I've got an avid reader in Grace.She kept popping up online to talk about my posts which seem to always be meaningful to her.LiangZi too,though I rarely met her online.Twice to be exact.That's not the point,I'm just trying to say that well,my blog is beng read by at least two very caring souls.And I've regained my counter though it's starting from scratch,it's better than nothing right?
A couple of days more to Joanne's birthday,no clue on what to get her but I've an idea up my sleeve.I always have an idea right?Not sure whether the team is going to get yet another cake,I'm neutral to the idea.Tomorrow is the team photo taking.It will be the first since I'm guessing it's the idea of the new principal on taking a formal picture for CCA which is good but sadly it's my last year so I'm probably not going to see it until I collect it together with my O level certificate.I think it'll be hard for me to leave the team sometime in May/June this year.I've never really bonded with anyone in badminton until this year,I guess that's a mistake on my part.
Let's not get emotional here,I'm changing the topic since I can write until next week on the team without ever finishing the post.Went for catechism class in the morning,I still think I prefer Saturday's class since I know more people there.I'm so not going to miss Saturday class again.Hey,Pete if you're reading this don't bother to add my marks for saying this because I'm saying this out of personal opinion not to suck up to you.I've found my baptism certificate,yay-ness to that.Now I can get confirmed.
My dad left for Indonesia today.He's off so fast,we barely even talked.He arrived on Friday night,went out the whole day on Saturday though we had dinner together and left this evening.I really pitied him because firstly he's sick when he arrived.He came just so he can give us some supplies from Indonesia and supposedly spend some time with us.Secondly,he has to do all these in between the tight schedule of his work.He's so committed to his his job that he will sacrifice his health,I mean take a day off or something.Even if he does,I don't think he will stay at home and rest,he will always be caught up in something.
Lastly,he's staying in Indonesia with my aunt,grandmother,one of my oldest cousin and the maid.Which means,he is staying without us.I don't know how he can survive under these harsh conditions.Generally speaking,in Asia when married couples make vows to never leave each other,it means that I'll stay true to you no matter what.It's not a physical contact thing,at least this is my meaning for the phrase.I love my dad dearly,I would die for my family and I know he's doing this for the good of our family.For that,I salute you dad for being my one and only hero.I can go on about this but I think I've stated my point,I miss you dad...
Not forgetting,you.I miss you too...
Hey dad
I'm writing to you
Not to tell you
That I still hate you
Just to ask you
How you feel
And how we fell apart
How this fell apart
Are you happy out there in this great wide world?
Do you think about your sons?
Do you miss your little girl?
When you lay your head down
How do you sleep at night?
Do you even wonder if we're all right?
But we're all right
We're all right
It's been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried
You broke my mother's heart
You broke your children for life
It's not ok
But we're all right
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long lost memory of mine
I spent so many years learning how to survive
Now I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive
The days I spent so cold, so hungry
Were full of hate
I was so angry
The scars run deep inside this tattooed body
There's things I'll take to my grave
But I'm okay
I'm okay
It's been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried
You broke my mother's heart
You broke your children for life
It's not ok
But we're all right
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long lost memory of mine
Now I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive
Yeah, I'm still alive
Sometimes
I forgive
Yeah and this time
I'll admit
That I miss you
Said I miss you
It's been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried
You broke my mother's heart
You broke your children for life
It's not ok
But we're all right
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long lost memory of mine
Now I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive
And sometimes
I forgive
And this time
I'll admit
That I miss you
I miss you
Hey dad...
Emotionless by Good Charlotte.
I don't ever hate you dad,this song ain't exacty what happened but I really miss the physical presence of you.I really do mean it and dad,you're my hero no matter what.
Sunday, February 25, 2007
My List...
I've been getting really restless nowadays and I seem to always have sleepless nights.Tonight isn't any better,my eyes aren't tired though my body is.I think I'm always thinking too much.So much so that I can't rest my over-working brain and just let matters rest even for a tiny fraction of a second.It's pestering me so much,somebody just shoot me since it's killing em anyway.
My cough's getting better,I think.Although I'm still coughing like a mad piece of crap.Skipped class today because my dad's friend invited us for dinner.It's a special kind of dinner because he's one of the few of my dad's friend and he's pretty successful in life.I guess his stories do make sense and it was a bit of a positive thing.It got me all thinking of my future the way I've never thought I would.I'm going for to make up for class by attending it tomorrow and probably mass as well.I hate morning calls.
Addicted to PSP ever since I grabbed hold of it and Pro Evolution Soccer 2007 make me even more hooked unto it.I can't leave the house without it.There used to be three things I can't live without, my handphone,my iPod and my guitar.Now I've added PSP into the untouchable list.
I can't you off my mind.You're the first thing I see the moment I open my eyes in the morning.You're the last thing I see before I close my eyes at night.I've never really experienced life this way but in a way,I'm enjoying it more than ever before.Maybe it's because you're so understanding in the way I look at things.I've always thought you are different from the others and I certainly am right.You've got me so motivated to write a song but I guess the time isn't right yet.I need a grand finale before working on a song and noone other than you holds the key to the final chapter of it all.
I want you to be the fifth on my list of loves and I'll make damn sure that I'll rank you the first amongst all,just say the word and I'll show you just how much I care...
Let me wrap myself around you
Let you show me how I see
And when you come back in from nowhere
Do you ever think of me?
Your heart is not able
Let me show you how much I care
I need those eyes to tide me over
I’ll take your picture when I go
It gives me strength and gives me patience
But I’ll never let you know
I got nothing on you baby
But I always said I try
Let me show you how much I care
Cuz sometimes it gets hard
And don’t she know
Don’t give the ghost up just clench your fist
You should have known by now you were on my list
Don’t give the ghost up just clench your fist
You should have known by now you were on my list
Don’t give the ghost up just clench your fist
You should have known by now you were on my list
When your heart is not able
And your prayers they’re not fables
Let me show you (let me show you)
Let me show you (let me show you)
Let me show you how much I care...
My List by The Killers.
My cough's getting better,I think.Although I'm still coughing like a mad piece of crap.Skipped class today because my dad's friend invited us for dinner.It's a special kind of dinner because he's one of the few of my dad's friend and he's pretty successful in life.I guess his stories do make sense and it was a bit of a positive thing.It got me all thinking of my future the way I've never thought I would.I'm going for to make up for class by attending it tomorrow and probably mass as well.I hate morning calls.
Addicted to PSP ever since I grabbed hold of it and Pro Evolution Soccer 2007 make me even more hooked unto it.I can't leave the house without it.There used to be three things I can't live without, my handphone,my iPod and my guitar.Now I've added PSP into the untouchable list.
I can't you off my mind.You're the first thing I see the moment I open my eyes in the morning.You're the last thing I see before I close my eyes at night.I've never really experienced life this way but in a way,I'm enjoying it more than ever before.Maybe it's because you're so understanding in the way I look at things.I've always thought you are different from the others and I certainly am right.You've got me so motivated to write a song but I guess the time isn't right yet.I need a grand finale before working on a song and noone other than you holds the key to the final chapter of it all.
I want you to be the fifth on my list of loves and I'll make damn sure that I'll rank you the first amongst all,just say the word and I'll show you just how much I care...
Let me wrap myself around you
Let you show me how I see
And when you come back in from nowhere
Do you ever think of me?
Your heart is not able
Let me show you how much I care
I need those eyes to tide me over
I’ll take your picture when I go
It gives me strength and gives me patience
But I’ll never let you know
I got nothing on you baby
But I always said I try
Let me show you how much I care
Cuz sometimes it gets hard
And don’t she know
Don’t give the ghost up just clench your fist
You should have known by now you were on my list
Don’t give the ghost up just clench your fist
You should have known by now you were on my list
Don’t give the ghost up just clench your fist
You should have known by now you were on my list
When your heart is not able
And your prayers they’re not fables
Let me show you (let me show you)
Let me show you (let me show you)
Let me show you how much I care...
My List by The Killers.
Friday, February 23, 2007
Waiting On The World To Change...
Well people,I've joined the sick lost.Nearly reported sick on Thursday but I soldiered on the days because of two tests.Ironic how people actually wants to report sick so they can skip the tests while I vice-versa.My explanation is simple,I just want to get the tests over and done with.Anyway,my cough is not any better since it first started about say a week ago?Though it was slightly better last week,hate the cough syndrome.It's bugging the hell out of me.
Training today was strange,I guess.Noone has gotten birthday cakes during training since I arrived into the school,felt a bit strange since it's a little bit chaotic.They should do this on a monthly basis but when that happens,they'll be broke all year round.Ryan didn't come to school today so I was in charge.Didn't really know what to do at first because I don't want the sec ones to be bored to death with the basics especially those who don't realise it's importance.
Anyway,Melvin and Shaun actually fought during the 4 on 1 training.It was very childish and totally uncalled for.Fists flew but I hope they don't take it to heart.They fought over such a small matter.Luckily I was there to stop them since the C boys didn't do anything about it since they're so caught up with the training.I just realise we have such a hot-head in the team and what a waste.He's almost like the 'Wayne Rooney' of the team.Potential but a walking time bomb waiting to explode any moment.You two should be ashamed of yourselves for fighting over such a small matter,I never thought I'll say this but I guess by next year it'll be hard for Ivan's batch to be controlling the team.It'll be atest of maturity for them,in the hard way of course.
I really pity the coach because he might get into trouble because of this if Mr Pang knows about this.Things has been ever-changing since Mr Pang came in and we made it clear when we say that we don't like too much changes but since he thinks he's in control of everything,I have no power to stop him.Sometimes too much of a change isn't good and my personal opinion will be that he will be the downfall of the team.And poof,the team will no longer exist in a couple of years time which I pray not to ever happen.By the way,Pilot Pen is coming real soon not sure whetherI'm fully prepared for it just yet.
We spend the last couple of days talking.Time didn't really matter since we left off with a little bit of a bang as every sentence whizzed by.I can't really explain this feeling,a sense of satisfaction maybe?I don't know.I still find it surreal that I actually said it but well,what's done is done.Ain't no way I can turn back time because there's no other better way for me to say what I did.I don't want to rush things and end up like one of my friend.I learnt from his experience and so I don't want to rush you.Take your time,just make sure you thought all the possibilities through before making the decision.I'm waiting on the world to change for the better and awaiting your answer...
Me and all my friends
We're all misunderstood
They say we stand for nothing and
There's no way we ever could
Now we see everything that's going wrong
With the world and those who lead it
We just feel like we don't have the means
To rise above and beat it
So we keep waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
It's hard to beat the system
When we're standing at a distance
So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change
Now if we had the power
To bring our neighbors home from war
They would have never missed a Christmas
No more ribbons on their door
And when you trust your television
What you get is what you got
Cause when they own the information, oh
They can bend it all they want
That's why we're waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
It's not that we don't care,
We just know that the fight ain't fair
So we keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
And we're still waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
One day our generation
Is gonna rule the population
So we keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
Waiting on the world to change
Waiting on the world to change
Waiting on the world to change
Waiting on the world to change...
Waiting On The World To Change by John Mayer.Coincidentally,I'm waiting for my dad to come.His flight's tonight,can hardly wait to see him.
Training today was strange,I guess.Noone has gotten birthday cakes during training since I arrived into the school,felt a bit strange since it's a little bit chaotic.They should do this on a monthly basis but when that happens,they'll be broke all year round.Ryan didn't come to school today so I was in charge.Didn't really know what to do at first because I don't want the sec ones to be bored to death with the basics especially those who don't realise it's importance.
Anyway,Melvin and Shaun actually fought during the 4 on 1 training.It was very childish and totally uncalled for.Fists flew but I hope they don't take it to heart.They fought over such a small matter.Luckily I was there to stop them since the C boys didn't do anything about it since they're so caught up with the training.I just realise we have such a hot-head in the team and what a waste.He's almost like the 'Wayne Rooney' of the team.Potential but a walking time bomb waiting to explode any moment.You two should be ashamed of yourselves for fighting over such a small matter,I never thought I'll say this but I guess by next year it'll be hard for Ivan's batch to be controlling the team.It'll be atest of maturity for them,in the hard way of course.
I really pity the coach because he might get into trouble because of this if Mr Pang knows about this.Things has been ever-changing since Mr Pang came in and we made it clear when we say that we don't like too much changes but since he thinks he's in control of everything,I have no power to stop him.Sometimes too much of a change isn't good and my personal opinion will be that he will be the downfall of the team.And poof,the team will no longer exist in a couple of years time which I pray not to ever happen.By the way,Pilot Pen is coming real soon not sure whetherI'm fully prepared for it just yet.
We spend the last couple of days talking.Time didn't really matter since we left off with a little bit of a bang as every sentence whizzed by.I can't really explain this feeling,a sense of satisfaction maybe?I don't know.I still find it surreal that I actually said it but well,what's done is done.Ain't no way I can turn back time because there's no other better way for me to say what I did.I don't want to rush things and end up like one of my friend.I learnt from his experience and so I don't want to rush you.Take your time,just make sure you thought all the possibilities through before making the decision.I'm waiting on the world to change for the better and awaiting your answer...
Me and all my friends
We're all misunderstood
They say we stand for nothing and
There's no way we ever could
Now we see everything that's going wrong
With the world and those who lead it
We just feel like we don't have the means
To rise above and beat it
So we keep waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
It's hard to beat the system
When we're standing at a distance
So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change
Now if we had the power
To bring our neighbors home from war
They would have never missed a Christmas
No more ribbons on their door
And when you trust your television
What you get is what you got
Cause when they own the information, oh
They can bend it all they want
That's why we're waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
It's not that we don't care,
We just know that the fight ain't fair
So we keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
And we're still waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
One day our generation
Is gonna rule the population
So we keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
Waiting on the world to change
Waiting on the world to change
Waiting on the world to change
Waiting on the world to change...
Waiting On The World To Change by John Mayer.Coincidentally,I'm waiting for my dad to come.His flight's tonight,can hardly wait to see him.
Monday, February 19, 2007
I Wanna Hold You...
A boring day calls me to get my butt off and head downtown,well not exactly downtown but you get the point.Went to Sim Lim and Funan which are closed so we wasted no time in settling down at Long John Silver a couple of feet away.We refers to my mom and my bro since we are too bored being cooped up at home staring at four white walls.In the end we went to Suntec which is open but most shops are closed.
My mom did her usual grocery shopping at Carrefour while I desperately searched in vain of Pro Evolution Soccer 2007 for my PSP.All they sell are Fifa 07 which is a cool game but I am still a Winning Eleven/Pro Evolution Soccer fan.Am trying to get it since yesterday when my mom gave me a red packet,hopefully I will be able to get it tomorrow when I give Parkway a visit to get my haircut and all so might as well chip in a little bit more time to get my game,a screen protector and all other accessories at the expense of my mom's cheque book.Can't help it.
Checked out HMV at Citylink and found a couple of solid stuff there.Firstly,The observatory's lead singer Leslie Low has released his own acoustic album.Am so going to get it,I am a local music junkie.Found McFly's "Wonderland" which cost 61 dollars since it's imported,like total rip off.Found Good Charlotte's dvd "Fast Future Generations" which makes me go crazy after previewing a sample of it online yesterday.Really feel the urge to get it as soon as possible.Well,after my PSP game,it's the next best thing.Found The Killers tee which is black and it looks good but as I always say whatever looks good looks better on me.Well,there's a zillion things I want to buy but I don't have a zillion dollars so one at a time yeah?Patience.
I did the impossible today.Today is the day I said it.I have to be fairly honest that I rarely confessed because things usually died down and that I usually don't have the guts to.But today,I screwed up from the very first moments because I got myself trapped in between the war of words.I said things which were too obvious and thus I got no choice but to confess in which she replied with neither a positive nor a negative remark.She said we should know each other better first then judge.I don't really know whether to jump for joy or cry in despair but it seems like it's better this way so at least she knows.It's fair for her now that we're on even ground.
Did talked to her alot more just now and well,the more we talked the more I got drawn closer to her.She just seems to be so fun to be with so guess we'll have to let nature take it's course and hopefully when I come back,it'll be a positive reply.I thought it's over by the time I confessed because these are some of the things I can't describe with words.But it turned out the way I've never imagined in my whole entire life because to me,it's either a yes or a no.She said neither so I'm lost for words,yet again.Hope you'll say a yes but I guess I'm more or less prepared for a no.I just wanna hold you so bad that I lose myself in the process...
Tell me that you want me baby
Tell me that it's true
Say the magic words and
I would change the world for you
An army for the broken hearted
Marching through the streets
The cities in surrender
And they're falling at your feet
I wanna hold you
My skies are turning black
Feels like a heart attack
And I'd do anything you ask
I wanna hold you bad
I'd melt the polar icecaps baby
And watch them flood the earth
I'd do anything to show you
What your love is worth
So won't you show me your devotion
To heal my aching heart
And keep polluting like the oceans
Tearing me apart
I wanna hold you
My skies are turning black
Feels like a heart attack
And I'd do anything you ask
I wanna hold you bad
Attention please
We interrupt this program
With some disturbing news
A worldwide evacuation
We're going to lose
Immobilised the nation
I guess it shows us just what love can do
I wanna hold you
My skies are turning black
Feels like a heart attack
And I'd do anything you ask
I wanna hold you bad, bad, bad
I'd do anything you ask
I wanna hold you bad...
I Wanna Hold You by McFly.
My mom did her usual grocery shopping at Carrefour while I desperately searched in vain of Pro Evolution Soccer 2007 for my PSP.All they sell are Fifa 07 which is a cool game but I am still a Winning Eleven/Pro Evolution Soccer fan.Am trying to get it since yesterday when my mom gave me a red packet,hopefully I will be able to get it tomorrow when I give Parkway a visit to get my haircut and all so might as well chip in a little bit more time to get my game,a screen protector and all other accessories at the expense of my mom's cheque book.Can't help it.
Checked out HMV at Citylink and found a couple of solid stuff there.Firstly,The observatory's lead singer Leslie Low has released his own acoustic album.Am so going to get it,I am a local music junkie.Found McFly's "Wonderland" which cost 61 dollars since it's imported,like total rip off.Found Good Charlotte's dvd "Fast Future Generations" which makes me go crazy after previewing a sample of it online yesterday.Really feel the urge to get it as soon as possible.Well,after my PSP game,it's the next best thing.Found The Killers tee which is black and it looks good but as I always say whatever looks good looks better on me.Well,there's a zillion things I want to buy but I don't have a zillion dollars so one at a time yeah?Patience.
I did the impossible today.Today is the day I said it.I have to be fairly honest that I rarely confessed because things usually died down and that I usually don't have the guts to.But today,I screwed up from the very first moments because I got myself trapped in between the war of words.I said things which were too obvious and thus I got no choice but to confess in which she replied with neither a positive nor a negative remark.She said we should know each other better first then judge.I don't really know whether to jump for joy or cry in despair but it seems like it's better this way so at least she knows.It's fair for her now that we're on even ground.
Did talked to her alot more just now and well,the more we talked the more I got drawn closer to her.She just seems to be so fun to be with so guess we'll have to let nature take it's course and hopefully when I come back,it'll be a positive reply.I thought it's over by the time I confessed because these are some of the things I can't describe with words.But it turned out the way I've never imagined in my whole entire life because to me,it's either a yes or a no.She said neither so I'm lost for words,yet again.Hope you'll say a yes but I guess I'm more or less prepared for a no.I just wanna hold you so bad that I lose myself in the process...
Tell me that you want me baby
Tell me that it's true
Say the magic words and
I would change the world for you
An army for the broken hearted
Marching through the streets
The cities in surrender
And they're falling at your feet
I wanna hold you
My skies are turning black
Feels like a heart attack
And I'd do anything you ask
I wanna hold you bad
I'd melt the polar icecaps baby
And watch them flood the earth
I'd do anything to show you
What your love is worth
So won't you show me your devotion
To heal my aching heart
And keep polluting like the oceans
Tearing me apart
I wanna hold you
My skies are turning black
Feels like a heart attack
And I'd do anything you ask
I wanna hold you bad
Attention please
We interrupt this program
With some disturbing news
A worldwide evacuation
We're going to lose
Immobilised the nation
I guess it shows us just what love can do
I wanna hold you
My skies are turning black
Feels like a heart attack
And I'd do anything you ask
I wanna hold you bad, bad, bad
I'd do anything you ask
I wanna hold you bad...
I Wanna Hold You by McFly.
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Change...
Every year,people change and so does everything around them.But for me,one thing never change and that is Chinese New Year.Ever since my family moved here,we've been keeping the doors shut because we aren't really feeling any new year festive mood without our other relatives around.However,today I did what I never thought possible,I actually helped my mom cook up a storm in the kitchen.Wasn't really cooking up but I helped in whatever way I could by helping her with her specialty,a kind of appetiser/cake which is freaking delicious.Anyone who wants to do catering should really hire my mom because I actually see my mom working tirelessly for the first time.Anyway,I am starting to really appreciate what she does for the family now although I know it's too late but at least I realised it now.Whoever said being a housewife is not an occupation does not know how hard it is working in the kitchen.
Well,I went church after that and it was unusually empty.It's like as though mass is cancelled today,everyone's into their reunion dinner which my family don't really practice since we three can eat anytime anyday together so I'm guessing we'll have it when my dad comes over.Went over to Siglap's Mac for a little dinner before heading home.And here I am blogging about my oh-so-patheticcally-boring life.
I went over to Grace's blog the other day and I realised that she wrote about how I changed which is true to a certain extent.I think I've changed a little but I'm still sticking to myself.Maybe it's because I talked more freely to people during badminton whereas I was pin-drop silence the last time.When I was in secondary one,I was shy and since I'm still new to the team,I didn't dare to utter a word since I didn't know anyone.During secondary two,I was too gutted to say anything.There was a particular incident in which changed the course of my life's history.I still am gutted about it until today but I choose not too write it down now because if I do,I will be history.And I will screw everything now that I'm starting to enjoy life to the fullest.It marked off as the turning point of my badminton career,I felt a pain I've never felt in my life and I am truly gutted.I think I've told the story to a few people since noone really knows me well.
Secondary three was when the momentum picks up and I decided not to be foolish about what happened which might hurt my chances of playing in the school team.I became vice-captain later that year,a post which I didn't expect because I never wanted to be the vice-captain.But I assumed the role nonetheless because I didn't have a choice and now that I've reached the utmost seniority period of my 16 years of life,it's time to pass down what I have to the people who are going to lead a new breed of young bloods to follow in our footsteps or perhaps surpassing us by a mile if they take these seriously.
"Over the years, I think he changed a lot.He is finally revealing his true self huh, boy.Haha.Juniors came running and telling me how much he changed.So true lah." -Grace.
I choose to think that some parts of it is true,I am actually pretty much the same person I was three years ago.Just that I've seen more light than others did three years later on and I would probably have said the same thing to anyone three years ago.The only difference will be the response I would have gotten from them.I know how to take full control my life unlike some who chose to be controlled by the people they regarded as friends.
I tend to keep myself under wraps because I don't want to be called a showboater but I tend to stay undercover for too long that people think I'm non-existant and at times very cold.I always seem to be in deep thoughts because I am always trying to think 10 steps ahead of anyone but sometimes the answer is right in front of me,just that I was thinking too hard and thus I blocked out those around me.Nowadays,I try to be at most 3 steps ahead because I know that if I were further than that,people will still treat me the same way I was.One day,I'm going to pen down my detailed lifespan as a badminton player in Bedok North Secondary.And hopefully,those who read it will understand what I am going through and respect my decisions on certain measures and actions which I took.
I guess I am just camouflaging from my true-self because now that I've peaked,I don't want to let my knowledge go down the drain just like that.It would be such a waste and although it might seem that my experience will mean nothing to some,I think it will be a good idea for these new blood to fulfill their optimum potential.I have high hopes for some and I hope these people won't let me down.
One final footnote before I'm off,I hope you're reading this and you liked the valentine's gift I gave although it's nothing much.Like everyone would say it's the thoughts that count and hopefully you will change your view about me.It's hard to know the fact that I've tried doing everything for you but all you gave was nothing more than a cold shoulder.I think I've not made things obvious for you but the signs are showing right in front of you,just that you either chose to ignore it or you couldn't see it.It's hard enough for me and please don't make it worse,I know I might not be the one for you now but give me a chance and let me prove you wrong on your narrow perspective.I can't change the way I feel about you.Not now,not ever...
Oh...
On and on and on and on and on
On and on and on and on and on
On and on and on and on and on
I am lost in the see-thru
I think you lost yourself too
Throughout all of this confusion
I hope I somehow get to you
I practiced all the things I'd say
To tell you how I feel
And when I finally get my chance
It all seems so surreal
Cause from the first time I saw you
I only thought about you
I didn't know you
I wanted to hold on to
The things you'd never say to me
Cause you said
You can't change the way you feel
(I could never do that, I could never do that)
But you can't tell me this ain't real
Cause this is real
(And you would see right through that)
In the end it's all I've got
(So I would hold onto that)
So I'm gonna hold
On and on and on and on
On and on and on and on and on and on and on
And now you've got me watching your eyes
(Watching just to see, watching just to see)
You've got me waiting just to see
(If you'll ever look at me)
If it goes away it never will
(Will it ever go? Will it ever go my way?)
Your eyes are watching me
Oh
And now you've got me thinking 'bout
The first time that I met you
Standing in a crowded room
But I could only see you
And I hope my words will get through
Cause now I can't forget you
I wanna tell you
If only I could reach you
And make you feel this way
Cause you said
You can't change the way you feel
(I could never do that, I could never do that)
But you can't tell me this ain't real
Cause this is real
(And you would see right through that)
In the end it's all I've got
(So I would hold onto that)
So I'm gonna hold
On and on and on and on and on and on and on and on
On and on and on and on and on and on and on
Ohhh
On and on and on
Ohhh
On and on and on and on...
Change by Good Charlotte.
This is one of my favorite songs of all time because it really shows and penned down what I honestly feel just that it's in words.
Well,I went church after that and it was unusually empty.It's like as though mass is cancelled today,everyone's into their reunion dinner which my family don't really practice since we three can eat anytime anyday together so I'm guessing we'll have it when my dad comes over.Went over to Siglap's Mac for a little dinner before heading home.And here I am blogging about my oh-so-patheticcally-boring life.
I went over to Grace's blog the other day and I realised that she wrote about how I changed which is true to a certain extent.I think I've changed a little but I'm still sticking to myself.Maybe it's because I talked more freely to people during badminton whereas I was pin-drop silence the last time.When I was in secondary one,I was shy and since I'm still new to the team,I didn't dare to utter a word since I didn't know anyone.During secondary two,I was too gutted to say anything.There was a particular incident in which changed the course of my life's history.I still am gutted about it until today but I choose not too write it down now because if I do,I will be history.And I will screw everything now that I'm starting to enjoy life to the fullest.It marked off as the turning point of my badminton career,I felt a pain I've never felt in my life and I am truly gutted.I think I've told the story to a few people since noone really knows me well.
Secondary three was when the momentum picks up and I decided not to be foolish about what happened which might hurt my chances of playing in the school team.I became vice-captain later that year,a post which I didn't expect because I never wanted to be the vice-captain.But I assumed the role nonetheless because I didn't have a choice and now that I've reached the utmost seniority period of my 16 years of life,it's time to pass down what I have to the people who are going to lead a new breed of young bloods to follow in our footsteps or perhaps surpassing us by a mile if they take these seriously.
"Over the years, I think he changed a lot.He is finally revealing his true self huh, boy.Haha.Juniors came running and telling me how much he changed.So true lah." -Grace.
I choose to think that some parts of it is true,I am actually pretty much the same person I was three years ago.Just that I've seen more light than others did three years later on and I would probably have said the same thing to anyone three years ago.The only difference will be the response I would have gotten from them.I know how to take full control my life unlike some who chose to be controlled by the people they regarded as friends.
I tend to keep myself under wraps because I don't want to be called a showboater but I tend to stay undercover for too long that people think I'm non-existant and at times very cold.I always seem to be in deep thoughts because I am always trying to think 10 steps ahead of anyone but sometimes the answer is right in front of me,just that I was thinking too hard and thus I blocked out those around me.Nowadays,I try to be at most 3 steps ahead because I know that if I were further than that,people will still treat me the same way I was.One day,I'm going to pen down my detailed lifespan as a badminton player in Bedok North Secondary.And hopefully,those who read it will understand what I am going through and respect my decisions on certain measures and actions which I took.
I guess I am just camouflaging from my true-self because now that I've peaked,I don't want to let my knowledge go down the drain just like that.It would be such a waste and although it might seem that my experience will mean nothing to some,I think it will be a good idea for these new blood to fulfill their optimum potential.I have high hopes for some and I hope these people won't let me down.
One final footnote before I'm off,I hope you're reading this and you liked the valentine's gift I gave although it's nothing much.Like everyone would say it's the thoughts that count and hopefully you will change your view about me.It's hard to know the fact that I've tried doing everything for you but all you gave was nothing more than a cold shoulder.I think I've not made things obvious for you but the signs are showing right in front of you,just that you either chose to ignore it or you couldn't see it.It's hard enough for me and please don't make it worse,I know I might not be the one for you now but give me a chance and let me prove you wrong on your narrow perspective.I can't change the way I feel about you.Not now,not ever...
Oh...
On and on and on and on and on
On and on and on and on and on
On and on and on and on and on
I am lost in the see-thru
I think you lost yourself too
Throughout all of this confusion
I hope I somehow get to you
I practiced all the things I'd say
To tell you how I feel
And when I finally get my chance
It all seems so surreal
Cause from the first time I saw you
I only thought about you
I didn't know you
I wanted to hold on to
The things you'd never say to me
Cause you said
You can't change the way you feel
(I could never do that, I could never do that)
But you can't tell me this ain't real
Cause this is real
(And you would see right through that)
In the end it's all I've got
(So I would hold onto that)
So I'm gonna hold
On and on and on and on
On and on and on and on and on and on and on
And now you've got me watching your eyes
(Watching just to see, watching just to see)
You've got me waiting just to see
(If you'll ever look at me)
If it goes away it never will
(Will it ever go? Will it ever go my way?)
Your eyes are watching me
Oh
And now you've got me thinking 'bout
The first time that I met you
Standing in a crowded room
But I could only see you
And I hope my words will get through
Cause now I can't forget you
I wanna tell you
If only I could reach you
And make you feel this way
Cause you said
You can't change the way you feel
(I could never do that, I could never do that)
But you can't tell me this ain't real
Cause this is real
(And you would see right through that)
In the end it's all I've got
(So I would hold onto that)
So I'm gonna hold
On and on and on and on and on and on and on and on
On and on and on and on and on and on and on
Ohhh
On and on and on
Ohhh
On and on and on and on...
Change by Good Charlotte.
This is one of my favorite songs of all time because it really shows and penned down what I honestly feel just that it's in words.
Friday, February 16, 2007
Disenchanted...
Valentine's Day was great because this is to me the year in which I got real gifts.Whatever I got for the past few years were nothing compared to this year.I am a lucky soul.Eugene got third for the Valentine's Day songwriting competition and I didn't get to win.Well,I was a little disappointed but I take this as a learning journey since my music lifespan has still been pretty short.I lack the experience and the feel of really feeling these things called love.Can't be helped since,my love life has never been bright.Anyway thanks to those who gave me Valentine gifts.
I am lost in the dark but when one light starts shining to steer me away from this darkness,another light up to distract me,making me confused and all tangled up.Should I just follow the light or should I forget the pursuit halfway through before I got lost further in?I hope I'm doing the right thing but right now,I'm going to let fate guide me along as I continue this adventure to God-knows-where.I don't want to end up hurt but you've got me disenchanted,I hope I meant something to you...
Well I was there on the day
They sold the cause for the queen
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen
I hate the ending myself
But it started with an alright scene
It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "You won't feel a thing"
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting
Yeah yeah, oh
If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to ya
I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree
So I could watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv
Bring out the old guillotine
We'll show 'em what we all mean
Yeah yeah, oh
If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter long after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to ya
So go, go away, just go, run away
But where did you run to?
And where did you hide?
Go find another way
Price you pay
Woah...Woah...Woah...Woah, Woah, Woah...
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to ya (come on)
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to ya
At all
At all
At all
At all...
Disenchanted by My Chemical Romance.
I am lost in the dark but when one light starts shining to steer me away from this darkness,another light up to distract me,making me confused and all tangled up.Should I just follow the light or should I forget the pursuit halfway through before I got lost further in?I hope I'm doing the right thing but right now,I'm going to let fate guide me along as I continue this adventure to God-knows-where.I don't want to end up hurt but you've got me disenchanted,I hope I meant something to you...
Well I was there on the day
They sold the cause for the queen
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen
I hate the ending myself
But it started with an alright scene
It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "You won't feel a thing"
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting
Yeah yeah, oh
If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to ya
I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree
So I could watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv
Bring out the old guillotine
We'll show 'em what we all mean
Yeah yeah, oh
If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter long after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to ya
So go, go away, just go, run away
But where did you run to?
And where did you hide?
Go find another way
Price you pay
Woah...Woah...Woah...Woah, Woah, Woah...
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to ya (come on)
You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to ya
At all
At all
At all
At all...
Disenchanted by My Chemical Romance.
Monday, February 12, 2007
February Song...
The picture of the year award.
Yes you guessed it,it's a PSP and it's black.And I'm the proud owner of it.This morning was pretty much like any other normal morning,the difference was that Ryan approached me with a box wrapped with newspaper after newspaper after even more newspaper.He told me to open it because it's my birthday present.So I eagerly tore open nnewspaper after newspaper after even more newspaper and it kind of reached boiling point since there's so many wrapped around it.And when I finally broke open it,it was a tissue box.
I was speechless because I got punked.Anyway,Ryan took out my real present from his plastic bag and 'TA-DA' it's a PSP.I was stunned,he showed me my baby.Anyway,it's not him alone who contributed although a large chunk of it was from him.
So I would like to take those who helped raise money for my charity and it should be an honour for you guys to be mentioned here.Right...
Thanks to : Ryan, Lovell, Eugene, YongSiang, Loretta, Zhuan Liang, June, Ian Lim, Annie, Tracy, LiangZi, Gina, Clement, Sheila, Natalie, Sharon, Astria and Andrina.Thank you so much you guys,I love y'all and God bless you guys!!!
I'm still grinning and I can't believe it myself but I got to,now all that's left is to get my game and the accessories.Pro Evolution Soccer 2007 here I come.Everything's going to plan,I hope to win your heart in two days time,I hope you'll give me a chance.February is the best month ever...
Where has that old friend gone
Lost in a February song
Tell him it won't be long
Til he opens his eyes
Opens his eyes
Where is that simple day
Before colors broke into shades
And how did I ever fade
Into this life
Into this life
And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
When all that I've known is lost and found
I promise you I, I'll come back to you one day
Morning is waking up
And sometimes it's more than just enough
When all that you need to love
Is in front of your eyes
It's in front of your eyes
And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
Sometimes it's hard to find the ground
Cause I keep on falling as I try to get away
From this crazy world
And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
When all that I've known is lost and found
I promise you I, I'll come back to you one day
Where has that old friend gone
Lost in a February song
Tell him it won't be long
Til he opens his eyes
Opens his eyes...
February Song by Josh Groban.
Saturday, February 10, 2007
I Don't Love You...
It was one of the easiest decision I ever made considering it was such a difficult topic to deal with.Although it took me this long,I realised how silly I've been in dealing with this ordeal which should have been dealt with earlier.It couldn't have been a better time since Valentine's Day is round the corner and thus I can really confirm my status as single but taken.I don't feel like getting attched at the moment for some reason.I just don't have the mood.Weird how I can actually feel this way when I've never felt like this before.
You are a great person and I don't regret ever liking you but I've moved on since you never really bothered about me.It's no use chasing you around and making myself look like a fool.It was hard getting over you in the beginning but now that I realised how shallow I was,I decided to call it a day and so goodbye to you.I will still keep in contact with lest we ever had the chance to cross paths again though it's unlikely.Thanks for everything.
I can finally scream my lungs out.I don't love you,like I did,yesterday...
Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way
And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay
And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whoa
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
Well come on, come on
When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"
I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday
I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday...
I Don't Love You by My Chemical Romance.
You are a great person and I don't regret ever liking you but I've moved on since you never really bothered about me.It's no use chasing you around and making myself look like a fool.It was hard getting over you in the beginning but now that I realised how shallow I was,I decided to call it a day and so goodbye to you.I will still keep in contact with lest we ever had the chance to cross paths again though it's unlikely.Thanks for everything.
I can finally scream my lungs out.I don't love you,like I did,yesterday...
Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way
And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay
And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whoa
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
Well come on, come on
When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"
I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday
I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday...
I Don't Love You by My Chemical Romance.
Friday, February 09, 2007
Dear Valentine...
As you can see,I upgraded my blogger to the beta one because they sort of forced me to.I actually planned to keep with the old blogger since I can't be bothered about the new one so when I had to make a switchover I was pretty sad although there ain't no changes other than the fact that I lost my time machine at the bottom of my old blogger.Had to watch the O level outcome for the classes which graduated last year,I feel kind of stupid because all we did was watch from the sidelines and they made it compulsory.
Not everyone was there because they were not 'properly attired' which means that they came in with coloured and tinted hair and thus can't get their certificate.The school standard dropped and I really got nothing much to say about this since I'm thinking we the graduating classes will get a hell load of work to payback this year's performance.And with the new principal and all,it's going to get ugly.
Bought Switchfoot's Oh!Gravity.It's pretty awesome to hear that their album didn't disappoint me.It's just a different kind of music genre unlike their previous works and this one to me is closer to my kind of genre.Some head-banging but they sticked to a couple of less aggressive and more meaningful songs which make jump for joy because I didn't waste my money.I think I'm to check out their other songs from their previous albums,I hope it's just as good.And I borrowed Absolution by Muse from Yong Siang,so thanks TYS.
I handed in my Valentine's song for the contest and I'm hoping I could win something.As far as I know,there are more people participating in this as individuals while I chose to be different and I said I participated in the group although I wrote the song myself.I'm guessing that I will stand a better chance in the group since there are too many people sending in as individuals,I know I'm taking a risk but at least it's a calculated one.
I've been thinking a lot lately,about every single thing this world would die to ask for.And I've found no definite answer either since there are simply too many of them.Some of these are as pointless as asking myself whether the chicken or the egg comes first since the question's forst ever existence and it is still hotly debated.To me the egg comes first but let's not create a major online war here when everyone starts telling me how the chicken come first.
Anyway,this week has been alright.My tests results were great except probably P.O.A,Chemistry and Biology.I've never been good with my sciences so it's kind of expected whereas I spent most of my Accounts period writing the Valentine song and thus,I didn't pay attention to the teacher.Did well for Maths and you can't imagine the feeling I got when Mrs Wong said I am a potential A student.I was definitely flattered.But I got to keep this up and next year,it'll be my turn to patiently queue up for my certificate.
I want to get Xbox 360 because I want to start playing Guitar Hero 2.Somebody out there who's financially loaded just get me one of these alright?I want it,I mean I need it badly.There's going to be a lot of solid games released this year for Xbox 360.
Anyway,back to the Valentine's Day topic in which I send a song.I think I'm going to post it up since it's no use leaving it in my handbook for it to rot.It's time to reveal it all since it's better to tell them than wait for the day I regret not saying it.Simply because we might be gone tomorrow and I don't want to live my life with regrets.Maybe I should try opening up a bit more,I've loosen a bit more to my juniors in badminton and look where it has gotten me.People start to see the real me and not the cold guy they normally see during training.Maybe it's because I realise that being the oldest group and since I got no more chance to represent the school,I will try to pass down my knowldge in badminton rather than letting it all sink with me into the bottom of the ocean.Who knows what these minor things can do to their lives?
I really hope to win something and if I do,I will be real proud of myself and I can finally proof to my whole family that I'm different from them.That I got what it takes since they always thought I take up guitar just for the fun of it but now I've proved them wrong already by writing my own songs plus making my own tunes.It took me a week or so just to complete the lyrics to make sure it really fits and captures the emotion I feel.I want this song to be true to what I'm feeling and the chords came in only two days before the deadline which is today.I stayed up late on Wednesday just to do the chords and it took me forever because like I said,I haven't mastered chords yet.However I managed to complete the chords on Wednesday and I tried experimenting my strumming patterns on Thursday which ended up badly since I was in quite a bad mood that night.
I even asked for advice from Dharma from West Grand Boulevard and he said my song is not too long and not too short which is good.But it depends on the way I play it since I can only communicate with him through MSN Messenger and he said the rhythm is there so it ups the cute factor.I'm taking it as a positive comment.However,I still think this song lacked depth but I had no other options since the time is kind of short and so I've got to rush things a little.Besides,I'm trying to make this a fun song with as much Valentine's elements as possible.Dharma told me that Flight Of Fancy took 10 minutes to create,That's sick because I find Flight Of Fancy their best ever song and Brian(WGB original singer) took over back WGB's vocals since Daphne left not too long ago.
So here's the song which I sent,here goes nothing.
Dear Valentine
I'm taking my time
As you crossed my mind
Love is so blind
Do I have a chance
For us to hold hands
And save one last dance
Or let all these ends
I swear that my words are true
When I said that I love you
You make me feel this way
Every night and every day
Say you want it
Just say you need it
This Valentine's Day
The smile on your face
Left me in a daze
I'll never let you go
I want you know
Love's in the air
It's spreading everywhere
Lovers in despair
Has said that they both care
I swear that my words are true
When I said that I love you
You make me feel this way
Every night and every day
Say you want it
Just say you need it
This Valentine's,
I never,believed in
Love at first sight
I never,believed that
Cupid is right
But now I do
Cos I've found you
I'll never let you go...
I swear that my words are true
When I say that I love you
You make me feel this way
Every night and every day
Say you want it
Just say you need it
This Valentine's Day...Yeah
This Valentine's Day...Yeah
We're taking our time
Love is so blind
Dear Valentine...
Dear Valentine by none other than me.The Edmosphere copyright law applies.
Not everyone was there because they were not 'properly attired' which means that they came in with coloured and tinted hair and thus can't get their certificate.The school standard dropped and I really got nothing much to say about this since I'm thinking we the graduating classes will get a hell load of work to payback this year's performance.And with the new principal and all,it's going to get ugly.
Bought Switchfoot's Oh!Gravity.It's pretty awesome to hear that their album didn't disappoint me.It's just a different kind of music genre unlike their previous works and this one to me is closer to my kind of genre.Some head-banging but they sticked to a couple of less aggressive and more meaningful songs which make jump for joy because I didn't waste my money.I think I'm to check out their other songs from their previous albums,I hope it's just as good.And I borrowed Absolution by Muse from Yong Siang,so thanks TYS.
I handed in my Valentine's song for the contest and I'm hoping I could win something.As far as I know,there are more people participating in this as individuals while I chose to be different and I said I participated in the group although I wrote the song myself.I'm guessing that I will stand a better chance in the group since there are too many people sending in as individuals,I know I'm taking a risk but at least it's a calculated one.
I've been thinking a lot lately,about every single thing this world would die to ask for.And I've found no definite answer either since there are simply too many of them.Some of these are as pointless as asking myself whether the chicken or the egg comes first since the question's forst ever existence and it is still hotly debated.To me the egg comes first but let's not create a major online war here when everyone starts telling me how the chicken come first.
Anyway,this week has been alright.My tests results were great except probably P.O.A,Chemistry and Biology.I've never been good with my sciences so it's kind of expected whereas I spent most of my Accounts period writing the Valentine song and thus,I didn't pay attention to the teacher.Did well for Maths and you can't imagine the feeling I got when Mrs Wong said I am a potential A student.I was definitely flattered.But I got to keep this up and next year,it'll be my turn to patiently queue up for my certificate.
I want to get Xbox 360 because I want to start playing Guitar Hero 2.Somebody out there who's financially loaded just get me one of these alright?I want it,I mean I need it badly.There's going to be a lot of solid games released this year for Xbox 360.
Anyway,back to the Valentine's Day topic in which I send a song.I think I'm going to post it up since it's no use leaving it in my handbook for it to rot.It's time to reveal it all since it's better to tell them than wait for the day I regret not saying it.Simply because we might be gone tomorrow and I don't want to live my life with regrets.Maybe I should try opening up a bit more,I've loosen a bit more to my juniors in badminton and look where it has gotten me.People start to see the real me and not the cold guy they normally see during training.Maybe it's because I realise that being the oldest group and since I got no more chance to represent the school,I will try to pass down my knowldge in badminton rather than letting it all sink with me into the bottom of the ocean.Who knows what these minor things can do to their lives?
I really hope to win something and if I do,I will be real proud of myself and I can finally proof to my whole family that I'm different from them.That I got what it takes since they always thought I take up guitar just for the fun of it but now I've proved them wrong already by writing my own songs plus making my own tunes.It took me a week or so just to complete the lyrics to make sure it really fits and captures the emotion I feel.I want this song to be true to what I'm feeling and the chords came in only two days before the deadline which is today.I stayed up late on Wednesday just to do the chords and it took me forever because like I said,I haven't mastered chords yet.However I managed to complete the chords on Wednesday and I tried experimenting my strumming patterns on Thursday which ended up badly since I was in quite a bad mood that night.
I even asked for advice from Dharma from West Grand Boulevard and he said my song is not too long and not too short which is good.But it depends on the way I play it since I can only communicate with him through MSN Messenger and he said the rhythm is there so it ups the cute factor.I'm taking it as a positive comment.However,I still think this song lacked depth but I had no other options since the time is kind of short and so I've got to rush things a little.Besides,I'm trying to make this a fun song with as much Valentine's elements as possible.Dharma told me that Flight Of Fancy took 10 minutes to create,That's sick because I find Flight Of Fancy their best ever song and Brian(WGB original singer) took over back WGB's vocals since Daphne left not too long ago.
So here's the song which I sent,here goes nothing.
Dear Valentine
I'm taking my time
As you crossed my mind
Love is so blind
Do I have a chance
For us to hold hands
And save one last dance
Or let all these ends
I swear that my words are true
When I said that I love you
You make me feel this way
Every night and every day
Say you want it
Just say you need it
This Valentine's Day
The smile on your face
Left me in a daze
I'll never let you go
I want you know
Love's in the air
It's spreading everywhere
Lovers in despair
Has said that they both care
I swear that my words are true
When I said that I love you
You make me feel this way
Every night and every day
Say you want it
Just say you need it
This Valentine's,
I never,believed in
Love at first sight
I never,believed that
Cupid is right
But now I do
Cos I've found you
I'll never let you go...
I swear that my words are true
When I say that I love you
You make me feel this way
Every night and every day
Say you want it
Just say you need it
This Valentine's Day...Yeah
This Valentine's Day...Yeah
We're taking our time
Love is so blind
Dear Valentine...
Dear Valentine by none other than me.The Edmosphere copyright law applies.
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
The River...
Today's the big day.I can watch a new range of movies and yes,I'm legalised.Today was great because I received more than 30 over messages and I replied all of them personally(no forwarded message),countless others wishing me a happy birthday in school and I received a couple of gifts.
The coolest gift so far is from Good Charlotte.Well,not directly but it's so coincidental that today is also the worldwide premiere of their latest single from their upcoming album Good Morning Revival in stores March.The River by GC featuring Avenged Sevenfold is classy.So thanks GC.Those who is really curious to find out what the hell got me so glad please visit http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q6YL_GZoGMg
I'm smelling something big from Ryan,Lovell,Eugene and the rest.Let me guess,a Billy Martin PRS?An Xbox 360?Or a Playstation 3?In my dreams.I won't even live to touch a Playstation 3.But oh well,I stand neutral in the video game console wars between Sony,Microsoft and Nintendo.I'm really hoping it's something bloody awesome that will make me drop my jaw.
Thanks to: My mom,my dad and my bro.Farah, Shuyi, Cassandra, Huixian, June, Shirley, Jannah, Aisah, Valerie, Hanis, Xueni, Edner, Aida, Annie, Joanne, LiangZi, Sophia, Vanessa, Trudy, Natalie, Sheila ,Shane, Jerome, Leslie, Jeremy, Eezzat, Yong Siang, James, Andrina, Eugene, Ryan, and Lovell.The badminton people present today during training.4C and Ball De Play FC.Those I didn't mention please tell me so I can add you guys to the must thank list.
As I walk through the valley
Of the shadow of LA
The footsteps that were next to me
Have gone their separate ways
I've seen enough now
To know that beautiful things
Don't always stay that way
I've done enough now
To know this beautiful place
Isn't everything they say
I heard that evil comes disguised
Like the city of angels
I'm walking towards the light
Baptized in the river
I've seen a vision of my life
And I wanna be delivered
In the city was a sinner
I've done a lot of things wrong
But I swear I'm a believer
Like the prodigal son
I was out on my own
Now I'm trying to find my way back home
Baptized in the river
I'm delivered
I'm delivered
You're from a small town
You're gonna grow up fast
Underneath these lights
Down in Hollywood
On the boulevard
The dead comes back to life
To the praying Mother
And the worried Father
Let your children go
If they come back
They'll come home stronger
And if they don't you'll know
They say that evil comes disguised
Like the city of angels
I'm walking towards the light
Baptized in the river
I've seen a vision of my life
And I wanna be delivered
In the city was a sinner
I've done a lot of things wrong
But I swear I'm a believer
Like the prodigal son
I was out on my own
Now I'm trying to find my way back home
Baptized in the river
I'm delivered
I'm delivered
Baptized in the river (on my own)
Baptized in the river (on my own)
I wanna be delivered
(On my own)
(On my own)
Baptized in the river (on my own)
I wanna be delivered
Baptized in the river (on my own)
I wanna be delivered
Baptized in the river (on my own)
I wanna be delivered
I confess I'm a sinner
I've seen a vision of my life
And I wanna be delivered...
The River by Good Charlotte.
The coolest gift so far is from Good Charlotte.Well,not directly but it's so coincidental that today is also the worldwide premiere of their latest single from their upcoming album Good Morning Revival in stores March.The River by GC featuring Avenged Sevenfold is classy.So thanks GC.Those who is really curious to find out what the hell got me so glad please visit http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q6YL_GZoGMg
I'm smelling something big from Ryan,Lovell,Eugene and the rest.Let me guess,a Billy Martin PRS?An Xbox 360?Or a Playstation 3?In my dreams.I won't even live to touch a Playstation 3.But oh well,I stand neutral in the video game console wars between Sony,Microsoft and Nintendo.I'm really hoping it's something bloody awesome that will make me drop my jaw.
Thanks to: My mom,my dad and my bro.Farah, Shuyi, Cassandra, Huixian, June, Shirley, Jannah, Aisah, Valerie, Hanis, Xueni, Edner, Aida, Annie, Joanne, LiangZi, Sophia, Vanessa, Trudy, Natalie, Sheila ,Shane, Jerome, Leslie, Jeremy, Eezzat, Yong Siang, James, Andrina, Eugene, Ryan, and Lovell.The badminton people present today during training.4C and Ball De Play FC.Those I didn't mention please tell me so I can add you guys to the must thank list.
As I walk through the valley
Of the shadow of LA
The footsteps that were next to me
Have gone their separate ways
I've seen enough now
To know that beautiful things
Don't always stay that way
I've done enough now
To know this beautiful place
Isn't everything they say
I heard that evil comes disguised
Like the city of angels
I'm walking towards the light
Baptized in the river
I've seen a vision of my life
And I wanna be delivered
In the city was a sinner
I've done a lot of things wrong
But I swear I'm a believer
Like the prodigal son
I was out on my own
Now I'm trying to find my way back home
Baptized in the river
I'm delivered
I'm delivered
You're from a small town
You're gonna grow up fast
Underneath these lights
Down in Hollywood
On the boulevard
The dead comes back to life
To the praying Mother
And the worried Father
Let your children go
If they come back
They'll come home stronger
And if they don't you'll know
They say that evil comes disguised
Like the city of angels
I'm walking towards the light
Baptized in the river
I've seen a vision of my life
And I wanna be delivered
In the city was a sinner
I've done a lot of things wrong
But I swear I'm a believer
Like the prodigal son
I was out on my own
Now I'm trying to find my way back home
Baptized in the river
I'm delivered
I'm delivered
Baptized in the river (on my own)
Baptized in the river (on my own)
I wanna be delivered
(On my own)
(On my own)
Baptized in the river (on my own)
I wanna be delivered
Baptized in the river (on my own)
I wanna be delivered
Baptized in the river (on my own)
I wanna be delivered
I confess I'm a sinner
I've seen a vision of my life
And I wanna be delivered...
The River by Good Charlotte.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
The Birthday Song...
Alright,my time is running out so I'm going to make this short I think.Time check,it's 22:25 which means that I have 1 hour and 35 minutes left before my deathday.Anyway,I heard The River by Good Charlotte and I'm proud to say that it's in my must have list.
I have to say that writing a song for Valentine's Day ain't easy.I'm taking part in the contest and yes,I've been trying to write the lyrics for one week and I'm almost complete.It's still not perfectly done yet,I'm going to ask for comments from Dharma tomorrow and try to see if he could get the gyst of my song.Besides,I really need his advice to improve myself and of course learn a lot of things from him since he's pretty successful to me.I'm trying to make my song sound a lot more mature but at the same time simple and meaningful.
I'm trying to be a decent songwriter though I'm not a very good singer so yeah,touch a little of everything.When the O level is over,I'm going to take up intesive music lessons as in really intensive back to back ones.And yes,it's going to be some kind of 'holiday' since I want to work too.Just expose myself more about the real world.
Time is 22:49 and I really got to go since I'm going to strum my guitar and act all emo playing happy birthday to myself.Oh well,and yes I think I'm going to celebrate it with vodkas.Ask my friends bring to school tomorrow then right before badminton drink together.Going to celebrate again on Thursday by lunching with my friends,Lovell,Ryan,Eugene and gang.We're going to have the time of our year.
22:51,it's really fast how time flies eh?And I'm celebrating it with 3 other people,well not exactly celebrate together but we share the same brithdya.Valerie,Xinghao and my cousin in Indonesia.Super coincidence.
it's 23:01.
Don't worry about that extra line
That's creeping up upon your face
It's just a part of nature's way to say you've grown a little more
Trees have rings and thicker branches
Kids shoes get a little tighter
Every year we're getting closer to who we're gonna be
It's time to celebrate the story of how you've come to be
Happy Birthday, my friend
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've had
You're such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true
So light a candle on your cake
For every smile you've helped create
For every heart and every soul you've helped to grow
A little more
A few more pounds, a little more grey
Don't count the years, just count the way
It takes a little time to go from water into wine
Don't ever lose the wonder of that child within your eyes
Happy Birthday, my friend
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've had
You're such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true...
The Birthday Song by Corrinne May.
I have to say that writing a song for Valentine's Day ain't easy.I'm taking part in the contest and yes,I've been trying to write the lyrics for one week and I'm almost complete.It's still not perfectly done yet,I'm going to ask for comments from Dharma tomorrow and try to see if he could get the gyst of my song.Besides,I really need his advice to improve myself and of course learn a lot of things from him since he's pretty successful to me.I'm trying to make my song sound a lot more mature but at the same time simple and meaningful.
I'm trying to be a decent songwriter though I'm not a very good singer so yeah,touch a little of everything.When the O level is over,I'm going to take up intesive music lessons as in really intensive back to back ones.And yes,it's going to be some kind of 'holiday' since I want to work too.Just expose myself more about the real world.
Time is 22:49 and I really got to go since I'm going to strum my guitar and act all emo playing happy birthday to myself.Oh well,and yes I think I'm going to celebrate it with vodkas.Ask my friends bring to school tomorrow then right before badminton drink together.Going to celebrate again on Thursday by lunching with my friends,Lovell,Ryan,Eugene and gang.We're going to have the time of our year.
22:51,it's really fast how time flies eh?And I'm celebrating it with 3 other people,well not exactly celebrate together but we share the same brithdya.Valerie,Xinghao and my cousin in Indonesia.Super coincidence.
it's 23:01.
Don't worry about that extra line
That's creeping up upon your face
It's just a part of nature's way to say you've grown a little more
Trees have rings and thicker branches
Kids shoes get a little tighter
Every year we're getting closer to who we're gonna be
It's time to celebrate the story of how you've come to be
Happy Birthday, my friend
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've had
You're such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true
So light a candle on your cake
For every smile you've helped create
For every heart and every soul you've helped to grow
A little more
A few more pounds, a little more grey
Don't count the years, just count the way
It takes a little time to go from water into wine
Don't ever lose the wonder of that child within your eyes
Happy Birthday, my friend
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've had
You're such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true...
The Birthday Song by Corrinne May.
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Walking On Water...
This week was the most tiring of the lot,tournament on alternate days.Squeeze in the homeworks and extra lessons after school not forgetting test after test.It's back to back madness and I'm too tired to crawl to church for catechism on Saturday.Saturday morning I had badminton training for the girls(I'm not a girl,I'm there to help out) from 730 a.m to 1230 p.m.I don't know how I didn't faint while playing that long.Went back home and slept until 330 p.m and realised I couldn't even stand up to go for class.Then slept again until 7,did my pile of homework until 11 and off to bed again.Woke up today at 1130 a.m.
Anyway,an overview of the tournament was:
Wednesday,24 January 2007
Bedok North Sec Vs St Hilda's Sec
2-3
1st Singles: Zhi Xiong won.
1st Doubles: Me and Kelvin lost.
2nd Singles: Ryan Lost.
2nd Doubles: Zhuan Liang and Leslie lost.
3rd Singles: Ivan won.
Friday,26 January 2007
Bedok North Sec Vs Ngee Ann Sec
0-5
1st Singles: I lost.
1st Doubles: Zhi Xiong and Hanafie lost.
2nd Singles: Ryan lost.
2nd Doubles: Andre and Eugene lost.
3rd Singles: Ivan lost.
Monday,29 January 2007
Bedok North Sec Vs Tanjong Katong Sec
3-2
1st Singles: Ivan won.
1st Doubles: Zhuan Liang and Leslie won.
2nd Singles: Ryan won.
2nd Doubles: Zhi Xiong and Hanafie lost.
3rd Singles: I lost.
Wednesday,31 January 2007
Bedok North Sec Vs Chung Cheng High
2-3
1st Singles: Ivan won.
1st Doubles: Zhi Xiong and Hanafie lost.
2nd Singles: Ryan lost.
2nd Doubles: Andre and Eugene lost.
3rd Singles: I won.
Friday,2 February 2007
Bedok North Sec Vs Coral Sec
2-3
1st Singles: Ivan won.
1st Doubles: Zhi Xiong and Hanafie lost.
2nd Singles: Ryan won.
2nd Doubles: Andre and Eugene lost.
3rd Singles: I lost.
From this tournament,we can conclude that we played alot better than last year whereby we lost more badly than this.We could have qualified but lady luck wasn't smiling upon us and therefore I hang up my racket with a sense of bitterness because I know I could have,should have done better than this.We should have won at least 3 of the games but it was the final few touches which prevented us from winning because like I said,we ran out of luck.But we got to take positives out of this tournament and they are Ivan,Kelvin,Zhi Xiong and Hanafie.This is the few people the coach is trying to build upon.They will be the vital few people for next year's team.I'm guessing Ivan has the potential to overtake both Ryan and I combined,he will prove to be the key player next year.
Anyway,I was glad that Ryan and I will be playing doubles in the Pilot Pen Cup a.k.a The Champions League of Badminton.The winner will get to the national team or so I heard,and of course a Pilot pen courtesy of Pilot.Ivan will be playing singles,may he rest in peace.Although I think he'll win some games.He sure has got the makings.Like I said,this week was tiring as hell.Homework this weekend alone is more than the homework I did last year in a month.P.O.A,one question Trading,P/L and balance sheet,Malay the whole workbook and the worksheet,English composition,Biology notes,Maths Loci and History SBQ.It doesn't sound much but hell it's a lot to me,I nearly died while doing them.
Just heard the news that Singapore won the cup in Thailand soil.I really wanted them to lose so badly.
I need to find a confirmation name soon.In three months or so to be exact and I haven't come up with any nice ones that suits the name.And by the way,I'm going to tell you the secret of the world.Not many people know this but well my full name is Ferdinand Edwin Sugiarto Waliman.Bloody long I know.Ferdinand is my baptist name,Edwin is my name,Sugiarto is my middle name and Waliman is my surname.Many people mistkae Edwin as my baptist name and Sugiarto as my surname.So my confirmation name will be in front of the four name which means ____________ Ferdinand Edwin Suigarto Waliman.So for those people who has any suggestion,please flood my tagboard until I found the right name.
There's three days left until my birthday and I know it's too early but one of my wish this year as I turn 16 is for my family especially in Indonesia to be safe and sound because as the news report indicates that flood has conquered most part of Jakarta,my home.It has gotten so bad that my mom's twin sister's family has moved out of their place and my dad is thinking of moving out too.I personally feel for them because they're my own flesh and blood and I hope they're alright throughout this dark period.Just when I thought that my dad will celebrate my birthday this year in Singapore with me.But it's alright,it's not his fault.And I certainly pray for their safety and well-being.
Right now I'm requesting everyone,no matter what race or religion you are,who are reading this blog to please lend a hand and take a couple of moments off to pray for the victims of flood in Indonesia.I will keep updating you with the situations around my house,the last time I heard from them was that the house is thigh-deep and outside the house is chest level.
Look at you now
Holdin' on by yourself
Baby don't doubt
You're walkin' on water
The light in your eyes
Flows from the inside
The beauty runs out
You're walking on water
You're everything you need
You're anything you want to be
And everything you are
Is here right now
The sun will fall down
The shadows come out
Don't fear the clouds
You're walking on water
You're everything you need
You're anything you want to be
And everything you are
Is here right now
Life is a dream
Whatever you want it to be
Don't let it slip away
When love is here
You can call
Any time at all
Or if you need someone
To cushion your fall
You can lay me down
You're everything you need
You're anything you want to be
And everything you are
Is here right now
Life is a dream
Whatever you want it to be
Don't let it slip away
When love is here
So lay me down...
Walking On Water by Ryan Cabrera.
Anyway,an overview of the tournament was:
Wednesday,24 January 2007
Bedok North Sec Vs St Hilda's Sec
2-3
1st Singles: Zhi Xiong won.
1st Doubles: Me and Kelvin lost.
2nd Singles: Ryan Lost.
2nd Doubles: Zhuan Liang and Leslie lost.
3rd Singles: Ivan won.
Friday,26 January 2007
Bedok North Sec Vs Ngee Ann Sec
0-5
1st Singles: I lost.
1st Doubles: Zhi Xiong and Hanafie lost.
2nd Singles: Ryan lost.
2nd Doubles: Andre and Eugene lost.
3rd Singles: Ivan lost.
Monday,29 January 2007
Bedok North Sec Vs Tanjong Katong Sec
3-2
1st Singles: Ivan won.
1st Doubles: Zhuan Liang and Leslie won.
2nd Singles: Ryan won.
2nd Doubles: Zhi Xiong and Hanafie lost.
3rd Singles: I lost.
Wednesday,31 January 2007
Bedok North Sec Vs Chung Cheng High
2-3
1st Singles: Ivan won.
1st Doubles: Zhi Xiong and Hanafie lost.
2nd Singles: Ryan lost.
2nd Doubles: Andre and Eugene lost.
3rd Singles: I won.
Friday,2 February 2007
Bedok North Sec Vs Coral Sec
2-3
1st Singles: Ivan won.
1st Doubles: Zhi Xiong and Hanafie lost.
2nd Singles: Ryan won.
2nd Doubles: Andre and Eugene lost.
3rd Singles: I lost.
From this tournament,we can conclude that we played alot better than last year whereby we lost more badly than this.We could have qualified but lady luck wasn't smiling upon us and therefore I hang up my racket with a sense of bitterness because I know I could have,should have done better than this.We should have won at least 3 of the games but it was the final few touches which prevented us from winning because like I said,we ran out of luck.But we got to take positives out of this tournament and they are Ivan,Kelvin,Zhi Xiong and Hanafie.This is the few people the coach is trying to build upon.They will be the vital few people for next year's team.I'm guessing Ivan has the potential to overtake both Ryan and I combined,he will prove to be the key player next year.
Anyway,I was glad that Ryan and I will be playing doubles in the Pilot Pen Cup a.k.a The Champions League of Badminton.The winner will get to the national team or so I heard,and of course a Pilot pen courtesy of Pilot.Ivan will be playing singles,may he rest in peace.Although I think he'll win some games.He sure has got the makings.Like I said,this week was tiring as hell.Homework this weekend alone is more than the homework I did last year in a month.P.O.A,one question Trading,P/L and balance sheet,Malay the whole workbook and the worksheet,English composition,Biology notes,Maths Loci and History SBQ.It doesn't sound much but hell it's a lot to me,I nearly died while doing them.
Just heard the news that Singapore won the cup in Thailand soil.I really wanted them to lose so badly.
I need to find a confirmation name soon.In three months or so to be exact and I haven't come up with any nice ones that suits the name.And by the way,I'm going to tell you the secret of the world.Not many people know this but well my full name is Ferdinand Edwin Sugiarto Waliman.Bloody long I know.Ferdinand is my baptist name,Edwin is my name,Sugiarto is my middle name and Waliman is my surname.Many people mistkae Edwin as my baptist name and Sugiarto as my surname.So my confirmation name will be in front of the four name which means
There's three days left until my birthday and I know it's too early but one of my wish this year as I turn 16 is for my family especially in Indonesia to be safe and sound because as the news report indicates that flood has conquered most part of Jakarta,my home.It has gotten so bad that my mom's twin sister's family has moved out of their place and my dad is thinking of moving out too.I personally feel for them because they're my own flesh and blood and I hope they're alright throughout this dark period.Just when I thought that my dad will celebrate my birthday this year in Singapore with me.But it's alright,it's not his fault.And I certainly pray for their safety and well-being.
Right now I'm requesting everyone,no matter what race or religion you are,who are reading this blog to please lend a hand and take a couple of moments off to pray for the victims of flood in Indonesia.I will keep updating you with the situations around my house,the last time I heard from them was that the house is thigh-deep and outside the house is chest level.
Look at you now
Holdin' on by yourself
Baby don't doubt
You're walkin' on water
The light in your eyes
Flows from the inside
The beauty runs out
You're walking on water
You're everything you need
You're anything you want to be
And everything you are
Is here right now
The sun will fall down
The shadows come out
Don't fear the clouds
You're walking on water
You're everything you need
You're anything you want to be
And everything you are
Is here right now
Life is a dream
Whatever you want it to be
Don't let it slip away
When love is here
You can call
Any time at all
Or if you need someone
To cushion your fall
You can lay me down
You're everything you need
You're anything you want to be
And everything you are
Is here right now
Life is a dream
Whatever you want it to be
Don't let it slip away
When love is here
So lay me down...
Walking On Water by Ryan Cabrera.
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