable,besides I think I'll look like a stick insect since I'm so skinny.I just can't seem to put on weight,which is both a blessing and a curse but I prefer to think that it's the former.

Alright,let's talk about this horoscope thing that's been strangely coming true for the past few months.For some reason,I've been looking at the daily horoscope at,of all places,friendster since a long way back.Well,I have to say that whatever is being said there has affected me in one way or another.Of course,skeptics like my bro will tell me it's just pure coincidences and it's just us that interpret the readings in a way that makes it a reality in the real world.But for some unforeseen circumstances,the coincidences are just too real to avoid and whatever is being said there grasped my imagination.It's like,playing it down and then the predicted moment happened right there and then.Of course not all readings are telling you what's going to happen,some are just advice on what you're facing and today's reading is an example.I've been feeling rather crappy the whole day which probably explains some of the actions that I did.I've been thinking,or rather overthinking over stuff which I thought I've dealt with a long time ago.And then the advice haunts me and I'm like thinking "Could the reading be right,it's been pretty reliable all this time though there are days which they gave absolute rubbish.So which is it this time?"


I'll find the answer one of these days,until then...


Today
Is there anybody listening?
Is there anybody left to hear me say?
Okay, I'm doing this thing your way

What if I wait around for forever?
Would it come back around here for me?
Or would I waste whatever's left of this life
Wishing for things I think I need?

Cause I still believe
There's a heaven waiting there for me
And I know someday
I will find it and you will find me on my way
If not today
Maybe
One of these days

Today
Is it time to rise above this?
Is it time to move beyond the choice I made?
And say, I can love this someday

What if I wait around for forever
Holding onto the hope that there's something more for me
Would I waste whatever's left of this life
Living for things I think I need?

But I still believe
There's a heaven waiting there for me
And I know someday
I will find it and you will find me on my way
If not today
On one of these days

What did I ever do
To make you make my life so complicated?
I hate it
I wish you wouldn't do those things you do
So give me what belongs to me
And spare me all the sympathy you use
To hold me down
And keep me tied
One day you'll see me rise

Cause I still believe
There's a heaven waiting there for me
And I know someday
I will find it and you will find me on my way
If not today
Maybe
One of these days...


One Of These Days by Gavin Mikhail.

12 Used To Be My Lucky Number...

As you can tell,the year is almost up and year 2008 is knocking on our doors.It's arriving at the speed of light.I can still remember last year when O's seem so far away and now,I'm waiting for my results which will decide my fate.I am not going to recollect on the year gone by as yet since there's still time to do it in the next few days,hopefully.That'll be fun because I can then reflect on the rise and fall of the year that's filled with emotions,the highest point of my life and of course,the lowest moments.

Anyway,I spent today with my so-called best imaginary friend by the name of Miss Hanis.Yes,she's still a Miss after all this time and only God knows why.I'm sure there's plenty of guys queuing up for her but let's not get there shall we.Supposed to meet at like 2,in the end we only met at 3 and quickly settled at Suntec's Starbucks.Had my Green Tea Frappucino while she was nursing her sore throat which means I saved up enough money to give my bro my share of the spoils for the Sims University Expansion Set.So we spent like 2 hours just sitting there and chatting about everything under the sun.I swear,I think it was one of the few moments where I just sit there and starts talking like a lot of things.I guess the topics we talked are way too interesting which is why I can't stop blabbing about it,well that's something only we know since it's only meant for our ears.I can't believe I made that guy jealous just by talking to her the other day,that's like the biggest indirect compliment in my entire life in a way.And other things that involved me being the main cast of the story.

After that long conversation,I met my bro at Funan to get our game at Challenger and then we searched for my music software which costed quite a bomb so there's no way I'm getting it anytime soon unless my dad wants to sponsor me.Dined at Subway and tried a new sandwich.Well everything is new since it's only my second time eating at Subway but I must say that both experiences has been pretty good so I can expect more meals from there the next time around.Can't believe I've been missing so much good food for such a long time.Went home earlier than my bro because I was too lazy to walk back to the City Hall Mrt for him to top up his ez link card,I know I'm such a bad brother but hey I can't help feeling tired right?I even slept on the bus like for almost the whole bus trip.I smuggled the cd into my schoolbag before my mom caught a glimpse of it or else she'll probably scream at my face.My cousins are coming to Singapore tomorrow to spend the new year with us,can't wait.It looks like I'll be ending the year with a big bang and I think there's an awful lot of fun things to do before the year closes and I'm so looking forward to that.

I had recurring dreams for almost three days straight now.I find it scary because I never had recurring dreams all my life,up til now that is.However,I rather the dream not end because they're dreams that I always dreamed of.It's almost like the dreams I had are the perfect events I always wanted to have but never did happened.So I guess I just have to keep them where they belong,as dreams.If ever it becomes a reality,I'll probably die happy.If not then there's nothing I can do about it right?I've got a few more days left to come up with a resolution for the coming year and I have to really think through it wisely although I've never successfully fulfilled one,as far back as I could think of.But I plan to make next year an exception and it'll be a year filled with new hope and since it's going to be a new chapter in my life,obviously.


It seems like no matter how hard I try,I can't seem to get over the facts.I don't want this to affect the relationship we have because I cherish what we have now,even if it were just being mere friends because to me it's way more than that.And I don't want to get this the wrong way but I don't know how else to say it.I admit,I'm struggling with it.Badly.I know I am not supposed to feel this way but I succumbed to it pretty easily most of the time.Things certainly could've turned out differently and that's just something I've to live with for the rest of my life.Regrets.I guess this song is still my best work ever because it captured every single emotion that I had and it's based on the experience that I had with you,I'm sure you know that by now.All I can say now is 12 used to be my lucky number...


Turn the clocks back
Retrace my steps
I shouldn't have tried to push my luck
It's a setback
A heart attack
I tried to run but now I'm stuck

Again,at the fast lane
The same,damn things

The stupid things I say
That makes you walk away
I lost my dearest
And every single day
I try to make you stay
Drown in my tears

It's a letdown
A turnaround
The sky looks darker over here
It's a shadow
A silhouette
As the sun sets you disappear

Again,on the airplane
The same,damn things

The stupid things I say
That makes you walk away
I lost my dearest
And every single day
I try to make you stay
Drown in my tears

I lost my dearest
Drown in my tears
I lost my dearest
Drown in my tears

The stupid things I say
That makes you walk away
I lost my dearest
And every single day
I try to make you stay
Drown in my tears...


12 Used To Be My Lucky Number by me,performed by SavingSomeone.

Alone On Christmas...

Well it's that time,it's Christmas time again.Usually at this time of the year,I'll be one of those who's busy staying at home and rotting.I'm proud to say that this year won't be any different.The only difference is that unlike the last few years,I have been living up the best days of the year on the last few days leading up to Christmas.

















That was taken from one of the serviettes that's given to everyone of us who attended her Birthday party on the 23rd.Though it was raining,it didn't stop us from coming up with a plan on how to surprise Kimberly.The biggest birthday present was perhaps to 'fake' Kathleen's trip to Malaysia which was cancelled and Kimberly actually thought that she really went away.Imagine her face when she saw Kathleen standing there with donuts under an umbrella and 'Happy Birthday' candles.Kimberly teared and that just concludes how much joy one person can make to another's life.I'm glad it worked out well.My apologies to Kimberly for not being able to pick her presents because I have a habit of picking terrible birthday gifts so I took the easy way out and just provide part of the cash while Kathleen and Charmaine did all the work.I think we,or rather they did an excellent job in picking gifts.

Dinner was sushi and other Japanese food which was the chosen theme because of her excitement for the upcoming trip to Japan.She promised to bring home snow for me.We had donuts before retreating to play cards and I can finally say that I learnt a bit about playing Bridge after a failed attempt at teaching a numbskull like me.As soon as it got darker and some of Kimberly's schoolmates have left we played 'Dare or Dare' because playing Truth isn't much fun since they know every supposed secrets that each has excep for me probably.I got dared to feed Kimberly's brother a spoonful of Kimberly's deliciously rich cake,dance with an umbrella to the song 'Umbrella'(what else?) among many other stupid stuff.We prank called a Bryan Chang pretending he was our 'lover' and we called him sweet names.Prank called Matthew otherwise known as Mutu with an Indian accent to order curry and I swear I didn't know everyone calls him Mutu so it was a good coincidence.Watched a bit of football,Manchester United winning was icing on the cake for the beautiful evening.Went on our separate ways after that and practised my guitar for the big event the next day.

We were early at DXO and I caught up with Bryan Santa Maria and found out his band's slot was right before ours which means I get to watch his band play too.During the set-up I realised that we were playing with a lot of other bands playing much heavier songs than we do,the only difference is that they're all covering songs while we have 5 originals in our line-up along with two covers.The first band that played were making more noise than music in my opinion,their music was good but they were almost competing against one another for the spotlight while the singer couldn't be heard.When Bryan's band,Die Hard Melodies took the stage,I was left gaping for breath because they were good.Everyone was individually blessed with furious fingers on the guitars,Bryan was practically killing the drumset with each hit and the singer can actually sing.The bassist who looked like Frakie Foo in suspenders was so good that I felt like quitting SavingSomeone that instant.Looking at him makes me think so lowly of myself.Bryan was the fans favourite and he certainly did not disappoint any because he probably didn't skip a single beat while my heart skipped a few.I don't think it was their first gig because they looked so comfortable on stage and their energy was easily channeled to the audience.
















Die Hard Melodies.
















SavingSomeone.















SavingSomeone.















Me on bass.















Ryan on guitar.















Jialin on vox.















Jialin,Me and Eugene.















Jialin and me.















Ryan.















Me and Eugene.















Me and Eugene.















Me and Jialin.















Ryan,Jialin and Me courtesy of Francesca.




















Picture of the day,credits to Francesca.


We kicked things off with Speed To Break Down in which I screwed up parts of it because I was still pretty nervous.Faded was second and by then I felt much better because I can't possibly screw this song up since it's just 3 notes for me.Switched the bass for an electric for Give Until There's Nothing Left by Relient K and my bro said he liked it best.The infectious What You Want Is Not What You Need was fourth.Reunion was the time when I could get away with anything scot-free because we can let ourselves loose during the last part of it.Covered Cute Is What We Aim For's Lyrical lies and I had fun especially during the bridge during the pauses in which Ryan and I co-ordinated our moves.Last up was my baby,12 Used To Be My Lucky Number.I sort of promised to play this song if some people showed up and I'm glad they did because I want it to be heard loud and clear.I'm flattered that it received positive feedbacks and the biggest reward was that five seconds when I got down the stage.Most importantly,we had fun and it was worth all our sweat and hours at the jamming studio.

A big thank you to everyone who came down just to watch us play or spent half an hour of their life watching us play our stuff.The cheers and applause gives us a sense of achievement and hearing how proud my family members are whent hey see me on stage makes me realise a dream.My mom said something like she never believed that her son can go up the stage and put up a decent show.So once again,thank you for showing up and spending your $12 to watch us play.It meant a lot for all of us especially since it was our first ever public appearance,we want start things off in a good note and hopefully,many more to come.I'm honoured to have you people as my family,friends,friends of friends and to some extent fans.We'll continue to work our butts off and put up an even better show the next time around.I love you guys.
















Kathleen,Kimberly,Elliot and me at Yoshinoya courtesy of William.


Went back straight after that and managed to get some rest before attending the 9pm mass with my family and the midnight mass with my friends.I officially received my first Christmas card in my entire life,or rather 3 Christmas cards from Eugene,Aaron and Annabelle.Thanks alot guys,really appreciate it.Not forgetting Ryan who got me The Great Spy Experiment's Flower Show Riot as a Christmas present.Three cheers to him for that.And to everyone else who wished me a Merry Christmas.And of course to God for giving me the best Christmas I ever had.


















Here's me wishing everyone reading this a blessed Christmas filled with love,life and hope.Nobody ought to be alone on Christmas...


The cold wind is blowing and the streets are getting dark
I'm writing you this letter though I don't know where to start
The bells will be ringing Saint John Divine
I get a little lonely every year around this time

The music plays all night in Little Italy
The lights will be going up on Rock-a-fella's tree
People window shopping on Fifth Avenue
But all I want for Christmas is you

Nobody ought to be alone on Christmas
Nobody ought to be alone on Christmas
Nobody ought to be
Alone on Christmas

Things are different since you've been here last
Childhood dreaming is a thing of the past
Maybe you can bring us some hope this year
Visions of sugar plums have all disappeared

Do you remember sleigh riding in the snow?
And dancing all night to "Baby, Please Come Home"
Today's celebration is bittersweet
There's mothers and children crying in the street

Nobody ought to be alone on Christmas
Nobody ought to be alone on Christmas
Nobody ought to be
Alone on Christmas

Nobody ought to be alone on Christmas
Nobody ought to be alone on Christmas
Nobody ought to be
Alone on Christmas

I've got to know
Where do lonely hearts go
Where do lonely hearts go
On Christmas

I'm all grown up but I'm the same you see
I'm writing you this letter cause I still believe
Dear Santa Claus, I'm still right here
Waiting for you to come this year

Nobody ought to be alone on Christmas
Nobody ought to be alone on Christmas
Nobody ought to be
Alone on Christmas

Nobody ought to be alone on Christmas
Nobody ought to be alone on Christmas
Nobody ought to be
Alone on Christmas...


Alone On Christmas by Self Against City.

Up And Up...

Woke up early today to get myself prepared for the church gathering,listening to every song that we'll be playing attentively.First it started raining and I was like,of all days to rain.I could still bear with it because it won't really affect much anyway but then came the second problem,we have to change the venue because the church will be closed early because of public holiday.Bernie was kind enough to have it at her condo's function room at Meyer Road which isn't very far away so I didn't really mind the travelling time.Well the thing is,if we were to have it in church,we'll have proper set-up as in drumset and everything but now that there's a change of venue there won't be drums for Bryan Santa Maria to play with.And that also means that we have no mask to cover our mistakes which the drum provides.Besides,he is a really good drummer so there's no way to distract the crowd from us playing other instrument.I think Eugene can learn a few stuff from him,nothing against Eugene just that Bryan has got more experience that's all.Everyone's got different style so it's really unjust to compare because to me,they're both good.

I got there thanks to directions from Stephanie and Kathleen called me just in time before I walked from the bus stop to Bernie's place because she doesn't know the way.Luckily she's got an umbrella so I reached there pretty dry,unfortunately she left it there and we only realised it as we were walking to the bus stop after the gathering.We were the second to arrive after Crystal and we started playing Taboo,Singapore edition.It was my first time playing and it's damn fun seriously,mostly because of the stupid things we say or do though action isn't supposed to be allowed.Then one by one people started coming in with food and all kinds of things.In the end we settled for Bryan the drummer to sing back up and play the shaker while Bryan Chang and I played our stuff from a distant corner.Kathleen was on keyboards and although it wasn't a perfect 'gig',I think we did really well considering we only had a week to practice yet we came up with about 12 songs together.Despite the tight schedule,we manage to make the best out of every jamming session.

The food was good too,got to give credit to every group that cooked and bought them.There were all kinds of stuff pasta,satay,bee hoon,spring rolls,cakes,wedges,hash brown,potato chips and Haagen ice cream.I couldn't get cookies and cream because it's finished,so I settled for the next best thing chocolate and cookies.The tub was empty after only like 20 minutes since 5 people shared it,I just scoop,eat,swallow and so the vicious cycle continues.A big thanks to the people who's made this event possible despite the last minute problems.Had to go off after that to fetch my dad at the airport and we dinner-ed at Fish & Co.Wanted to get my Kola Tonic but I decided against it to make sure my cough recovers first.Reached home at about 10 before we did our ritual of opening the luggage and emptying it at the speed of light.Went online and had like 7 conversation windows to inform the people about the timing of our gig and so far I have 11 tickets booked.It's a good sign,I'm hoping there'll be more because I certainly want to have more than 25 people attending the gig.Also,I would like to see more familiar faces because that sort of make me feel more at ease.

SavingSomeone Debut at Jamboree Carnival
Place: DXO,Esplanade
Date: 24th December
Time: 215 pm
Price: $12
Dress Code: Anything you feel like wearing
Reminder: If you're asked at the door which band you're supporting,be smart and say SavingSomeone
Final Note: Hope to see you there!

We're going to have our final practice tomorrow and I'll be fully booked until next monday.Might be going to Millenia Institute and then play soccer at East Coast Park with the church guys on Saturday.Will be going to Kimberly's birthday party on Sunday which could probably last the whole day,sadly Kathleen and Elliot won't be able to make it.Such a waste,they better make up for that.And monday is you-know what so it's a sacred day which cannot be touched by anyone else.Tuesday is Christmas,am looking forward to it for some reason though I know I won't be receiving any Christmas presents.


Hopefully,this is a sign that my life is on the up and up...


(Whoa,whoa oh,whoa oh,whoa)
Yesterday was not quite what it could've been
As were most of all the days before
But I swear today with every breath I'm breathing in
I'll be trying to make it so much more
Cause it seems I get so hung up on
The history of what's gone wrong
That the hope of a new day is sometimes hard to see
But I'm finally catching on to it
Yeah the past is just a conduit
And the light there at the end is where I'll be

Cause I'm on the up and up
I'm on the up and up
And I haven't given up
Given up on what
I know I'm capable of
Yeah I'm on the up and up
Yeah there's nothing left to prove
Cause I'm just trying to be
A better version of me
For you
A better version of me
For you

(Whoa,whoa oh,whoa oh,whoa)
To be prosperous would not require much of me
You see, contentment is the one thing it entails
To be content with where I am, and getting where I need to be
And moving past the past where I have failed
But I'm finally catching on to it
Yeah the past is just a conduit
And the light there at the end is where I'll be

Cause I'm on the up and up
I'm on the up and up
And I haven't given up
Given up on what
I know I'm capable of
Yeah I'm on the up and up
Yeah there's nothing left to prove
Cause I'm just trying to be
A better version of me
For you
A better version of me
For you

Never cease to supply
Me with what I need for a good life
So when I'm down I'll hold my head up high
Cause you're the reason why, yeah you're why

Cause I'm on the up and up
I'm on the up and up
And I haven't given up
Given up on what
I know I'm capable of
Yeah I'm on the up and up
Yeah there's nothing left to prove
Cause I'm just trying to be
A better version of me
For you
A better version of me
For you...


Up And Up by Relient K.

A Song Is Not A Business Plan...

I've been a very busy man,been going out almost evryday and even when I'm back home I'll be in front of the computer with the guitar on one hand and pen and paper with the other.I've been tabbing out songs after songs for my little performance with Bryan,Bryan,Ryan and Kathleen on Thursday.Bryan Chang is a new friend I made in Camp Incredible along with Ryan Lopez.They've got basically the two biggest common interest that I have which is music and sports,mainly soccer.Bryan is more into rock/hard rock while Ryan is more alternative/acoustic rock.I know Byran the drummer from slacking around with the instruments during the camp and eventually got to know him personally after hanging out with Bryan and Ryan.They're sort of a clique with their girlfriends since I saw them a few times around church.Shan't reveal too much about what songs we'll be playing cause it's meant to be a surprise,well not really since I've spilled the beans but I'm making it as low key as possible.Anyway,there is another big thing coming your way.It's on Christmas Eve which is next monday.

SavingSomeone will be debuting at DXO Esplanade on 24th of December.I am very excited about this event because I'm the bassist remember,so it's normal for me to get very really high.The only downside is that entry cost $12.But it's inclusive of a free drink and it's a day entry so you can camp there from 12pm to 7 pm to watch every band perform or if you can just come to support ours when it's our time slot.Will be going down to DXO tomorrow to meet the people-in-charge so hopefully we'll know our time slot by then.And yes,we're not getting paid one cent for playing so we're just going there for exposure and to spread our music to our friends and others who are interested to see us.I'm hoping to see more familiar faces so please come down and give us some support,I promise that we'll make it as enjoyable as we could.I'm so glad I found the gig just in time before the deadline and I only have one person to thank for,for telling me about the end of the year gigs Bryan Chang!And of course,not forgetting God who's given me the best Christmas present ever.I owed a lot to Camp Incredible because if not for that,I probably would be spending the rest of the year just rotting at home with nothing to do.I'll be lying if I said I'm not tired but I'm having a hell of a time enjoying every minute of my life before school starts.

Oh yes,I forgot to break the news that I'll be going to Millennia Institute for the first intake which means I'll have to wake up very early from January 2nd onwards.Of course for every bad news,there's going to be at least one positive news at the end.So the good news will be that Eugene and Kimberly will be going there too so that'll mean company for the long trip to Bukit Batok.The plan for the first day of school will be to meet up at Kembangan Mrt and take a train down together.I don't even know what we are supposed to wear on our first day of school since it's just the first intake thing so I don't think we have to buy the Millennia Institute's uniform.And I don't think I want to wear my uniform again since I don't even know where my mom puts it.Kim will be going to a mixed school for the first time in her life after attending an all-girls school for the past 10 years of education,that's pretty cool.

After jamming I went for the gathering with Storm at Suntec in which I got a free scoop of Ben & Jerry's thanks to Stephanie who 'owed' us a treat.Went hotdog and crabsticks hunting at Carrefour for a while before playing pool at Marina Square.Played with Joshua two games,one win one loss.Rushed home after that because I need to takeaway dinner for my family,my mom is not feeling well so she hasn't been cooking the past two days.Get well soon mom!It just feels weird seeing my mom not cooking and lying in bed the whole day when usually it's me that's being taken care of.


I'd rather write a song than a business plan because that's what I do best...


Hey stop, do you hear an echo?
I do but does anyone know
It's the same old thing we hear an hour ago
Different band, the same radio
We broke down on the side of the road
East coast, we had to cancel the shows
I'm trying as hard as I can
But I'd rather write a song than a business plan
Because this is me saying words I actually mean
I won't compromise this thing just to make it

I want to that's a given
But I can't imagine the same way as you
Oh you, no, I'll never do
The things they do just to make it
Oh, oh whoa, oh, oh

Singing soul, you say you got it in you
Something to say
Well, I don't hear it in any one of your tunes
The words you heard usually used
You got a hook but it's no book
Got no soul just a look
And this is me saying words I actually mean
I won't compromise this thing just to make it

I want to that's a given
But I can't imagine the same way as you
Oh you, no, I'll never do
The things they do just to make it
Oh, oh

Do you even know what you're even saying?
Or are you just saying it cause someone else said it
Do you even know what you're even saying?
Or are you just saying it cause someone else said it
Do you even know what you're even saying?
Or are you just saying it cause someone else said it
Do you even know what you're even saying?
Or are you just saying it

I want to that's a given but
I can't it imagine the same way as you
Oh you know I'll never do
The things they do just to make it
I want to that's a given but
I can't it imagine the same way as you
Oh you know I'll never do
The things they do just to make it
Oh, oh whoa
Oh, oh whoa
Oh, oh whoa
Oh...


A Song Is Not A Business Plan by The Rocket Summer.

Decembers...

It's starting to feel like every other Decembers...


Lets to try to remember
These days back in December
Our lives were very different
I was lonely when we first met
A small upstairs apartment
Driving through the darkness
To get back home
Before they knew
You were even gone

You don't even have to speak because
I can hear your heart beat
Fluttering like butterflies
Searching for a drink
You don't have to cover up
How you feel when you're in love
I'll always know I'm not enough
To even make you think

Please slow down girl
We're moving way too fast
For their world
We've got to make this last

I miss you so much
A self-inflicted coma
The days drag on I never thought
Of running with their feet
And when I feel the stress
I'm lonely and depressed
I picture you
In the dress
You wore four weeks ago

You don't even have to speak because
I can hear your heart beat
Fluttering like butterflies
Searching for a drink
You don't have to cover up
How you feel when you're in love
I'll always know im not enough
To even make you think

Please slow down girl
We're moving way too fast
For their world
We've got to make this last
I know it hurts
To feel so all alone
I'm by myself
More than you could know

If only
They were all alone
They were all alone

Please slow down girl
We're moving way too fast
For their world
We've got to make this last
Slow down girl
We're moving way too fast
For their world
We've got to make this last
I know it hurts
To feel so all alone
I'm by myself
More than you could know

If only they were all alone
They were all alone
They were all alone
They were all alone...


Decembers by Hawthorne Heights.


Also,in memory of Casey Calvert of Hawthorne Heights who passed away on November 23.Rest in peace.

Grey...

BLG,courtesy of Kimberly during the church camp.




















Me feeling slightly narcissistic.


Yesterday was Charmaine's birthday party,the afternoon session was supposed to be with those in Storm but my mom wasn't happy so I had no choice but to make it only for the dinner and because I still have to look for her birthday gift.Met Kathleen who showed me the way to Charmaine's place,though it's pretty cramped it's very cosy and it has 7 floors.Joshua,Annabelle,Jeremy and Stephanie were there when we came but they left soon after.We watched You,Me And Dupree on HBO and Kimberly arrived halfway through.Ate our pizza and bacons before we played Jenga:Truth Or Dare which was pretty hilarious.Junked on marshmallows with whipped cream and Hershey's chocolate sauce,I can predict like me gaining weight.It's not that I have a problem with my weight,it's just the sugar content and the unhealthy stuff that I,well,stuff myself with that's of my concern.

Borrowed Click and Music And Lyrics which Aaron rented for the party so I left them with License To Wed and The Premonition,watched Music And Lyrics yesterday.Was pretty good,I quite enjoyed it.It's so different than other romantic/comedies out there,it's like a more grown-up version of High School Musical without the musical.Hugh Grant's a natural at this,I must say.Next up later,Click featuring Adam Sandler.Can barely contain my excitement but I'm waiting for Ryan to appear so I can get the recording done today during jamming.I feel that we've grown so used to our songs that it sort of become a boring thing for me but still,I have to keep trying to come up with moves that I can use on stage.Currently there's this Christmas gig in my church which I am planning to play with some of the guys in church,or rather newfound friends whom I met during the camp but if we can't come up with something to play in the next 8 days,I don't think SavingSomeone will mind making an appearance and have our first official gig there.That'll be fun too,but since it's a gathering for the campers,gigging with the church people will be more appropriate but we'll see.


Is it just me or has the sky turned grey?


Grey skies clouding up the things we used to see with wide eyes
Maybe everything was meant to be this way
Will it ever change
But are we stuck here on our own

It's all gone grey
It's all gone grey

I found telling you the truth the hardest thing to get out
I know it wasn't you that made me feel this way
Will it ever change
Or are we stuck here on our own

And give it one more try
I don't know if I would stay
I feel so much better now
And baby begging me
Will leave you so empty inside
So you shouldn't even try

I know every last regret inside of me is my own
The way I hold them close has made me be this way
I will never change
I know I'm stuck here on my own, on my own

Given one more try
I don't know if I would stay
I feel so much better now
Where did we go wrong
I know you still hold on to me
But it's time that you let go
I gave you things I had
That I could not get back again
But I'm better off alone

It's all gone grey
It's all gone grey
It's all gone grey
It's all gone grey...


Grey by Yellowcard.

Tonight...

Lazed in bed because I didn't want to wake up though I've set alarms after alarms.My body still aches a little but right now my biggest concern is the pain in my toe,the one beside my big toe as in both foot.I got to take very good care of them because a small contact will get me screaming my hearts out in pain.The thing is,I have absolutely no clue how I injured them but I can assure you that they hurt a hell lot.The only possible cause of it is probably the non-stop running at Sentosa or the short burst of running during the sports segment on the third day.Now I'm having trouble just getting my feet under my warm blanket because even the movement of the blanket hurts my fragile toes.So imagine my pain wearing socks and shoes,I have to like hold my breath and bite my lips or tongue,whichever one comes first.

Anyway,I just came back from the gathering at Aaron's.It was pretty fun,mostly because of the friends I have there to keep me company.We played foosball and won Gavin,Steven and Cedric,I lost to Aaron's dad 10-6.He's very good,so much so that he won gavin 10-0 when my game with Gavin was pretty close fight.Tag-teamed with Kimberly against Steven and Gavin which we won twice.Played Winning Eleven and I won Steven 2-0.Played with Brian until half-time leading 2-0 and Gavin took over,final score 4-0 which means I beat everyone with a score of 2-0.Pooled a game which I lost to Kathleen and Kimberly who tag-teamed.The catered dinner was pretty good,I liked the peppered beef and the macaroni in bolognaise sauce.The drinks were especially special,alcoholic and non-alcoholic.I haven't tried alcoholic drinks my entire life except for maybe a spoonful of Tiger under my mom's supervision but other than that,I've been a good boy.I decided to have another go at alcohols or rather vodka since there's less alcohol content and mixed with fruit juices and whatnots.It turns out pretty ok except for the last one whereby Aaron mixed a little too much and the taste turned out very weird.I prefer the one with milk best but I'm not making drinking a habit because I don't really fancy them.

Guitar-ed a little before it was time to go back since my mom was screaming her head off on the phone.Today I discovered so many new things,like how some people have too much too drink and they got tipsy and no,that person wasn't me strangely.Kathleen and Kimberly owned the piano big time.Finally saw Sophia after a long time though it was more of a glimpse and go kind of thing.Playing with a soft inflated ball can entertain 8 people and is pretty dangerous too,as Steven found out the hard way especially when sitting on a three-legged chair.Exactly how far Aaron's place is from the main road because I had to walk all the way out when I should've waited for Aaron's mom to give me a ride along with Nathalie,luckily I got onto the car just when Nathalie dropped off at Kembangan mrt or else I'll have gotten a worse scolding from my mom.


So maybe tonight,I'll say it for the first time that I'm more than satisfied with my life and it shows...


Hey,oh this is another one
Honey but it's not the same you say
How could I ask you?
Oh come on let me ask you
Say, say it just once
Then there's nothing left to be said
Give me all, give me all
I could ever ask of you

And it's more than I can stand

So maybe tonight
Say for the first time
And it shows
Yeah it shows
Just give me tonight
Say it for the first time
And it shows
Yeah it shows

So, maybe this is asking
Too much of you
But I'm no mood this time
And I'm thinking about making you mine
Oh please just say this once
Then there's nothing else to be said
And it's all, baby all
I can think of when I'm with you

And it's more than I can stand

So maybe tonight
Say for the first time
And it shows
Yeah it shows
Just give me tonight
Say it for the first time
And it shows
Yeah it shows

Is this love?
Is it now?
Is it now?
Is this love?
Say it now
Come on,say it now

And it's more than I can stand

So maybe tonight
Say for the first time
And it shows
Yeah it shows
Just give me tonight
Say it for the first time
And it shows
Yeah it shows...


Tonight by Cartel.

Beautiful Seed...

Finally back from camp,it was incredible(pun intended) but my lower back and hip joints are aching from too much running,the lack of proper sleep and sleeping on the floor.I was lucky enough to be grouped with such great people.They've certainly made things easy for me.Our group's name is Storm and we're part of Marvel alongside Spiderman and IronMan whereas DC was made up of Superman,Flash and WonderWoman.First day was pretty much spent getting to know the people in the group and some ice-breaking games.

The highlight of the second day was the 'Amazing Race' at Sentosa where we ran,trammed,bused and played the games insanely.Soaked half our body in the sea for the volleyball game,got blindfolded playing the memory game,searched the dragon trail for answers of ten miserable questions and lastly waterbomb catching.From there,we had our lunch before continuing our final mission at Vivocity where we ran from one end to the other through the crowd,especially me being the fastest and skinniest so I can practically squeeze with ease.But running from Toys 'R' Us to Page One which is at the other end and then to Giant.We were looking for the prices of the items in our list of pictures which when translated from numbers to letters and unscrambling it will give us our password.When we finally solved it,we took a bus down to our campsite but the our facilitator forgot to cross the road to the opposite side which means we took the right bus but into the wrong direction so we wasted about 30 minutes.In the end,we took a cab and we emerged third overall.The second team arrived 10 minutes earlier than us which means,if we had taken the right bus we could have nicked them for the second spot.Spiritual adventure after that before we had our campfire at night.

We had a skit and we edited the Mr Mocca advertisement along with our summary of the experience in Sentosa.Once everything was over and after lots and lots of cheering,it's time for another round of games.This time it's candle wars whereby each team has to burn the strings of the opposing team's shields,of course the more the better.At the first round of the game,I was getting highly irritated because we didn't get to burn any and though DC army didn't too,I was unhappy.And then I got fiery angry because the rule was that they couldn't blow my candle out when my flame come into contact with the strings but apparently mine got blown off three times.I was seriously trying to control my emotions and tried my hardest to not say anything more than 'bloody'.I mean,I wouldn't mind if it happened once but three times is too much and I was practically screaming my head off at the unfair-ness.Slowly,those caught cheating was disqualified and boy was I happy because not only were there less people,I get to to burn a hell lot of strings.By the thrid round,it was clear to tell which team has won and though we could sit back and defend,we attacked so yeah,I dare say ManchesterUnited brought me up well.De-briefed the night and I apologised to everyone for blowing my top during the game during the prayer.

Third day was sports day,apparently the initial plan was to have dragon boating and then dragon dancing but due to the 5 dragon boaters,the organisers changed it.We played touch rugby and captain's ball instead.I sucked at touch rugby because I kept getting touched and the other people in the group has got no idea on how to play because everyone ran forward when they know we can only pass sideways and backwards.We lost 2-0 but it was nothing more than just a consolation for them because when captain's ball arrived,Marvel was nothing but marvellous.Though DC has got talented sportmen like Bryan and Ryan Lopez who are running the show during touch rugby with their almost psychic communication and lightning speed sprints,we owned them.All thanks to Manny,one of the facilitators who played for us we won by a big margin.The next highlight was having the participants against the facilitators game in which I took part in too and combining the strength of DC and Marvel,we kicked butts.I'm sure the facilitators were kind of shocked too because they challenged us and with their height advantage,it would be just tossing over heads.But whatever we lacked in height,we regained them with our technique,communication and speed because we were attacking at Arsenal pace,ManchesterUnited-inspired counterattacks and defended like Chelsea thanks to our goalie of course.

After the games,we had to build a dragon from whatever materials which were given to us and perform a dragon dance,it's a little like lion dance just that we use a dragon instead.Next was another spiritual adventure which to me wasn't very productive because fatique was clearly taking it's toll on us.Had dinner before more spiritual adventure by going through the places around the church which means more walking and standing.Followed by praise and worship which means more standing and kneeling,I swear my legs were killing me.Went for confession and the long awaited supper to re-charge my energy.Hanged around at Kimberly,Kathleen and Charmaine's room with Steven where Kathleen and I stoned while everyone was writing affirmation or fuzzies in Kim's language to each other.I only started writing mine at like 2,and I had only time to sleep at about 5 am and that was on a table as in the standard sleeping position in school during lessons.At least I felt better after that though I was still very sleepy and I was wondering how to survive the morning mass but hey,I made it.

Time to pack up my stuff and wave goodbye to St Theresa's for accommodating us for the past four days but not without cleaning up the place and having a special lunch in church.Storm emerged second in the overall with WonderWoman clinching top stop by a margin of 0.7 and they're going home with a Swensen's voucher.I'm so glad I nominated Annabelle because she definitely deserved to win the Tip award and she's going home with a Border's card with cash stored inside to get for herself anything there.As suspected,the Marvel army kicked Dc's butt by a margin of more than 30 points.I come home feeling feeling tired but also with an experience of a lifetime.I made a bunch of new friends and also not forgetting my old ones who's went through confirmation together with me.Thanks so much for the group members in Storm for being so wonderful Ryan,Annabelle,Charmaine,Joshua,Sharon,Jeremy and Stephanie.Thanks to my friends who's made me feel less left out during camp Aaron,Brian,Steven,Kimberly,Kathleen,Nicholas,Russell,Peter,Jason, Darren and Bernie.The newfound friends Bryan,Ryan,Andrea,Matthew,Joshua,Russell,Manny,Chris Raj and Andrea.Sorry if I missed any names out because my brain is so tired now that it doesn't really work.Looking forward to seeing them again in the next follow up sessions.


We're all beautiful seeds in the maker's hands...


You can fill the darkness
With just one flash of light
Break the silence with just one word
One defiance starts a revolution
One life can save the world

On the steps of Washington
Sprinkled with confetti
Thousands of people sing
"We shall overcome"
The preacher shouts
"Let freedom ring"
He gave his life for what he believed

You can be a witness
You can be a prophet
You can make the whole world believe
Break the strongest fortress
Change the way the world thinks
You can build a bridge where
Foes can meet
Hope for the future
Shout it,don't whisper
Dreams are what we make them to be
There is hope in every heartbeat
Tiny as it seems
You're a beautiful seed

She's a pastor's daughter
She's only 16
But her heart and her belly are
Breaking at the seams
Her boyfriend blames her
He wants to pay
For the doctor to wash it away

As she lays in the hospital
A Christmas choir is singing
About a child in a manger
Fragile and small
"Unto us is born a Saviour"
She looks at her baby and cries
As she sings him a lullaby

You can be a witness
You can be a prophet
You can make the whole world believe
Break the strongest fortress
Change the way the world thinks
You can build a bridge where
Foes can meet
Hope for the future
In the tiniest whisper
Dreams are what we make them to be
There is hope in every heartbeat
Tiny as it seems
You're a beautiful seed

Every hope,every power
Lies in the heart of a seed that flowers
Intertwined all across the land
We're all seeds in the maker's hands

Every hope,every power
Lies in the heart of a seed that flowers
Intertwined all across the land
We're all seeds in the maker's hands...


Beautiful Seed by Corrinne May.

When I'm Gone...

Here's what I just learnt a few minutes ago,things are much much more than meets the eye.Everyone says how important first impressions are and here I am trying to reinforce the importance.What you see around are just illusions or translucent panels that's blocking off some things that's not meant to be seen,at least in the beginning.Can you imagine the impression I got when I was just knew someone and that person already told me their deadly sin?Of course it's good that the person is being honest and giving you a straight in my face introduction that 'if you want to know me,you have to stand my bad habits'.So that quickly turns me off and I can easily wave goodbye to the 'getting-to-know-you' topic.At least I won't have to waste anymore time dealing with people like these right,so that's a plus point.

Talking about first impression,I'll have to make sure I'm prepared for tomorrow.I know I haven't stopped talking about it but,yeah I'll be away for 4 days and 3 nights slaying lions and chasing deers in jungles,ok maybe not the later part.I'm off to camp and I'm done packing my stuff already,so people please don't bother trying to contact me.The most you can do is leave a message for me to read either every night when I switch my phone on or when I get my phone back on the last day,that's if we have to surrender them.The build up to it is pretty good,everyones expecting it to be filled with fun and games which is probably why the theme is about being Superheroes for Christ.I'm just trying to imagine what lies ahead in the next few days that's supposed to engage us.I'm picturing a tiring end to the week and me sleeping ever so soundly on the day I return home.Well,there's nothing weird about that because most of the people will be shagged whenever camp ends and you see your comfortable bed,pillow and bolster added with an aircon blowing right at you while you're nicely tucked under the blanket.But for now,I just need music to keep me alive during the camp.

Today was good,despite the non-stop rain.Sneaked to Ice Cream Chef when my mom and bro was out with Jingyi.Just sat there and talk for a couple of hours since I had nothing to do at home anyway.Then I had to get home before my mom shows up and by the time I came home,I was hungry and I grabbed some food to eat.As soon as I finished,my mom came.Boy am I glad I reached home in time to dry myself and change back to my home clothes before my mom sees me.My cousins might be spending new year with us in Singapore along with my dad.I'm overjoyed to say the least,I haven't seen them for such a long time.I wonder how they are doing now cause two of my cousins are staying at Surabaya while their oldest sibling is staying at my house in Jakarta with my dad.Haven't seen the two of them for like,almost 7 years?Guess the barbecue might just take place but I doubt can bring many of my friends over because it won't be nice for me to ditch my cousins too.Hopefully,I can still bring some of my friends especially my closest few friends.But I don't really mind if we don't get to barbecue too because I feel bad since my mom does most of the work each time we have one.She'll do the preparations,the cooking and the cleaning so it's her choice not mine.


Let's see how it turns out when I'm gone...


Dear love
Better sit down
Bad news
Get the word out
Accidents come with conclusions
I'm numb
On the asphalt
Don't cry
Wasn't your fault
I can't feel, it's just confusion
Keep on, keep on, keep on

When I'm gone
And the lights are out
Don't be sad for long
When I'm gone
And the lights are out
I'll be shining on
I'm just gonna let my life bleed on this letter
Let my song sing on forever
I'll still love you when I'm gone

Tear drops
Paint the faces
Despair
Is contagious
Dressed in black, clutching a red rose
Hold on, hold on, hold on

My love goes on
And the lights are out
Don't be sad for long
When I'm gone
And the lights are out
I'll be shining on
I'm just gonna let my life bleed on this letter
Let my song sing on forever
I'll still love you when I'm gone

And the lights are out
Don't be sad for long
When I'm gone
And the lights are out
I'll be shining on
I'm just gonna let my life bleed on this letter
Let my song sing on forever
I'll still love you

(When I'm gone)
And the lights are out
Don't be sad for long
(When I'm gone)
And the lights are out
I'll be shining on
I'm just gonna let my life bleed on this letter
Let my song sing on forever
I'll still love you when I'm gone...


When I'm Gone by The Click Five.

Ready And Waiting To Fall...

Woke up a little earlier than usual to get the score on Manchester United's match against Fulham,yes 2-0 with Ronaldo scoring both.A good way to start the day and had my brunch before my mom asked me to mop the floor on the second storey.I was complaining at first but as soon as I started,I didn't want to stop until my job is done.Firstly because my iPod is a good company and also the fact that I'm doing my family a favour before I elave for camp.They'll probably miss my presence because I'm the hyper one in the house.But then again,my bro said he's planning to go out everyday while I'm gone and have lots of fun including a sushi buffet dinner.Oh well,at least I get to enjoy church camp which I hope is going to be a blast.

Spent my afternoon playing Minesweeper,trying to break my previous records.I only learnt how to play about a week ago and realised how fun it is though all we see is numbers,numbers and more numbers.And not forgetting that smiley face at the top,staring down at you and laughing each time you clicked on a mine.So far my best timing for beginner mode which is 10 mines is 17 seconds and 160 seconds for intermediate mode which is 40 mines.Can't be bothered to try expert for now because I kept clicking on mines before I successfully click on 5 spots randomly.While enjoying some great music with one earphone because the earphone that's used for my other computer is spoilt,can't blame it,we got it for free so it must be some low quality earphones.

Had dinner at Suntec after meeting my cousin's long-distance girlfriend who's going to the States to see him in a few days time.We have to pass to him,through her some stuff from Indonesia.Must be some important stuff that we have to pass it personally to him,oh well guess I'll never know what's inside.Anyway we walked around a bit to cleanse our eyes after seeing nothing but the same four walls at home.Settled at Starbucks for my green tea frappucino which I've been craving to get ever since Hanis promoted a cup of Starbucks at her Msn display picture.Yes Hanis,I know I still owe you a cup.Got back home and just disconnected from Msn because the virus is annoying me badly by attacking every 40 minutes,I think.Bugged Peter for a while to ask about camp and found out I'm in the same group as Charmaine and Joshua so that's not too bad is it?At least I know two people by face and name.

I've been itching to jam with the guys again after camp but we'll have to wait for now.Having a well-deserved break to refill our cash that's flowing faster than I expected.My order for The Rocket Summer is only going to come in next thursday because Inokii said the company ran out of stocks.Wow,must be such a hit with the people.I know it's going to be worth the long wait so I might spend my money on Jamie Scott And The Town or The Killers before I head for camp but I think I should wait until I have more than enough money in case I'm short when my order comes in.Oh well,it's worth sacrificing so much since reviews has been very positive and samples of the songs are unbelievably amazing.I like Bryce Avary's sexy voice and the way he makes his delievery so heartfelt.Can't wait to finally hold in in my hands I tell you.


I think I'm ready and waiting to fall...


Drowning, just as fast as I can
But don't throw me a line
Don't reach out your hand
Because I'm on the brink of something beautiful
And I want to sing about it
But I don't know where to begin
Write it in a letter
But the words don't come out right
Trying to explain how no one can do me like
You don't understand how helpless I can get
Since the day that we met
Oh, can you feel it yet?

It's never been more perfect being alive
I've never been so satisfied
Oh

I could feel something different for the first time
Heaven made sense and all the words rhymed
No chance of stopping now
I'm taking it all
And now I'm caught in the air, its a good glide
Pass it up, wouldn't dare, what a wild ride
I remember being ready and waiting to fall
Just like I did tonight

Spinning around and around
Until my left was my right and up became down
With just one look you knocked me off of my feet
So unable to speak
Oh how you made me weak
Though it was a while ago, I still can recall
That moment, so ready, and waiting to fall
Can you take me back in time
Remembering when you captured my heart?
Over and over again

It's never been more perfect being alive
I've never been so satisfied
Oh

I could feel something different for the first time
Heaven made sense and all the words rhymed
No chance of stopping now
I'm taking it all
And now I'm caught in the air, its a good glide
Pass it up, wouldn't dare, what a wild ride
I remember being ready and waiting to fall
Just like I did tonight

(Ready and waiting to fall)

I could feel something different for the first time
Heaven made sense and all the words rhymed
No chance of stopping now
I'm taking it all
And now I'm caught in the air, its a good glide
Pass it up, wouldn't dare, what a wild ride
I remember being ready and waiting to fall
Just like I did tonight...


Ready And Waiting To Fall by Mae.

For A Lifetime...

Had my haircut today because I can't stand how thick my hair is.My bro was complaining the whole time saying it's a waste of $10 since it's the holidays so why bother cutting it.I'm like,it's so thick.My mom said it looks like a lion when it's messed up.I guess that's not a compliment so yeah,I finally had it cut.Saw Elliot at a barber at Roxy Square too,don't think he saw me.I was just walking pass to get my cd at Gramophone.















Mêlée's Demons & Angels.


Finally got it after failing to convince Eugene to get it first,well his lost.I managed to convince my mom instead to sponsor me a cd after so long by letting her listen to Built To Last.And the rest is history,she hummed along to it.I'm damn happy that she likes it and is willing to part with her money to get me this.Was undecided to get this or Jamie Scott And The Town's album but decided to get this in the end because of their second single Can't Hold On.Watched the video the other day and Chris Cron,the lead vocalist, kind of blew me away with his breathtaking vocals.This album doesn't disappoint me one bit.But for those expecting every song to be like Built To Last or Can't Hold On,then you'll be disappointed.They've varied their songs so they won't sound too similar.Some might like 'samey-sounding' songs in albums while others don't,as for me,I don't really care as long as they're good it doesn't really matter.This album is worth a listen for those who likes radio-friendly music especially for fans of The Fray and Jack's Mannequin with a more in-your-face voice.
















Hero/Heroine and The Great Escape.


I found this doodling from my Principles Of Accounts prelims paper.How cool is that,I actually spent time during my prelims to doodle.I tell you POA is my free-iest time in school.During lessons I'll make sure my student handbook is on the table and without fail,I'll be doing my own things with my handbook while Mrs Chan is talking away explaining to the class or whatever.If ever we have a sharing session or some kind of those reunion gathering after 25 years like the ones commonly practised in America,I'll be more than willing to take the microphone and share my story.I bet many teachers will be looking at me with piercing,menacing eyes and saying things like 'I can't believe it,I thought Edwin is a good boy' in their heads.Looks like they'll never get to hear whatever rules I broke during my 4 years stay at this school.

Camp is in 3 days time and I'll be busy over the next two days since I came up with a few last minute plans.Cramping all of them into a period of two days and hoping I won't get tired before camp even begins because the moment I am,even earthquake with a richter scale of 10.0 wouldn't wake me from my slumber.I seriously doubt my chances of waking up on time considering the timings I've been waking up every day,that's perhaps my greatest fear for all camps.Not waking up on time because to me,it's pretty embarrassing.I don't even know if we can bring handphones in but I'm hopign we can.And iPods too,I don't think I can ever live without listening to at least a nice song a day.I've been too addicted to music,ok that kind of reminded me of Will.i.am's Artist of the Month advertisement in Mtv.

Anyway,talking about music,I'm done with Aaron's party songs list.It contains over 200 songs so I'm sure that's more than enough for the gathering on 10th December,I haven't even tell my mom about it yet.I hope she doesn't mind though,I don't want to miss out on the whole day of fun especially pooling.And meeting many of the past confirmants,that'll be quite an experience.Haven't seen most of them since confirmation and though I don't really hang out with them,I want to at least see their face.Yes,I'm weird but that's how dull life's been without confirmation.I guess I'll try to enjoy everyday of my life from now onwards and make the best out of it because one day,I'll slave for a lifetime...


Devils and angels on this old street
22 years and I'm still asleep at home
It's all that I've known
Most of my friends have all moved away
Gone off to college to find their weight in gold

Every day is a lifetime
Back to the beginning again
And we slave for a lifetime, for a lifetime

There's nothing real on my TV screen
It's all a network reality
And it shows in our broken homes
Most of my friends are all moving back
To a life less certain than yesterday
It's a backwards step we made

Every day is a lifetime
Back to the beginning again
And we slave for a lifetime
And we'll walk free in the end

Every day is a lifetime
Back to the beginning again
And we slave for a lifetime, for a lifetime

Under the sun
We're all working hard
Not sure if it will pay
Can you believe
That the last few years left us poor and here today?

Devils and angels on this old street
Now they got the same secrets as you and me
So let's open our doors
Let's open our doors, for the world to see

Everyday is a lifetime
Back to the beginning again
And we slave for a lifetime
And we'll walk free in the end

Everyday is a lifetime
(Everyday is a lifetime)
Back to the beginning again
And we slave for a lifetime
(And we slave for a lifetime)
Everyday is a lifetime, it's a lifetime under the sun
Everyday is a lifetime, it's a lifetime

Everyday is a lifetime, it's a lifetime under the sun
(Devils and angels on this old street)
Everyday is a lifetime, it's a lifetime
(Devils and angels on this old street)
Everyday is a lifetime, it's a lifetime under the sun
(Devils and angels on this old street)
Everyday is a lifetime, it's a lifetime
(Devils and angels on this old street)
(Devils and angels on this old street)...


For A Lifetime by Mêlée.

The Great Escape...

What if your heart is tells you what your head doesn't want to know.It's difficult for me because I hate deciding which I have to listen to.It's nothing much of a burden but it does have an effect for me because I don't like to do things that both my head and heart doesn't want me to.Plus the fact that I'm starting to enjoy how things have picked up from the previous time around I had a problem.To say it came too soon is an understatement somehow.I just want to be carefree but it's not possible.Problems are a part of life and we have to overcome them.I hate it when I have problems troubling me,it sort of lowers my morale and productivity level greatly.

I'm glad however that I signed up for Camp Incredible with just a week left especially since my friends are going too.More time to get to know people I haven't spent much time with.Each camp brings out a different side of me or at least stretches myself more than I've ever thought possible.I guess this retreat comes at the right period of my life.I've been way too caught up with things.Maybe I can use this as a breather from reality and the fact that it's four days long,I say it's time to let me be myself and let loose.Go with an open mind and have fun before continuing the struggle in the fast pace of life.Thanks God for the great escape from reality...


Paper bags and plastic hearts
All our belongings in shopping carts
It's goodbye
But we got one more night
Let's get drunk and ride around
And make peace with this empty town
We can make it right

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

Tonight will change our lives
It's so good to be by your side
And we'll cry
But we won't give up the fight
We'll scream loud at the top of our lungs
And they'll think it's just cause we're young
And we'll feel so alive

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight...


The Great Escape by Boys Like Girls.