Flipside...

So today went pretty much alright,had a real sudden surge of ideas of a new song in the middle of class and hell it's a totally new kind of song that I've written so far.It's going to sound like the kind of songs I've always liked around the Anberlin and Hidden In Plain View level,which is cool because I've been trying to make all my sounds slightly heavier with the lead guitar playing a big part.Normally all my songs ended up sounding too acoustic rock like say Daughtry without the deep voice making the songs sound even better.I'm still a quarter through because I'm thinking it's going to be quite a long one since I've got alot of ideas on how it's going to sound with a couple of twists and turns.

I just realised that thus far,I've been trying to hard just to finish a song.It's been lacking the emotions and feelings that I normally show in my writings.I've been sorely focused on getting the song to work out like a story and filling in the lyrics with sentences that makes sense with the previous one and as long as it rhymes it doesn't matter.That's my mistake.And I tend to add in lines after lines that sounds good but has no relation whatsoever.I'm trying to make my future pieces sound more creative,emotive and expressive.It doesn't really matter if it rhymes,but of course if it does it'll be a bonus.From now on,I'm going to let the song write itself rather than force it and write another bad piece.
















The Click Five.

And I finally get my hands on The Click Five's Modern Minds And Pastimes.It definitely has an edgier sound than their first album.And I'm still trying to get used to Kyle Patrick's voice because Eric Dill has narrowed down my perception of The Click Five to a band with nice melodies couple with a smooth and high pitched voice.I like their new image,it's still clean cut with a little bit of attitude.And I think Kyle Patrick's voice is quite unique.Though for some songs he sounded like he's just talking rather than singing but it's got a certain addictive tone that draws and reels you in.Other than that,he can still manage some high pitches especially in Empty,the only song in the album which he played a part in writing.But I'm starting to think the new sound matches with his voice so I think it's good.And it's got a good variety of slow and upbeat songs.It's definitely a good buy.Raise the glass for The Click Five's new sound.


I'm confused,again.I don't like mind games,it's way too risky to conclude the ending all by yourself.There's going to be questions and doubts filling in my brain and it's going to take it's toll on me one day.But on the flipside,there's always a special bunch of people that I can count on who makes me me feel better.I'll see you on the flipside because that's where you belong...


(Du,du du,du du,du du)

It's been a long long time since everything was cool
I shoulda seen it coming but I guess I'm not the only fool
There's something growin' on the outside
Too much missin' on the inside
Should I waste my time and let you lead me on and on and on and on?

Waiting on the day when I'm complete
Without you I'm
Doing what I can to let you be
Making sure there's nothing showing on the outside
Something's dying on the inside
I'm still broken but I'm free
I'll see you on the flipside

(Du,du du,du du,du du)

I've got a bruised up heart
But I'm still hangin' out
I should take it easy but I'm still gonna get around
There's something growing on the outside
Too much missing on the inside
Should I waste more time when everything is done and done and overdone?

Waiting for the day when I'm complete
Without you I'm
Doing what I can to let you be
Making sure there's
Nothing showing on the outside
Something's dying on the inside
I'm still broken but I'm free
I'll see you on the flipside

I'll see you on the flipside
Nothin' showing on the outside
Something's dying on the inside

Waiting for the day when I'm complete
Doing what I can to let you be
Nothing showing on the outside
Something's dying on the inside
I'm still broken but I'm free
I'll see you on the flipside

(Du,du du,du du,du du)...


Flipside by The Click Five.

Walk Harbor City...

Firstly,I would like to thank Ryan for Madina Lake's From Them,Through Us,To You and Paramore's Riot!.They're both rocking good albums especially Madina Lake.Some of the songs are really breathtaking I tell you.The words and the sound just matched perfectly to my sort of music.I can totally understand the screaming because right now I'm getting a lot of exposure to songs that are a little heavier than usual but I still have a grudge on songs that just screams for the whole song.Now that's what turns me off the most.And Paramore's way better than their first album.They sort of matured and I can sense some kind of energy that shows that they've grown a lot in terms of sound and lyrics.
















Madina Lake.















Paramore.




















Riot!


Next up,I would like to thank Eugene for John Mayer's Heavier Things and Paul Cardall's Faithful.Unlike the the previous two,these two albums are more mellow.I can easily say that no matter how rock I am,I still have soft spots for songs that captures the emotion without distortions.People say that rock is just noise whereas mellow types like these bores them.I can't blame them,everyone's got their own cup of tea so it's not up to me to decide what's good for them.I'm only here to recommend,not to boss anyone around.Anyway,John Mayer's still in his pop days and it's got a nice booklet too.There's some unknown details to each song that people don't normally see like where he wrote the songs,what the emotions he was trying to show from the songs.And Paul Cardall is a totally different thing.It's just an album without any vocals whatsoever.It's just instrumental all the way with focus on pianos.I think it's a good way for me to expose myself to piano and to sort of get the rhythm if ever I plan to pen down a piano-only song.
















John Mayer.















Paul Cardall.


And lastly to myself because I made the effort to look for The Click Five's Modern Mind And Pastimes which wasn't available at City Hall's HMV for some reason and I can't be bothered to go all the way to The Heeren which is miles away.And to my chagrin(I learned this word on Tuesday),there's way too many albums that's slightly over my budget since I wasn't carrying extra cash.But I managed to squeeze in Hidden In Plain View's Resolution to my list and I can tell you that it's a worth it album.Their songs are complex but simple enough to be digested by your ears and your brain.Their lyrics are neatly paragraphed with a tight music to complete the album experience.I'm so glad I found it and here I am introducing it to whoever is reading my blog to get it while it's still hot.But I'm getting The Click Five tomorrow at all cost.















Hidden In Plain View.


School's been alright,we've been preparing for the prelims and all that.More tiring than usual and I'm feeling the heat already.And my brain cells aren't going to take in much more pain with another day left.I'm quite looking forward to the weekend,I plan to study like mad for social studies and make Mdm Syafeena and Mr Najeeb proud.Not forgetting the concert in church by Chris De Silva.I'm not missing that as well,I need inspiration and exposure to write new stuff and this could be the breakthrough.Hopefully I can learn something from him,of course not directly but still enough for me to learn.And I'm so glad that I did well for my composition on Friendship.It was perhaps one of those moments that I can truly feel proud of in terms of academic but that's just a practice.I will need to prove myself in the prelims and then the big one in less than two months time.

Maybe one day I shall post it up and who knows when I read it again in the near future,I can still remember myself sitting on the table,telling my brother to leave the room as I plugged myself into the music in search of inspiration.That I did,it's from a song called Friends Don't let Friends Dial Drunk by Plain White T's.I swear,my brain works like a jukebox and I find it so cool that my life revolves around music.Like Samba and football works hand in hand,I've got my own style and rhythm when I'm doing certain things to get myself in the right mood.

Anyway,as you can see I've made a hell lot of changes in my blog.I think it's finally time to add more colours to brighten it up though it's still only red that's added.Who knows in the future it'll be blue or green or whatever other colours but for now,I'm amazed by red.It's just a really strong colour that stands out.Plus there's I've changed the headings for all my sidebar elements.And if you notice I've sticked to my style of taking the heading from a song just like all my posts.Like Famous Last Words for my tagboard and stuff like that,see it's still related.And for those with an eye for detail,you can see that I've changed the 'Posted at' thing at the end of each post.And for the no brainers,I added the albums corner.The Rookie Of The Year refers to albums that you should get out and buy now because they're awesome.And Flavour Of The Week refers to what I'm currently hooked to.Let's just say there's a fine line between the two but for those with cash to spare,you can always get both since I don't think I'll put up the ones that I don't enjoy listening to.The Funk Song and The Only Song refers to the standout tracks from the respective albums.And I was considering to maybe even putting a poll to make this more fun,but I can't think of what to poll about so we'll see.


So here's a sneak peek of what to expect from Hidden In Plain View.Besides it sort of matches with they way I'm feeling at this point of time.My mood can be easily expressed through the choice of words and the thoughts running in my head with the content of the song.Walk Harbor City...


Don't let me go
Don't let me go this way
Don't let me go off this way

I've got my hands tied too tight
Behind my back, behind my back
I've got my sites set too high
Above my head, above my head
So before I go
Too far and it's too late
Oh, stop me now

Cause I can't get you out of my head
(Oh no, oh no, oh)
I need to know, I need to know
Everything that's on your mind
Don't let me go
Don't let me go this way
So let me go
Oh, everything's okay

Cause I don't believe you
I don't believe a word you say
So tell me when the lights fading
Wake me up when it's over
Time is running out on you
It's over

Cause I can't get you out of my head
(Oh no, oh no, oh)
I need to know, I need to know
Tell me everything that's on your mind
Don't let me go
Don't let me go this way
Don't let me go
It's okay

I can admit that I'm
Worthless like a penny in your pocket
An empty locket around your neck
I'm hanging on to you
Maybe I'm over it
Or maybe I'm over my head
I don't know
All I know is
My hands are shaking
Maybe I'm over it
Or maybe I'm in over my head
There's no need to talk about it now

Cause I can't get you out of my head
(Oh no, oh no, oh)
I need to know, I need to know
Tell me everything that's on your mind
Don't let me go
Don't let me go off this way
Don't let me go away...


Walk Harbor City by Hidden In Plain View.

5 Months And One...

Those images still lingers vividly in my mind.I can never forget the fateful day when everything around me just changed.It wasn't that long ago and from then on,I had a full grip of my life.I seem to have the full control of which direction I want to take and everything was so smooth sailing that I found the situation too surreal.At times,I was worried that the moment would end in just a blink of an eye.Call it too good to be true or whatever.But I put them aside since I rather just spend the beautiful moment while it lasts.How I wish time can just stand still and leave things be the way they were but it never does.

It seemed so perfect.There wasn't a single disappointment each day because we'll keep other company through the day without fail.That was the drive that keeps the ball rolling and from time to time,when I find myself having a bad day,she'll make me smile instantaneously.And it just keeps going on and on.Never did we fail to compliment each other in some ways or another and noone would have thought or expected that things would go this far.If this was a fairy-tale then you can call it a real-life cinderella story.

Then it came to an abrupt end,largely because of my very own mistake.Something which still haunts me up until now.That moment of came about on what was supposed to be a special day for us but turns out that I committed a grave sin.Everyone knows just as I would like time to stop the last time,I can never turn it back this time around.Things went all downhill from then on,I was heading towards the deep unknown.That deep unknown was exactly the place I was before everything started.Spent time just thinking and thinking without caring about whatever is going on all around me.It was around that time that I was on a self-discovery about my own identity.Finding the roots of whatever made me who I was then.It was proably one of the darkest period of my life.Things went from bad to worse and my mindset reverted back to the old way.

Somehow,I managed to regain my footing before I fall any deeper.Redemption.I could have easily fallen over but miraculously I didn't.I can't quite explain how I managed to get a hold of myself and made me realise how badly I guided my own life.Things started picking up again and I feel stronger in terms of willpower.Call me persistent otherwise known as stubborn but everytime I long for something,I'll go through hell just to get it.That's just how I brought myself up because to me,if it means that much to me,nothing is going to stop me.I wouldn't give up on things that easily because I always attach myself to them first and risk getting torn in the process.It's a little like making a commitment to myself.

And now,I am living life the way I want to and that's what's important.Not forgetting that whatever happened in the past are just chapters in our life that we can overlook because what we do in the present will make or break the future.Noone can predict the future and it's not for us to know until the moment comes.All we can do until then is trust and hope that things will go the way we want it to.Things don't just float away overnight and I know it's never easy to pretend as if nothing has ever happened but if we can overlook them then it would be better wouldn't it?I'm working on whatever I lack and trying to be a better person so that when I finally have a chance to make things up to you,I will make sure I do a better job.And I'm not doing all these because I want to.It's been bittersweet but I want to make it sweeter so that we can leave the bitterness behind.5 months and one since that very day...



How long
Till I take you back
All these thoughts in my mind
Gone sober
For these three words
Are now reserved for another
And so you say
You don't need me anyway
(You don't need anything)
So take in all these blanks that remain empty
Through the promises you've sent right through me

Run away,run away,run away
These are the games we play
Here's one from me to you
I'll put you into these shoes
How long
(Have you been gone)
And I'll wait another day
(For the very next song singing)
Hold on,hold on
(I'm always holding on)
I know this can't be right

It's time to wake up
And pull your sheets down
It's time to realise
The dreams that you would've never known
It's time to wake up
And pull your sheets down
It's time to realise
The dreams that you would've never known

It's time to wake up
And pull your sheets down
It's time to realise
The dreams that you would've never known
It's time to wake up
And pull your sheets down
It's time to realise
The dreams that you would've never known

(We wanna sell you out,we wanna,we wanna)
We sold,we sold,we sold ourselves
(We wanna sell you out)
We sold,we sold,we sold ourselves
We sold,we sold,we sold ourselves
We sold,we sold,we sold ourselves

We sold,we sold,we sold ourselves
(We wanna sell you out)
We sold,we sold,we sold ourselves
We sold,we sold,we sold ourselves
We sold,we sold,we sold ourselves...


5 Months And One by West Grand Boulevard.

Embers And Envelopes...

It's been a good week,or at least it wasn't that bad to begin with.The way things are moving seems to ideally suits me,for the first time in a long while.Can't seem to remember anything much on monday since it's probably just another slow start to the week with the clocks ticking so slowly and everyone just wanted the day to be over since it first began.I remembered the part whereby Mrs Yeow and Mr Chew was absent and we had the first few periods to do Sudoku.That's like my monday morning ritual for the first lesson and unfortnately,it just have to chemistry.But what the heck,we had the same relief teacher coming for both their periods and he seriously looks like Joshua from 4d.Joke of the day.Oh wait,there's the Mother Tongue results on monday.I got a B4 and miraculously a distinction for oral which I'm still curious to find out how the hell I got it.But that just means that I did badly for my papers,don't think I'll be re-taking though.

Battled tuesday's timetable in the hopes of playing soccer for P.E.Turns out it rained after just 45 seconds of kick-off.Tough luck,I believe Mr Viknesh was willing to let us play in the rain unless it's really heavy.It poured like mad and somehow it just stopped the moment P.E period was over,so much for battling the day with courage that even Asyraf reported sick halfway through.I guess the bug is spreading around in class and everyone just seem to not be well.

Wednesday was my Englsih O level day.The topic was on environment,more or less.But the first question was kind of funny."Do you like the climate in Singapore?"It's like just because I wasn't a Singaporean,do you really have to ask that?I mean,there really isn't much difference in Singapore when compared with Indonesia.What do you expect me to be saying,"I miss the snow in Indonesia?"Next one was another killer one,"Would you like to live in a cold country?"Of course I said some pretty decent things and try to get this done and over with.Last question was the one I find more comfortable in,"Do you think the climate plays an important factor to our life?"I'm so glad Kathleen kind of talked about it with me the day before so I sort of try and put some things in from our little conversation but strangely,it was the shortest answer I've given when compared to the former two.I was shivering like mad,not because of the tense moments rather it was because of the air-con which seems to be blowing even colder the moment I speak with the examiners.And mind you,my jaw uncontrollably shiverred so badly,it isn't funny.I just hope I did well for it so I can focus on the papers.

Thursday was supposed to be the day where I just let loose after school.Went jamming with the guys without Eugene who's got it bad from his mom because of his Mother Tongue results and Asyraf who went back early.So Farith decided to bring Ridzuan and Zaki along while Andre came along as usual.Checked out a new place at Siglap and I find the place pretty alright but the price sure isn't.I've been to better places with more affordable prices and the drumset isn't as good as Bella Luna Studio,which closed down last month.But I love the amps because they came with all kinds of effects from delay to echo to reverb to chorus and flanger.Good stuff but overall,it wasn't a good trip.We didn't even play a single song since some people just came over and hogged everything,making me feel moodless to do anything.Blame me for not taking actions but hey,I decided to wait until they come to their senses and realised that they've been stealing too much limelight.Worse thing is,they still have the cheek to not pay a single cent which made me feel like as though they're just going there to enjoy themselves without paying anything.Sounds like a freeloader to me.I mean,if you go there and spend the time playing with the instruments thinking that it's free then you've really got a freaking thick skin.I hate freeloaders,good enough I forked out my saving which I planned on buying 10 cds and thanks to you guys,I'm left with a zero.

Friday was just a slack day for everyone.Mrs Yeow seems to be in pleasant mood and so is Mrs Chan.So why should I not be?Stayed back a while and hung around with Jeremy and gang.More like I had to because everyone is taking turn playing my psp,not that I've anything against them playing them.Jeremy composed a song,or rather just the chords and I listened a sample.It was quite good considering he took up later than me and I think he has improved by a few steps so that's good.All he needs now is the words to complete the song and there's the first composition by Jeremy Chua.I've been too busy working with words rather than chords that I think I've lost my rhythm.And today,had tuition in the morning before studying in the afternoon.Headed for mass and I must say the new priest that took over Fr. Aloysius has a wicked sense of humour.Today,he shared the story about busybody,somebody,anybody,everybody and nobody.Well,I shan't explain how this complicated story goes about but it was pretty amusing.

The past few weeks has been well-spent.I've come to realise that I find it stupid of me to create the terms enemies.I might not like a particular person but that doesn't mean I should treat the person like dirt.While plenty more are friends whom I've sort of neglected over a certain period because either the friendship died down.Whatever it is,I've been trying to inject a new meaning in life.I want to be the one who make someone's bad day good and a good day,even better.It's going to take one hell of a makeover to tranform myself but I like the new mentality that I have now,or rather in progress.Besides I don't really gain anything by condemning people so I rather make truce because you never know when you're going to need them in the future.And of course to a special few,I'm trying to make things up to you people and hopefully things could turn out like they used to.


So I guess things has been slightly better now.I still find it amazing how my life took a big turn and through it,I've learnt so many things.I've always been a pessimist and that will never change.Things always seem to take a cruel tumble the moment it all seemed all so perfect and I can't live without fearing the worst.Everytime I tried thinking of the positive outcome,it turned out badly and it always feels worse when you're expecting so much only to fail by such a big margin.Both ways,it has its pros and cons depending on which one you look at.For now,I'm just trying to be a better person.Embers will burn bridges down,but envelopes could reconcile us again...


We write to apologise
We ask to look past life as it goes by
I know you have sacrificed time
Life, love, time to fly
Please consider all things trite
Forgiveness will be the thing that gets us by
I know to have something like this
Broken is hard to fix

Embers, we're burning bridges down
Oh envelopes, stuffed with feelings found
To write this down as means to reconcile
Embers, we're burning bridges down
Oh envelopes, stuffed with feelings found
To write this down as means to reconcile

We write to patch things up
Maybe not to agree but to proclaim love
Let's look ahead and then we'll see the one
Whose glory never ends
And based on that we'll see
There'll be room for change, but gradually
I know to have something like this
Broken is hard to fix

Embers, we're burning bridges down
Oh envelopes, stuffed with feelings found
To write this down as means to reconcile
Embers, we're burning bridges down
Oh envelopes, stuffed with feelings found
To write this down as means to reconcile

Embers, we're burning bridges down
Oh envelopes, stuffed with feelings found
To write this down as means to reconcile
Embers, we're burning bridges down
Oh envelopes, stuffed with feelings found
To write this down as means to reconcile

If all is said and done and over
(Embers, we're burning bridges down)
If we don't have to, we're not going to
( Oh envelopes, stuffed with feelings found)
Make the change, it's worth the try
(To write this down as means to reconcile)
What's broken can be fixed tonight

Embers, we're burning bridges down
Oh envelopes, stuffed with feelings found
To write this down as means to reconcile...


Embers And Envelopes by Mae.

On The Side Of Me...

It's been a hectic week as far as I'm concerned but I kind of enjoyed it.Fast forward to Wednesday,we had national day celebration which equals to half-day.The concert was a total 'burn' to some people and I enjoyed it,regardless of how boring the performances were.We made sure it wasn't as boring using our creative mind,what else?Went to The Cage after and everyone was hardcore,especially after we got $25 ripped thanks to Irwan.You did great man,it just confirmed to the whole world that the doctor removed half your brain rather than half your lung.But overall,it was great.The place wasn't as great compared to Indonesia and considering the price was double than my home country,I conclude that whatever Singapore has,Indonesia can do better.Except National Day celebrations that is.We can never organise such a thing in our stadium or whatever location because it'll get too chaotic and the crowds will just go crazy unlike here,everything is so organised.But whatever the case,the National Day celebration here is going to cost a bomb and you know where the money come from.Us.

Basically rotted at home and became a couch potato for a day just doing nothing.I like it that way,or maybe not.I spent the whole of last night finishing my book,Digital Fortress by Dan Brown for the second time.I guess I've got a slight interest in codes,I kind them fun to make.So far I've only tried giving two codes to Kathleen.She figured the first of course and now she's on to the next one which she's stuggling with of course.I think it's quite fun and challenging and fun to play around with codes and solve them.The satisfaction of solving beats solving a maths equation any day since it involves creativity rather than just plain old formulae after formulae.It's something like sudoku only difference is it doesn't have to only involve numbers which makes it even more interesting.I'm going to try out more and see if I can get more people involved in this.

And today was great,I guess.Woke up rather early and went to Marina Square to catch Rush Hour 3 at the 2:50 slot.Spent my time there doing homework and a little window shopping,like I always do,since I never have enough cash for a real shopping spree.Went Topman to check on the skeleton key which I've been trying desperately to find,much to my dismay.Anyway,Rush Hour is alright,I wouldn't say it's a standout but I enjoyed it without a doubt.Shan't spoil it for those who are planning to watch it,it's got a weak plot though.But the joke's and the bloopers makes up for everything.And then I walked around Suntec for a little sightseeing and then to Millenia Walk.It's quite a great day and went back pretty late.I swear the bus took forever and the traffic jam made things even worse.Luckily my mom isn't in a bad mood today maybe because our neighbour's elderly has just passed away.Went over for a little visit to pay respect and sat with the family for a while.And here I am as usual doing my ritual of bloghopping and writing this post.

For the past few days,I've been staying up while talking to one of my friends for 4 years now.None other than Hanis,I remembered the last time she tagged saying she was honoured to be mentioned in my post.Anyway,it was great talking to her since we've been missing out on whatever is going on in each other's life.I guess we got to make it a point to hang out once in a while eh?And with strawberry shortcake too.Get your blog running again,I'm having a hard time trying to think of ways to keep myself busy since I've had a blog less to read.

Here's some random pictures to brighten up the blog.




















Racial Harmony like ages ago,Lovell is getting married(gasp)















Provehito In Altum,taken off 30 Seconds To Mars album.















Yellowcard's Paper Walls.















This is what kids come up with when they get bored during chemistry.





















Corrinne May's Beautiful Seed for my bro's birthday,hope you like it.




















Jack's Mannequin's Everything In Transit,awesome stuff.





















Train's For Me,It's You.Pretty alright,there's a few standout tracks like All I Hear.Courtesy of Eugene Lim.


The code of the week: btmftruseahutttcetiioeth...
I've gotten this code from an idea off Eugene,thanks man.


Sometimes I wonder why certain things happen in life.But no matter how rough things are,I take it in my stride to continue this journey.I have to,not only for myself but for everyone that's around me.That's what matters to me more.The people that has shared my ups and downs.The people that has gone through thick and thin with me.The people that never knew how much they meant to me just because I never made this feeling known.The people that I've always respected and admired in whatever way.The people that I could trust with all my life.The people that made me realise the true meaning in life.The people that has made me who I am today.The people who shall forever be held dear in my heart.The people who has left footprints in my fragile heart.The people whom I'll always look out and care for.The people that never failed to cheer up whenever I'm down.The people who did try to make things better.The people that I cherish.The people that I'm honoured to be linked with in whatever way.The people that are always on the side of me...


I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved

Yet you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
Yeah you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me

I'm not too proud of some things
I've done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide

Yet you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
Blessed charity
On the side of me
On the side of me

Cause everyone needs a friend to hold
When it's cold outside
And there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
All alone I cried
There was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
But you

I'm not the easiest person to love
But you,you've opened your heart to show me what I'm worth

Cause you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
What a mystery
You're on the side of me
On the side of me

Cause everyone needs a friend to hold
When it's cold outside
And there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
All alone I cried
There was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
I remember when nobody cared
Nobody cared
But you

Yeah you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me...


On The Side Of Me by Corrinne May.

Into Oblivion(Reunion)...

Today has been a great day.Woke up kind of late since my chemistry tuition is over,my tutor has got student exchange programme to Korea.How kimchi-cool is that?Right after my math tuition is over,I suddenly have the mood to touch my keyboard after a long break.And yeah,back to basics.That's what I did to my guitar,I was excited in the beginning then I realised I sucked at it so I take a break for a while.After some time,I'll get my mood back and learn a lot more.I have a book which has all the chords for the ketboard and of course me being me,I don't bother to try every one of them.I just take a look at some which is used for the songs I'm trying to play.I am so proud to announce that I'm able to play Wherever You Will Go up until the second verse,that's where I started screwing up again.Unlike the last time,I'm able to play with both hands fully utilised.I didn't play the chords the last time round so today was productive,musically.It may not seem much to some but hey,it brought me so much satisfaction it was unbelievable.

Went for the evening mass.Went back home and did some chemistry before learning even more songs,this time with my guitar.I plan to learn The Kill,From Yesterday,Attack,The Mixed Tape,Hey There Delilah,Headspin and A Day Late.So far,it's been quite a success.I just need time to keep playing them so that my brain can register them in so that I can showcase them before the next jamming session.This time we'll all be doing our own things since there's no concert and we're just going for fun and maybe get the music direction.Oh yeah,next wednesday is a half day and I plan to join my pals to The Cage.It's going to be a great day,it will be a better one if I can regain my form and of course,what matters more is that whichever team I play in will end up with back-to-back victories.Like I said before,I hate losing.That includes being second best to anyone.Obviously it applies only to areas where I believe I stand a chance so strike out studies,but hey you never know.If I work hard maybe,just maybe I can earn decent grades.

I'm caught between two minds for how to spend the national day.I want to catch the fireworks and of course I have a big idea of how to make that special but I'm guessing it's not going to happen since there isn't any realistic chance.Just an imagination.The other is of course,being stuck at home catching it on the comfort of my own sofa.And then having a big laugh or just astounded for Live The Dream.On Friday I plan to catch either The Simpsons or Rush Hour 3.I'm a sucker for comedies and I'm usually not the movie-goer type.I can count the number of times I went to catch a mocie in Singapore with my hands,or hand to be exact.It's so unlike Indonesia whereby the prices are dirt cheap or if you don't have the time,you can always find pirated dvds infesting at all sorts of places.

Have been listening to every possible song to relate to this post.Couldn't find any,but I found one that's closely linked to my thoughts for the day.The lyrics hit me hard,very hard.Especially certain lines which to me,hit me like a slippery fish(I got this line from Grand theft Auto:Vice City).It has every element of what's going through my mind.The future,hope and you.

I stared into oblivion,all I see is you...


The days I've felt alone
And the sea, it brings me back again
So that I can see my wife
And I can see my child
Home, I'm home, it never changes
Same old faces, same old places

I stared into oblivion
And found my own
I stared into oblivion
Into oblivion

Find in me the hope
That you have never known
Find in us the faith
The faith to bring you home

I stared into oblivion
And found my own
I stared into oblivion
And found my own
I stared into oblivion
And found my own reflection there
(Reflection there)

Home, now that I'm coming home
Will you be the same as when I saw you last?
Tell me how much time has passed
Home, now that I'm coming home
Will you be the same as when I saw you last?
Tell me how much time has passed
Home, now that I'm coming home
Will you be the same as when I saw you last?
Tell me how much time has passed

I stared into oblivion
(And found my own)
I stared into oblivion
(And found my own)
I stared into oblivion
(And found my own)
I stared into oblivion
And found my own reflection there...


Into Oblivion(Reunion) by Funeral For A Friend.

You Could Be Happy...

I'm going to talk a little bit about the confirmation business since I finally have the luxury of time to copy them into the computer and blog about it.I swear it's taking a century just to upload the photos.Anyway,let the pictures speak for themselves.















Sunday class: Shaun and Nicholas' group.















Sunday class: Michael and Su Fern's group.















Saturday class: Peter's group.















Saturday class: Rolland's group.















Saturday class: Jason's group.






















First reading lector: Rachael.





















Mr. Cantor: Glenn.





















Second reading lector: Dyanna.















Me and the archbishop.





















General Intercessions: Kimberly.















Aaron and Irish delivering the bread and wine safely into the archbishop's hands.















And that's all our letters.





















Testimonial boy.















Group shot,the making part 1.















Part 2.















Part 3,we're halfway there.















Part 4.















Part 5.















Part 6,almost there.















Part 7,final touch-ups.















Part 8.Ready.lights,camera,action!















Say cheese.















Click.















Mass booklet.















Bookmark and a light-up Hand of God.

So that was roughly what happened on May 20th.For behind-the-scenes images,you'll have to get your butts to my place since I don't have the patience to be dealing with the time-consuming
work of copy-pasting.Besides,I'm getting restless and very tired.So fast forward to July 28th which was last saturday.I waited for Paul to pick me up with all the heavy load of guitars and amplifiers.We reached the church ground at about 2 and met Elliot.We sat at the usual place to wait for Peter who said "I'll be right there" because we figured we can't get access to an empty room in the Sea Avenue block.We waited for about 45 minutes before Elliot have to go and that leaves just me and Paul to practice without our vocalist,yet again.We decided to give Peter another ring and this time,he did come with the sentence of the day,"the rooms should be open."We basically waited there for absolutely nothing,oh well.Anyway,we did get our old classroom but we got 'hijacked' by kids halfour age and we had no choice but to exchange rooms.We went to the fourth floor and played there until Elliot arrived from his long-departed journey somewhere in the katong area.

And when he arrived,we realised we had only at most 2 hours to have proper practice.And then we went for mass and for once,I sat without my family on a saturday evening mass.Headed straight for the canteen after mass whereby we had a little sound check.The whole thing started at about 8 and we had to play two songs to open up the session.We played History first since we figured that we're too lazy to tune our guitars later on.I screwed up big time,firstly my sixth string was out of tune and worst thing is everyone seemed to know.Major blow number 2,we played only until the bridge because I screwed it up.I can hear Funeral For A Friend suing me for defaming their masterpiece.And the second song was Moment Of Truth by FM Static,Paul said he screwed the solo but I think it was alright.We had occasional glitches due to lack of practice and confidence,or at least that's the case for me.God knows how the hell I was so calm during last year's teacher's day concert.There was like really no pressure on my part of the bargain.

So anyway,we had a little break then for everyone to have some food catered in.Me and Paul didn't touch the food,until I saw the chocolate wafers which lookssafe enough to eat.Then we played Blind,Chasing Cars,Collide and We Believe.I decided to grab something to bite while Paul and Elliot are doing You And Me,just a miserable curry puff mind you.And somehow,we got ourselves a name 'PEE'.All our initials combined together Paul,Elliot and Edwin.Wicked name,oh yeah it was an acoustic set without an acoustic guitar.We played with electric and without bass and drums,that was how badly we were caught off guard since we only know about it a week from the actual day.Good enough we managed to pull off something considering the lack of preparations we faced.Could be better,of course but to me it was a decent performance.

We had the vide re-screening before being politely interrupted by Aaron,Gavin,Steven and Joel for the main event.A lightsaber fight.We promised good background music and that's exactly what we give,Spongebob's closing theme song.When that was over we had the Youth Council people trying to publicise themselves through a hilarious 'Heroes' game.And that's where we end off,not.I went to the third floor area to give Kathleen her 26 days overdued birthday gift,can't seem to apologise enough.And suddenly,the dimly-lit area welcomed Elliot,Kim and Aaron.We left Kim and Aaron at a distant corner while Kathleen was caught in her own world playing Nintendo DS as Elliot kept trying to see.I just sat on my amp and blankly stared at the floor.Obviously caught up with my own stuff and not caring about whatever is going on in the surrounding.Suddenly everything became too quiet.The stairs to the second floor were locked and the elevators was turned off.We were basically stranded on the third floor until a voice in my head told me to head to the back of the canteen since there's an emergency exit there.I swear I didn't even know the emergency exit existed until that moment,I've never been familiar with some areas of church.

So we walked down the stairs like as though it was some thriller/horror movie turning into a reality.We're trapped in church for the night but the only difference is that my mom won't be too pleased if she hears me saying that.So I hoped for the best and true enough,we were just in time to see our catechists at the other side of the gate.And also,the person who locked the whole place up.Or else we'll be doomed for sure,maybe not but we could be spending the night in church which I still find quite an exciting experience.Got home after that and yeah,back to the usual.So that was how I spent my July 28th.It was definitely an eye-opener back to reality.A crash back to earth after being sky high for so long.It's been,interesting and it's probably one of those I'll never forget for a long time to come.


Just when I thought things were getting better and there's a slight progression,things come to another halt.I guess I'll just have to resort to seeing the worst case scenario.I'm having second thoughts now,I can never know what's our stand now.Someone told me that it's all over.Call me stubborn but I refuse to back down until I hear it coming from your own lips.Until then,I await.And even if that day comes,I'm not sure how I'll react.Experience is the name people give to their mistakes and regrets.I just don't know what to think or do anymore now that things starts crashing down from out of nowhere and at the worst possible time.You could be happy,I hope you are...
















Yours truly.



You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go

And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played in loops till it's madness in my head

Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur

Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door

You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far

Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true

Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do

More than anything I want to see you, girl
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world...


You Could Be Happy by Snow Patrol.

The Mixed Tape...

It's been ages since I last updated.It's been a hectic week.I was down with flu and inflammation of my throat and I reported sick on tuesday.As a result,I missed the social studies test which I don't when I'll be taking and the CCA verification so I had no idea what my grade is.I'm just hoping it's a distinction so I can get 2 points cut off.Can't quite remember what happened on monday,must have been one of those boring days.Anyway on tuesday,I practically slept from 12 noon to dinner time and then I slept again.That's at least 15 good hours of catching sleeping time.On wednesday,I took a risk by coming to school since I wasn't feeling totally fit just yet.But somehow I managed to pull it off and here I am today feeling even better.But I'm not staying up too late since I'm such a pig and I really need a ot of sleeping time.Maybe it's just habit and you know what they say,the dirtier the habit,the harder it is to kick.

I am supposed to be doing the testimonial which is supposed to be handed in by tomorrow but I'm really stuck at the first paragraph.State (1) academic achievements on school (2) academic ability (3) attitude towards school and schoolwork.Totally brain overload partly because I don't really have anything to be proud of academically in my secondary life.I've always been in the middle of both sides.I can still remember my secondary 2 days though,I was doing pretty well for myself.I was in the top 50 among my batch for the final year,put it simply as I was the 50th.So I don't quite have the answer as to why my results are this bad now.All my family members said that I'm actually the smartest boy in the family,it's just that I don't use my brain to it's fullest potential.If I'm not wrong my IQ is the highest compared to the rest of my family members but there's only so much an IQ test can prove.Having a high IQ doesn't mean that you're intelligent,it means that you have a higher capacity of seeing the product faster.

Anyway,there's too much tension and bad blood in the classroom that it's getting really annoying.Sadly,I've been both the victim and the enforcer.But truth is,there's really a problem with some of my classmates.Can we just not care about whatever other people's life is?I mean,why make their life a part of your own.If you are saying you don't care then act like you don't,don't go about sparking off more fuel.It's getting stale,way too predictable.And for some,I just hope they could just stop their nonsense and get this three months done and dusted for good.It's such a pain when the teachers have to lose track of the lesson dealing with things that's affecting your own future.I don't wish to mention names and I'm sure it's pretty obvious to all whoever you are and I must admit that I haven't been an angel myself.It's just that I don't do some randowm things that makes the teachers so fuming angry that they rather wish you were dead or something.At least if I'm not interested I'll be caught up with my own things at my little corner of the classroom.I don't go about depriving the others of their time to pay attention.And for the backstabbing thing,it's part and parcel of life so face it.In the real world,it's never going to be friends forever or whatever crap that is.So I think it's good that we deal with it now so that we know what to expect for the many more years to come.If you can't handle the heat,get out of the kitchen.If you think you can,then live with it.Don't be a sour grape and make things look like the world is against you or something.

Anyway,enough of that.I've said my piece.Got Yellowcard's Paper Walls and 30 Seconds To Mars A Beautiful Lie from Eugene.And I got myself Jack's Mannequin's Everything In Transit.They're all damn good.Currently I just got Gorillaz's Demon Days and +44's When Your Heart Stops Beating also courtesy of Eugene,so thanks man.Currently hooked onto The Mixed Tape by Jack's Mannequin,currently also my blog song.It just means a lot to me and especially now that whatever is being sung in the song actually happens in reality to me.Pure coincidence.The words just literally sink in to me like as if it's the perfect one to describe what I'm going through now.Oh yeah,I forgot to talk about last saturday's mini gig in church.Shall talk about it soon,I promise.Until then,I'm off.


Well,that day was the day when I thought could re-ignite some flames.I have a feeling it didn't but something also tells me that a little spark ignited,no matter how little that is.What I give isn't much,but it's truly what I feel.Something that comes from the heart,times like these prices don't really matter.It's the thought that counts and I believe that meaningful gifts with little budget is worth more than any diamond or gold.That is my mixed tape for,it's like I wrote every note with my own fingers,literally...


This is morning
That's when I spend the most time
Thinking about what I've given up
This is a warning
When you start the day just to close the curtains
You're thinking about what I've given up

Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through the stereo
I'm writing you a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As I rearrange the songs again
This mix could burn a hole in anyone
But it was you I was thinking of

I read your letter
The one you left when you broke into my house
Retracing every step you made
And you said you meant it
And there's a piece of me in every single
Second of every single day
But if it's true then tell me how it got this way

Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through the stereo
I'm writing you a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As I rearrange the songs again
This mix could burn a hole in anyone
But it was you I was thinking of
It was you I was thinking of

And I can't get to you
I can't get to you
I can't get to you,you, you

Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through the stereo
I conduct a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As I'm cutting through you track by track
I swear to God this mix could sink the sun
But it was you I was thinking of
It was you I was thinking of

And where are you now?(where are you now?)
And where are you now?(where are you now?)

This is my mixed tape for her
It's like I wrote every note
With my own fingers...


The Mixed Tape by Jack's Mannequin.