Come Back Down...

I don't know,something tells me I'm only wasting my time.Another part tells me it could be the start of something good.I can't make up my mind,it's killing.I'm full of love and hatred,filled with sadness and emptiness but at the same time contented with life.Should I go on like this or take a step forward to the unknown.Maybe I shouldn't think too much about this but it's stuck.It won't go away as though it is toying around with me.Once I'm trying to forget about it,it just appears right in your face the next moment.It's too much of a coincidence.I hope it's going to be alright.Because I know someday it will,problem is when?You just keep coming back down...

Staring right back in the face
A memory can't be erased
I know, because I tried
Start to feel the emptiness
And everything I'm gonna miss
I know, that I can't hide

All this time is passing by
I think it's time to just move on

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through

Start to breathe and fake a smile
It's all the same after a while
I know, that you are tired
Carrying the ones you lost
A picture frame with all the thoughts
I know, you hold inside

I hope that you can find your way back
To the place where you belong

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through

You're coming back down
You say you feel lost can I help you find it
When you come around
From time to time we all are blinded
You're coming back down
You don't have to tell me what you're feeling
I know what you're going through
I won't be the one that lets go of you

I think it's time to just move on

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through...

Come Back Down by Lifehouse.Thanks Eugene for this song.

Too Close For Comfort...

Well,skipped class today.Whee.Reached the embassy pretty early and left for Orchard after that since it's so near.First up Mt Elizabeth hospital to get the medicine my dad asked for.I think medicines are overpriced and certainly ripping people off their cash.All they do is make us better but not fully well,it's not like as though medicines will make us invincible.It just lengthens our expiry date to a later one.It's just a matter of time.

Went to Wisma Atria(My mom always calls it Astria.By the way Astria is my friend's name) for lunch,Food Republic.Not too bad,not those usual atmosphere eating at that place.Soon after we went to Queensway to get my brother a decent shoe since his is hole-lified.Can't believe he's that bias towards Adidas,he want Adidas shoes because he hasn't have one yet in his entire life.My feet suits Nike,that's what I learnt today.My mom said I was a good boy today because I didn't ask for a single pair of new shoes.I have 5 pairs currently.But I'm eyeing the white/silver Total 90 Shift.Should be able to wear it to school.Heard Rooney's shoes is coming in January,looking forward to it.Hopefully it's going to look even better than Ronaldinho's current one.

Had dinner at Ikea.On the way back from Marine Parade my mom decided we go visit her long lost friend who was our neighbour during our Indonesian days.I know them of course,3 siblings.The oldest is a girl a year below me while the other two are twins a boy and a girl.We sort of talked a lot especially about studies because that's their main concern,when I say they it refers to my mom and their mom.I always hate this topic since I'm an underachiever in this.My bro practially owned this topic but when they started talking about CCA then I started talking.It's one of the topics I'm familiar with.We sort of plan to have an outing one fine day during holidays.

Hurried home because my bro doesn't want to miss his Princess Hours.I can't believe he actually watches drama,he usually isn't bothered by this.Strange.He's become such a fan of Princess Hours something I'm never planning to watch,at least not yet.Guess I'm off to play Ghost Recon,I plan to end it before my bro does because he always seems to end games before me.But I know I'll always beat him in Winning Eleven.An eye for an eye I guess.

Don't label me as a voyeur,I just want to get to know you better.I just think I overstepped the border,a case of too close for comfort.

I never meant the things I said
To make you cry
Can I say I'm sorry

It's hard to forget
And yes I regret
All these mistakes

I don't know why you're leaving me
But I know you must have your reasons
There's tears in your eyes
I watch as you cry
But it's getting late

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
When I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Guess I'll never know

Remember when we scratched our names into the sand
And told me you loved me
But now that I find
That you've changed your mind
I'm lost for words

And everything I feel for you
I wrote down on one piece of paper
The one in your hand
You won't understand
How much it hurts to let you go

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Cos I'll never know

All this time you've been telling me lies
Hidden in bags that are under your eyes
And when I asked you I knew I was right
But if you turn your back on me now

When I need you most
But you chose to let me down,down,down
Won't you think about what you're about to do to me
And back down...

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
I got too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in yeah,yeah,yeah

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
When I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
I guess I'll never know...

Too Close For Comfort by Mcfly.

Rooftops...

Dated 28/10/06

Blogger pissing me off for their problematic craps.

Woken up by my thoughts of playing Ghost Recon.Addictive game but I must admit it's pretty tough especially for people like me who's still new to this.Played a little before my breakfast and tuition.Then I'm off to catechism class where I got back my test results.I think I passed since I see more ticks than crosses which is a positive sign.I counted the ticks and it totalled to 88.Amazing stuff,if it's out of 100 I would have gotten an A1 for the first time this year.

Dinner at Parkway as usual.Watched Manchester United take on Bolton.Ended 4-0.Ronaldo managed to get on the scoresheet despite playing like he has lost his magic.The other three goals were reserved for Rooney who secures his second hat-trick for Manchester.Still celebrating until now.Think I'll spend tomorrow at home and maybe the evening out to do some sport.Don't want to lose my fitness now since the holidays is just beginning.

Will be going to Singapore Indonesian Embassy on Monday which means that I'm going to miss class for the day.How sad,all those lessons to be learnt wasted.Yeah right,I'm glad I get another day off while the rest have to work their brains out.I'm in need of a long break from books.Studying is not in the dictionary at the moment and it might stay for quite a while but I know I'll have to start studying again to prepare myself for next year.Buck up.
Looking at Ryan's blog I'm kind of jealous he has his 11-men 3D FC.My class has only 4 pathetic players,it might be more of some people would have been more friendly.While others are just plain useless in football.Also I think my class has very few boys(counting Helmi as one).Damn it.But I might come up with something if I'm forced to field my class first 11.

I wish I could shower you with gifts.Wish I could make myself be more daring and go up to you and start a conversation.Wish I could just tell you how I really feel.Wish I could just shout out what I want to say to you.Wish I could scream my hearts out,make me feel a little better from the edge of the rooftops.

When our time is up
When our lives are done
Will we say we've had our fun?

Will we make a mark this time?
Will we always say we tried?

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your heart out

All the love I've met
I have no regrets
If it all ends now, I'm set

Will we make a mark this time?
Will we always say we tried?

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
(Wait until the bomb drops)
This is all we got now
(Scream until your heart stops)
Never gonna regret
(Watching every sunset)
We'll listen to your heartbeat
(All the love that we found)

Standing on the rooftops
(Wait until the bomb drops)
This is all we got now
(Scream until your heart stops)
Never gonna regret
(Watching every sunset)
We'll listen to your heartbeat
(All the love that we found)

Scream your heart out
Scream your heart out
Scream your heart out
Scream your

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your...

Rooftops(A Liberation Broadcast) by lostprophet.

She Will Be Loved...

Had another day out,went to Orchard for the passport photo taking since the one in the Indonesian Embassy sort of closed down and moved to Orchard.Luckily we managed to find the place,it's so empty and very those 'ulu-ulu' type.Feels like a dead place,can't believe it's actually part of Orchard because when someone says Orchard the first thing that comes to mind is the crowd crossing roads.Walked around Far East and lunched at the Indonesia restaurant there.

I saw Jasmine Tye on my way out,she is actually shorter than I imagined her to be.Wasn't bothered to disturb her conversation on the phone but I will certainly have bugged if the person is Jonathan Leong,Hady,Paul Twohill or Taufik Batisah.She looked so plastic with all the make-up,I prefer someone who feels great keeping it natural.Maybe just a lttle touch-up her and there.I saw Michelle too,not Michelle Aw but the other Michelle from catechism class.

Went to Plaza Singapura soon after to get my mp3 but out of stock.What the hell,looks like I won't be getting one after all.Such a waste,guess I'll have to stick to my handphone for now.I'm not sure how long this machine will last though since I'm helplessly dpending on it too much.In the end I bought Tom Clancy's Ghost Recon:Advanced Warfighter.I saw it on tv before during their review segment,it looks damn cool.Crisp graphic so I hope the gameplay will be great too.

The homecoming trip has been modified.We are going to Bali again for four days to meet my dad's old friend.They haven't met for 20 years,can you believe that?And I heard that guy is German and a Hungarian wife.Maybe we can talk real football with the recent world cup host country.I wish that guy brought with him a Germany jersey and give it to me or something.If it's signed by Phillip Lahm,Lukas Podolski or Michael Ballack,I'll certainly frame it up on my bedroom wall.

Life's boring without love.That's all I can conclude after having a short talk with my brother while we walked in Orchard.And it's worse when you are sitting next to the person you love but you now you can never have.The feeling is really a mixture of frustration and jealousy all rolled into one.And you can count yourself out when the person you love is way out of your league.Give it up already if you want your loved ones to really enjoy themselves than being unhappily stuck to you.

I rather let the one I love go if it means they can have a better life than struggle with my life.Unless that person is fully prepared to go through hell with me.That's what married couples have to vow for,stay together although without the other.I don't want the person I love to suffer just because of me.It's hurting both parties when one could hold a better life.She will be loved...

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

(I tried so hard to say goodbye)
I don't mind spending everyday(I tried so hard to say goodbye)
Out on your corner in the pouring rain(Tried so hard to say goodbye)
Try so hard to say goodbye...

She Will Be Loved by Maroon 5.

Angel In Disguise...

Had the usual boring dau in school where we had no lessons.We waited for the dialogue session which took forever.Then we had these Thank You for Mrs Yap our principal who is leaving this year,coincidentally this year is my school's 25th anniversary.Half of Tanjong Katong's past history.Anyway,waited for the E Maths re-exam with my mates.We were so bored we almost died.Was so proud Lovell and I helped the cleaner carry the box thing which was bloody heavy,don't know how she could survive carrying such a heavy piece of trash.We didn't even think twice about rejecting her money which she offered for helping her.I'm turning into an angel today.

Then I realised,I'm not going to have friends around in class next year.I have friends but not cliques since Lovell is sadly retained while the rest have their own cliques which I don't plan to explore into.They aren't really good people,more like worse since I'm not counted as the good.Have to mix around with the 3E-ians since Eugene's there.I'm seriously going to miss this class.No more free shows,no more fights in class both verbal and physical,no more bullying some loser and no more slacking.

Tomorrow's a holiday and I have to go renew my passport or something like that with my family so that we can get out of Singapore during holidays.After which we are going to Plaza Singapura to get my second mp3.8gb.My phone won't last against a real mp3 though I really like my phone's music capabilities.It ain't enough to support my endless list of songs.To the extent that my phone actually restarted itself a number of times now,guess it can't really fulfill all my needs after all.Kind of hungry now,well I'm off to grab a bite.But it ain't Javier Mascherano's arm which Jermaine Defoe bit,YUCKS.

Helping someone works both ways,it not only make the one being helped happy.It makes those who helps happy for what they've done.I could be an angel in diguise...

I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
And I stumbled out of bed
And dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
And a note that said 'Somebody Loves You'

But out on the street it starts to pour
and before I get soaking wet
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look at Paradise
You could be next to
An angel in disguise

I met a good friend for lunch
And we had a delicious meal
But I forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and
Bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea

But out on the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich
and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and
I start to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise

Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise

I woke up this morning
Feeling kind of new...

Angel In Disguise by Corinne May.

Right Here Waiting...

Am too tired to blog right now,badminton training is killing me.Well not exactly,more like the soccer game we had before training did me in.Leg's cramping up,don't think I'll be catching Manchester United's game tonight against Crewe.Bought Clay Aiken's A Thousand Different Ways.Damn nice because my mom paid it too.She's a fan.He did covers this time round.Simply breathtaking the way his voice sounds.Miss your presence,I'm right here waiting...

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I will be right here waiting for you
I will be right waiting...

Right Here Waiting by Clay Aiken(originally performed by Richard Marx).

The Way...

His winter has ended.At half past eleven a missed call,it was her.She said she was out without bringing her phone along.For that she is forgiven because she did show that she bothered to return a call.But the conversation was empty.Her voice sounded deeper than usual maybe because the invention of telephone has an effect on the voice.She commented that he sounded different on the phone and he replied with "Actualy,you too."

He was nervous.Though he wasn't shaking,his mind goes blank because he just couldn't think of what to say.Therefore it ended abruptly and he wished he had done it differently since the first impression lasts the longest.But he knows he has shot himself in the foot,there goes his chance.Wasted and almost regretful of it.He should have been more cool,calm,confident but he murmured his way through and keeps on asking her to repeat what she said because he thought he was hearing things.It sucks to know how badly you made yourself out to be whenever you're with someone in your mind at that moment in time.Everything just ends up wrong,no cheesy pick-up lines,no funny lame jokes.Not even a goodnight.

But at least he knows that she's responsible and courageous enough to return a call especially since she's a girl.He wished everything will go smooth sailing now but it's unlikely that it will happen but he will try his hardest to ensure it won't be a rough landing.Shaky but not rough.Hopefully this time,it will work and not fizzle just like that.Help them find the way...

There's something bout the way you look tonight
There's something bout the way that I can't take my eyes off you
There's something bout the way your lips invite
Maybe it's the way that I get nervous when you're around
And I want you to be mine
And if you need a reason why

It's in the way that you move me
And the way that you tease me
The way that I want you tonight
It's in the way that you hold me
And the way that you know me
When I can't find the right words to say
You feel it in the way
You feel it in the way


There's something bout how you stay on my mind
There's something bout the way that I whisper your name when I'm asleep,oh girl
Maybe it's the look you get in your eyes
Oh baby it's the way that makes me feel to see you smile
And the reasons they,may change
But what i'm feeling stays the same

It's in the way that you move me
And the way that you tease me
The way that I want you tonight(tonight)
It's in the way that you hold me
And the way that you know me
When I can't find the right words to say
You feel it in the way
Oh,you feel it in the way

I can't put my fingers on
Just what it is that makes me love you, you baby
So don't ask me to describe
I get all choked up inside
Just thinking bout the way

It's in the way that you move me
And the way that you tease me
The way that I want you tonight(tonight)
It's in the way that you hold me(we hold me)
And the way that you know me(we know me)
When I can't find the right words to say
You feel it in the way

It's in the way that you move me
And the way that you tease me
The way
You feel it in the way

There's something bout the way you look tonight
There's nothing more to say than
I feel it in the way...

The Way by Clay Aiken.

Answer The Phone...

He hates being ignored and getting the cold shoulder,especially from her.Now that he realises he has done some rash things,he has to make sure he take things slow and prevent another landslide of events.Every message sent feels like it's heading towards a dead end and that noone will ever answer him.Ignorance.Maybe it's because he is too used to having people all around him at all times but he knows one day,it's not going to last.He has already grown up from the last time around where everything he does is done without thinking of the consequences fully.He has learnt to do things by himself because he knows it's going to be pain to others if he keeps on being such a freeloader.

Problem now is,to solve the feeling of being ignored.What's so hard to just open a simple message and replying to it?Maybe he's bugging her but at least him know because he's still stupid under this kind of conditions.He isn';t experience because certainly nothing about him stands out from the rest.He believes he belongs to the crowd while she stood at the top of the hill waiting for the perfect one and choosing to neglect the rest whom she found incapable of being the one.Demanding yet if given the thumbs up,it will be a sweet victory.Currently,he still belongs to the Loserville.Maybe it will last forever because he has never gotten any luck in this.Everything about him is just not cool and plain weird at times.His life is boring,his lifestyle is boring and nothing interesting ever appears to make him sort of brighten up.

Those sparks between them has burnt out,it looks like it's over.Noone dares to care anymore,this world is becoming cruel.There are somethings worth living for but it looks like his is about to close another chapter in the book.Just show me you care at least.Just answer the phone,that's all I ask for...

We're on this rollercoaster ride
Hold on, I'll stay here by your side
We head up to the sky then we slide back down
Upside down try to figure out
Not sure if we could work it out
I wanna be alone but you feel like home

Answer the phone, I know that you're home
I wanna get you alone, and do it again, do it again
Answer the phone, I know that you're home
I wanna get you alone, and do it again, do it again

The signals all are flashing red
It doesn't matter what was said
This bed is much too big without me and you
This all seems so ridiculous
Why can't we just get over this
Don't make me say the obvious
Without you

Answer the phone, I know that you're home
I wanna get you alone, and do it again, do it again
Answer the phone, I know that you're home
I wanna get you alone, and do it again, do it again

I practice all my lines to a telephone while you were sleeping
I practice all my lines to a telephone while you were sleeping
I practice all my lines to a telephone while you were sleeping
I remember the way you curled your toes
On the side of the stage at all our shows
And the glow on your face just because of one rose
And when I wake up in the morning and you're wearing my clothes

Answer the phone, I know that you're home
I wanna get you alone, and do it again, do it again
Answer the phone, I know that you're home
I wanna get you alone, and do it again, do it again
Do it again, do it again and do it again, do it again
I wanna do it again, do it again and do it again, do it again...

Answer The Phone by Sugar Ray.

Lifestyle Of The Rich And Famous...

While somebody went to CHIJMES for dinner with her family and watching Manchester United against Liverpool,I'm stuck at home watching it on television with Twisties in the first half and Hershey's cookies 'n cream in the second.I forgot to get Nescafé to top it off.Guess the score,it's a comfortable 2-0 victory for Manchester who were clearly the better side.Scholes' 500th game was rewarded with a booted scrappy goal and a top corner strike by Rio Ferdinand.I bet Nistelrooy can't do that even if he tried a million times.Barcelona lost to Real Madrid much to the disappointment of Eugene.

Had a lady come to our school who played the harp for today's assembly.Bought the harpist's cd since Lovell said he'll get one íf I got one so we switch later on.I got her second cd since Lovell demanded the first one,all of the pieces she play are original composition while the second one is songs we heard before like My Heart Will Go On,What A Wonderful World and If We Hold On Together.

Tomorrow is a holiday but I'm not sure I'll spend the day out since she hasn't replied me.It's going to be another boring day at home,the air's just not fresh enough.While watching The Apprentice last night,I switched the channel to Mtv and continued watching it when The Apprentice is over.It's showing Vh1:All Access(The Wackiest Celebrity Children's Name).

One of the few names that stood out from the rest are Tu Morro,Pirate,Rebel,Racer,Rocket,Audio Science and even Pilot Observer.I'm not joking,if you don't believe check it out yourself do some research.Imagine a conversation "Hi Tu Morro.HAHAHA...Guess what,I'm Yesterday." A teacher marking attendance saying,"Brad?"."Present"."Charlie?"."Present"."Audio Science?"."HAHAHAHA". During meet the parents session,"Your son is an outright Rebel." "I know" replied the parents.It's really crappy to have such bloody-fied names."My name's Pirate...YARR!".There's a girl called Reign Beau (pronounced as rain bow).There's a boy called Jermajesty.Imagine their parent's going "Jermajesty,go clean your room." "I'm Jermajesty,I don't clean my room.Hire a maid or something man,I can't be bothered with these things." "My name is Fifi Trixibelle" said a girl,with non-stop blinking.It makes the girl sound so innocent and pure.Weirdest one is probaly God'iss Love Stone.What is the world coming into?It doesn't even make sense,come on.

These so called babies of celebrities are going to have their life ruined because of their hilariously retarded names.If celebrities think it's cool to have a one of a kind name,please make it sound better.I can't imagine Hollywood anymore.No more Julia Roberts,Brad Pitt and Hayden Christensen.The names are all going to be replaced with actors named Banjo(a boy's name),Rocket,Audio Science and all that.It's pathetic really,because first thing when you think of Audio Science,your mind will focus on a geek with big specs and buck-tooth.Sadly,it's not going to happen.Until I come up with an even wackier name,I ain't stopping to find the true meaning of these sad people's names because they need to look through a dictionary to find a name rather than a baby names book.I'm so glad my name's Edwin and I don't have a psycho parents who think these names are cool.The weird and spastic lifestyle of the rich and famous...

Always see it on t.v.
Or read it in the magazines
Celebrities who want sympathy
All they do is piss and moan
Inside the rolling stone
Talkin' about how hard life can be

I'd like to see them spend a week
Livin' life out on the street
I don't think they would survive
If they could spend a day or two
Walkin' in someone else's shoes
I think they'd stumble and they'd fall
They would fall... (fall)

Lifestyles of the rich and the famous
They're always complainin'
Always complainin'
If money is such a problem
Well they've got mansions
Think we should rob them

Well did you know when you were famous you could kill your wife
And there's no such thing as 25 to life
As long as you've got the cash, to pay for Cochran
And did you know if you were caught and you were smokin' crack
McDonalds wouldn't even wanna take you back
You could always just run for mayor of D.C.

I'd like to see them spend a week
Livin' life out on the street
I don't think they would survive
If they could spend a day or two
Walking in someone else's shoes
I think they'd stumble and they'd fall
They would fall

Lifestyles of the rich and the famous
They're always complainin'
Always complainin'
If money is such a problem
Well they've got mansions
Think we should rob them

(They would fall,They would fall...)

Lifestyles of the rich and the famous
They're always complainin'
Always complainin'
If money is such a problem
They've got so many problems
Think I could solve them

Lifestyles of the rich and famous
We'll take your clothes, cash, cars and homes just stop complainin'

Lifestyles of the rich and famous
Lifestyles of the rich and famous
Lifestyles of the rich and famous...

Lifestyle Of The Rich And Famous by Good Charlotte.

He Wasn't...

Had tuition just now,I know it's weird having tuitions just when all of us are happily celebrating the day holidays start.Had one question on permutation which I'm unable to solve worse still,my teacher and even my brother can't solve it so I'll wait for my teacher to ask around her friends on how to do it.Staring at it for about 20 minutes plus with the help of my teacher.Anyway the plan to Malaysia is confirmed and if I'm not wrong I'll spend the first night in Genting then Subway(something like that) the next night and we'll spend the final two nights in Kuala Lumpur.But I fear the haze in Malaysia will still persist by then and you know how bad the conditions are in Malaysia.

Am so bored that there's school tomorrow and the worst thing is it's so called half-day,the Muslim pupils leave the school at 10 while we non-Malays have to stay until the performance in the hall is over.Which probably starts after recess until 12:30.And it's another holiday on Tuesday,I plan to spend the day out with my friend who happens to celebrate her birthday a few days later.I'm not sure I can go out with her on her birthday so I'm making up for it.But I'm not sure what my plans are just yet.

Friday will be another holiday but I plan to play badminton with my friends since the day's supposed badminton day is gone.Report books won't be issued until 16 November,what the hell?They only gave it halfway through the November holiday while the lower secondaries get theirs on 26 October which is the last day of school.Total rubbish.

I can't believe the fact that Ian Lim might get promoted next year because I wouldn't want to see his irritating face for yet another year especially the crucial year of my life.Looking at his face spoils my mood and he never fails to turn me off with his retarded face and spastic attitude.His rude replies and pathetic attempt to get the girl of his dreams Monsieur Isabel.Stupid hua zhu a.k.a flower pig.He thinks he's Petr Cech but he can't even play like Barthez,dream on and get yourself a life.The way he lip-sync the songs from his handphone and the face showing all kinds of emotions is way disgusting.He thinks he can sing but he's a William Hung wannabe.I even think William Hung's better than him,at least William Hung has guts unlike him.Freaking idiotic loser.

Let's not talk about him,why bother spending another paragraph focusing all the attention on him.I really pity Isabel to have known someone like him.He wasn't really worth the time writing this much.

There's not much going on today
I'm really bored, it's getting late
What happened to my Saturday?
Monday's coming, the day I hate

Sit on the bed alone, staring at the phone
He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought, no
He wouldn't even open up the door
He never made me feel like I was special
He isn't really what I'm looking for

This is when I start to bite my nails
And clean my room when all else fails
I think it's time for me to bail
This point of view is getting stale

Sit on the bed alone, staring at the phone
He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought, no
He wouldn't even open up the door
He never made me feel like I was special
He isn't really what I'm looking for

Na na na na na, we've all got choices
Na na na na, we've all got voices
Na na na na na, stand up make some noise
Na na na na, stand up make some noise

Sit on the bed alone, staring at the phone
He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought, no
He wouldn't even open up the door
He never made me feel like I was special
He isn't really what I'm looking for
He wasn't what I wanted, what I thought, no
He wouldn't even open up the door
He never made me feel like I was special
Like I was special, cuz I was special
Na na na na na...

He Wasn't by Avril Lavigne.

I'll Take You On...

Was reading through the usual blogs I normally see when I go online and when I entered Michelle's one,I found the lyrics of one of the most unforgettable song ever.That was the song we played during Teacher's Day and coincidentally it's also the song Zhonghe tried to play on the piano on Friday during badminton which he failed to.But thumbs up for the courage and the never-say-die attitude.That song which I still have no idea what it was about is none other than Qing Tian.That song brought me plenty of memories because I just quitted the badn recently due to academic and personal reasons.

I remembered the time when we were relaxing during our jamming session and Ryan asked Eugene whether he knows how to play this song.When they played it Lovell was trying to sing along to it while I was just fooling around with the drums.First thing that came to my mind when they played that song was "Holy crap,I got to know the name of this song..." And so it turned out to be Jay Chou's song and I started listening to him from then on.And it has a big impact in my life because that song made me realise how fun it was to perform during concerts.Although the feedbacks weren't all positive it was worth it,the feeling of being on stage being cheered by classmates and proving something else to the teachers that we aren't all losers made me feel the luckiest person in the world.

But it was sad to leave the band because I don't plan to leave just yet but I don't think I can go on that way because my results were terrible and I have to buck up since next year is the big year.The year our future depends on so I have to sacrifice something and it turned out to be the band business.But if we want to have another one hit wonder and play during Teacher's Day this year,it might be an offer I might not resist but we'll have to see.I need to show the grades then I might be given the chance to perform yet again and playing an even more solid song with proper preparations.But I'm not going to make empty promises so it's not confirmed just yet.

Today's quiz wasn't really a killer.I tried doing most myself since I'm seated far away from Joshua so I have no chance to copy.But I got some help from Aaron,Bryan,Brian and Jerry.Peter gave me the answers for two questions so I think I might be able to get a pass.I have to confess that I did cheat for the quiz since I wrote the points in the powerpoint given by Peter in small pieces of paper and slipping them into a page in the bible.I wouldn't have survived that way,even then I think I'll get plenty of stupid mistakes.

My dad has made plans for us as in the whole family to have a trip to Malaysia this holiday from 28 December to 1st January which means I'm going to be in Malaysia celebrating the New Year and it'll be the first time I ever set foot in the country called Malaysia.But on the downside,I'm going to miss a couple more badminton trainings in school.That sucks,I think my chances of playing for school team next year dropped.But I'm going to work my socks off to prove to the teachers and the coach whenever I come for training this holiday to secure my place in the starting team.Also I'm going to make sure that during the period of time when I'm free,I'm going to do some physical or technical training by myself which includes jogging,cycling,playing badminton with friends and my private coach if he has the time and playing soccer to improve my stamina and train my leg muscles.I hate missing training sesions because that is the certainly the one and only time for me to really get rid of all my stress and at the same time win something all by myself.Call me greedy but I enjoy the moments when I achieved something which I did by myself although sometimes I need the team to win.I love playing in a team but at the same time,a personal glory doesn't hurt either right?So watch out for me during every training session because the fire in my eyes is burning hot and I'll take each one of you on.

Make me fall down
Make me get up
And if I'm alright
Make sure I'm scared to death
Maybe I'm useless
If I just could remember
Make me feel nervous
And I'll make you surrender
I'll take you on
Yeah I'll take you on

I'll give it all away
But you don't
But you don't
I'll give it all away
But you don't
Feel much better

You said it yourself
You said I'm not ready
I'm telling myself
But it's not sinking in
Maybe I'm new at this
Or is it just your reaction
Be my illusion and I'll
Be your distraction
I'll take you on
I'll take you on

I'll give it all away
But you don't
But you don't
I'll give it all away
But you don't
Feel much better

Oh,Would I be hurt
It wouldn't hurt to see you again
Do you see what I meant
When I told you before
That I never wanted
To feel like this again,no

I'll give it all away
But you don't
But you don't
I'll give it all away
But you don't
Feel much better

Can we stop all the world now
Sooner or later
I lose all control now
When the rain stops we'll end it
Whoa, now
Nothing to fear here
In my baby's arms
I'll take you on
I'll take you on
I'll take you on
I'll take you on...

I'll Take You On by Howie Day.

Friday Night...

Had history trip to Singapore Discovery Centre on Thursday,started out with a storytelling session with someone who looks like Ms Rahma.Then went on a bus trip through the military officer's school.The tour guide was damn hilarious,played along with our jokes.Made fun of Indonesia and all that.I'm counted as an illegal immigrant.

Headed back to Singapore Discovery Centre where we had a guided tour through the place but me and Lovell heck cared the tour guide and walked around ourselves.We went into the huge sphere thing and played a stupid game and we were joined by plenty more people most of who were from Ball De Play.The best part is probably the part where Lovell got owned by the robot,Little George.

Lovell: What's your name?
Lil George: My name is Little George
Lovell: What?Can you speak English.(he didn't understand what the robot said earlier)
Lil George: I'm speaking English.Don't you understand English?
Lovell: **** you
Lil George: Is that your name?

By then Lovell left already because he was humiliated by a non-living thing.The agony,the shame.Planned to go for mass today for the neighbourhood thing at 8 but as you can see I'm at home right now slacking off.But was pretty shacked by training,had the 1 on 4 training regime.Got ten points in a breeze though I lost my form,Eugene played the piano.Can't really believe he have no experience in piano because he can play a couple of songs.he played the intro of Drops Of Jupiter and taught me that though I still can't do it.He played a little bit of Vanessa Carlton's A Thousand Miles.That's sick,I almost thought it's one of the hardest song.Though he wasn't able to perfect it,he was able to get the keys right.How the hell did he do that,don't ask me I don't know.

Schedule for both holiday training and lessons were given out today.Hate them both.The lessons during holidays is like everyday from 8 to 1,did no justice to the term holiday.Plus training schedule is crazy not because they are 3 hours but the fact that I had to miss half of them because I'm going back to Indonesia.And worse still the coach isn't coming for all the training sessions because Mr Pang said we as in the ranked people in badminton had to come up with the schedule on what to do during training.I mean that's crazy because this is not the time to do this kidn of things.We need the coach to help us,competition is coming and I'm preparing to bring a white flag already.I mean,it's crazy for us to have training without the coach especially when he knows better than us.We are heading for a suicide and this is my last chance to achieve a historic feat in this school.A second round appearance is good enough and it looks like our chances of survival dropped from 0.01 to 0.0001.That's basically a decision made by Mr Pang not me or the coach or Ryan the captain.It certainly doesn't have my support because I think this idea is stupid and crazy.I really can't believe this,I'm resigned to fate that we're going to get thrashed by every school unless we make sure the three singles did great because now most probably everything is pinned on us.

Judging from our history I'm guessing the three singles spot will be taken by Ryan,Ivan and hopefully me.So we have to make sure we won't lose just like that.Doubles will be hard unless we have a ready-made partners who have experience playing together which is unlikely.I want to protest against Mr Pang's wild idea but I can't do anything,I've not much power though I'm the vice-captain.We can only do what the teacher tells us to,not go against them but I still can't stop deniyng how this idea will ever be going to work.It's a crazy idea and a reckless one.

Having quiz tomorrow and I'm hoping I won't get a zero because I didn't take down the notes or even bothered opening a book to study anything that's taught during catechism class.I think I'm going to flunk this quiz just like all the other quizzez in school.I think I'll die just figuring out the first question Name: oh crap what's my name,or is this some kind of trick question?should i write Jesus? I'm so going to get owned by this quiz.I'll make sure I write about them tomorrow night.

Manic Mondays singing you to sleep
You could use some time to breathe
Wake up please
A lonely weekend isn't what you need
You won't feel so guilty cuz you'll love the crime on

Friday night
Baby are you sleeping
Friday night
My heart is still beating
It's all right
Open up your sleepy eyes
Come alive, come alive on Friday night

Wearing night clothes never felt so cold
Wish we were a little older
Restless souls
I can't hold this ladder for too long
Won't you open up your window
Come outside on

Friday night
Baby are you sleeping
Friday night
My heart is still beating
It's all right
Curfew's gonna break my heart
So come and meet me in the dark
Friday night
You're under the covers
Friday night
We could be lovers
It's all right
Open up your sleepy eyes
Come alive, come alive on Friday night

Baby it's no surprise
The price is right
I'm bob barker
Hold on to the prize
Cuz its Friday night, Friday night come alive

Friday night
Baby are you sleeping
Friday night
My heart is still beating
It's all right
Curfew's gonna break my heart
So come and meet me in the dark
Friday night
You're still under the covers
Friday night
We could be lovers
It's all right
Open up your sleepy eyes
Come alive, come alive on Friday night

Yeah
Come alive come alive on Friday night
Oh
Come alive, come alive...

Friday Night by The Click Five.

Home...

Well,well.I'm going back to Indo and I think my mom's booking from 24 November to December 11.Probably about 2 weeks there.The good thing is on 25 Nov I'll be attending a wedding,that's like so cool because I've never been to a wedding before.So sad right.And she said there's going to be another wedding after that,not too sure when though. I finally get to see what a real wedding is like.I'm thinking of wearing something more formal for the night so I'm going to bring my black long-sleeve shirt.But it looks more for funeral,no I'm not cursing the newlyweds after all it's their big day.

Didn't have energy to blog yesterday,had badminton and after owning 2-points singles for about half an hour I'm beat.I practically played with everyone for four round non-stop.But I can't believe I was so focused throughout the period.Usually I got distracted and lose my concentration because something funny happens everytime.I was dead set in getting my place in singles for next year,maybe that's why.Now my body still aches and had so much fun during warm-up session.Instead of the usual physical we had a little game of 'catching' the coach style.I tried faking the catcher and it worked.It's hard to explain it but it's damn fun.

Hopefully I can keep my form so I can play well tomorrow,I hate losing.I'm so going to own everyone but it won't be fun either if we play thse 2-point games though it's fun to stay for so long.I prefer long games,show the person's endurance and quick thinking.Physical and mental strength,I like that.I just finished reading the whole series of Slam Dunk comics and I still enjoy reading them.There are just some things that will never be boring,I still get to laugh although I've read them a million times.I still got inspired but Sakuragi and his antics.Rukawa's cool edge and Ryota's quick decisions amongst their bad attitude and all the trouble they get themselves.Akagi's pillar of strength and Mitsui's pure determination.Not such a waste of money after all buying all 31 comics.What I like is the fact that the comic has the continuation of where the series in TV left out.Shohoku playing in the National Championship.

Anyway,I can't wait to get back home and breathe the not-so-fresh air in Indonesia.That's what makes Indonesia,so Indonesia.You won't be able to get them from Singapore.I'm coming back home...

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Babe I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
'Cause I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
That this is not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home...

Home by Micahel Buble.

The Geeks Get The Girls...

Well my mom is back in Singapore,like finally.I think I'll not survive the week if she isn't here by today.I would probably have died of starvation or too much junk food.My mom's first sentence when she met me today was "Have you lost weight?" Instead of celebrating like normal girls,I replied like a man.Well almost.I said,"Probably the haircut." Got on the weighing machine and there's no change so I'm keeping myself fit.

Tomorrow's going to be a heavy workout since badminton is in my mind right now,I'm dead set to own.At least try to.But before that I'm making sure I'm awake to catch Manchester United against FC Copehagen,I think this will be interesting because I'm guessing the total number of goals to be 5 minimum.I took back my words on Chelsea's goalkeeping problem.After reading about the game in newspaper and finding out that Cech will be out for at least 6 months,that's really a pity.Chelsea will miss his presence although as a Man Utd fan,we're lucky that we might have the trophy due to this it's quite sad to see Chelsea in such a bad shape.Hope Petr Cech have a speedy recovery and undoubtedly re-gain his status as one of the goalkeepers in the world.

Today's plans to rock in PE didn't go to plan because it ws sort of cancelled.Not because of the haze,it's because of the assembly which ate our time.So unfair,plus I don't really think whatever is being said in the assembly is important.There's this really irritating looking boy from sec one who just wants to attract attention by taking part in every assembly session.Whenever they ask for volunteers,this boy will always be the first to stand up.That boy has got guts alright but does he realise he is embarassing himself every second he is on stage?

He looks like a typical geek,more to the nerd side.He looked like the sloppy type who doesn't care about their appearance and certainly isn't a sportsperson by any chance,you can tell.I don't know what's his problem,it's just irritating to see someone pathetically trying to go on stage and let the school laugh on his stiffness.Trust me,I was laughing like crazy while the rest of the people around me are making fun and jokes about him.Suffering from A-SS,not ass but A-SS.Attention-Seeking Syndrome.Well said Mr Chew!

Talking about that boy reminds me of the two couples in our level.All of them are from the same class.These girlfriends are passable but certainly not my cup of tea.Anyway they got attached to these guys who I really think are losers.I'm sorry if you think I've insulted you but that's just my opinion of you two.Their looks are like,thumbs down.I don't know about their studies but certainly does not look like they get the grades.Their attitude is even worse,so I just think that these girls are making bad choices because I can't see what they see in their loved ones,seriously.Love is blind but I think this is plain stupid and kind of ridiculous.I'm sure many will agree with me but I'm not going to criticise them for anything,I'm just saying what caused the world to turn upside-down.You can say I'm jealous but heck,I don't care.Anyway no offence to whoever is feeling the heat right now,I don't want to get into trouble though it seems I'm getting myself into one.Some people just have "stems growing out of their eyes".Another perfect sentence by Mr Chew.

Another Friday night, to get the feeling right
At the bar when he sees her coming over
What you gonna do, if she walks up to you
Tongue tied better get yourself together
Pound another drink, to give him time to think
What's your sign hey I think you know a friend of mine
All the stupid lines, that he had ever heard
Wouldn't come to mind he couldn't say a word

Tonight tonight, he's gonna get it right
Even losers can get lucky sometimes
All the freaks go on a winning streak
In a perfect world, all the geeks get the girls

Got her holding steady, forget her name already
Sweatin' hard not a smooth operator
She's got it going on, dancing to her favorite song
He's got the line is it your place or mine
She turns and walks away, where did he go wrong?
But waiting by the car, she says what took you so long

Tonight tonight, he's gonna get it right
Even losers can get lucky sometimes
All the freaks go on a winning streak
In a perfect world, all the geeks get the girls

The very next day, he guessed she ran away
The one and only in his bed so lonely
But she comes walking in, with coffee and a grin
Crazy as it seems, it wasn't just a dream
And all around the world, people shout it out
The geeks get the girls

Last night he finally got it right
Even losers can get lucky sometimes
All the freaks go on a winning streak
Shout it all around the world cause the geeks get the girls

Last night he finally got it right
Even losers can get lucky sometimes
All the freaks go on a winning streak
Shout it all around the world cause the geeks get the girls

Shout it all around the world cause the geeks get the girls...

The Geeks Get The Girls by American Hi-Fi.

100 Years...

I made it,FC4C.Huge sigh of relief but it ain't over yet.There's still the quiz on saturday so I won't want to scrape through again,I've had enough of this.From now on,I'm going to work my butt off.Well not exactly now,now I'm going to get my mind off these scary experience.Sadly by next year FC4C will be extinct because 10 people were retained from my class alone.Mostly from the boys of course.It's going to be me,Asyraf and Irwan continuing the FC4C tradition so I guess we're going to import two other players to play for us.Next week is probably the last time we play together as FC3C.

Today had duty as usual int he morningand when I entered the class at close to eight I found my class a quarter empty.I almost thought all of them were absent because of sickness or the haze but their bags are there so I asked around.Irwan greeted me with "You FC4C." I was kind of shocked but when I confirmed with my other friends I screamed my lungs out.Clenched my fist like I did when I get a point in badminton or when I scored a goal,trademark move.But yeah,there's nothing much to be proud of because it was a just pass so I'll have to work hard next year since it's THE year.The decider factor of our lives.

It's going to be so different next year especially when you see that there are 32 people left in the class,there's just this empty and oh-so-eerie feeling.I just have this feeling that a few didn't quite deserve going up including myself.Anyway I'm really going to miss those guys,well some at least.Sad to say Lovell got retained,he's the guy I'm closest to in class.Although he might not be a good example all the time,at least he's there for me.And my classmate from lower sec Aisah too.Though we aren't that close we have a certain respect for each other.The unexpected retainees were Zhi Wei and Xinghao.Xinghao is a damn sad case because he failed his overall in A Maths which could have gotten him promoted.He got 49 overall and he didn't get pushed up,I don't know why.

And I'm most probably going back to Indonesia for the holidays.Unless my dad insist I stay for personal reasons including the haze conditions.My mom said she had skin irritation yesterday so I hope she's alright.As a result she didn't get to go out for window shopping or anything of that sort.The haze must have been that bad,I hope it ends soon.We have to go back to school until mid November for lessons,that sucks.Well it's better than not doing anything productive at home right?Having a slight headache now,maybe because of the haze.I walked throught he haze which reached 127 on the PSI.Now feeling the aftermath effect.So much for getting used to this conditions.And to think I almost wanted to play football,I would have been dad by now.This kind of conditions is worse than the ones in Iraq,air quality is really poor.

I can't believe how fast time runs by,it's been year since my Grandpa passed away and I can still picture the scenes like as though it was yesterday.He was lying in coma in the hospital when we reached Indonesia,it was certainly a very sad occasion especially for my mom who was the closest to him.I remembered how he shed a tear when we visit him right after we landed from the airport.His tears did flow while he was in coma,that moment alone touched me.He was waiting for us in a way,there was just a missing eeling for him.He wanted to hear the words from my mom before he departs and he got it.He battled on for the next two days before his struggle came to an end.By that time I had to come back here already because I still have school.I think that was an all-time low for me.Everytime I think of him,I always thought of the words kind soul,willing and a never-say-die attitude like no other.He was beyond comparison.He voluntarily bought our favourite satay which was near his house whenever we stayed over because he knows how much we loved them.Lion-hearted I say.

Shan't make this a sad post since I'm close to tears already.I'm quite an emotional guy so this things do bring me back to earth.I miss him but I know he's in a better place,I hope to see you in my afterlife Grandpa.Until then,I'm going to make an impact in my life just like you did to me.

I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

I'm 22 for a moment
She feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man, but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind

I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy, and time to lose yourself
Within a morning star
15 I'm all right with you
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

Half time goes by
Suddenly you’re wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...

I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

15 there's still time for you
22 I feel her too
33 you’re on your way
Every day's a new day...

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live...

100 Years by Five For Fighting.

This Week The Trend...

Woken up by brother who said he was hungry.It was time for lunch already and we had a hard time deciding where to eat.It ended up with Harbourfront because we want to eat the Taiwanese peppered chicken thing.Took 10 there and I got myself a butt cramp sitting and waiting for 45 minutes plus.Traffic was a killer,especially when we were about to reach.Everyone's going to Vivocity and Sentosa for the weekend.After eating went to Vivocity to check it out.Had quite a time there in such a short time.My brother said he had a headache since he entered Vivocity and it magically disappeared when we went back home.I can't blame him,the place was packed,everyone looked like ants.I like the third storey though,it was like an outdoor environment.One thing it lacked at the third storey is probably Coffee Bean or Starbuck's to hang around at.

The haze spoil the view and although it was close to 100 when we left home,I don't feel a single irritation.I don't know why,maybe because I'm born in Indonesia where everyday conditions are like that.It was big,well not really but it was really wide.Went to Challenger which was small compared to the ones in Funan or Tampines.Almost ended buying Spongebob Squarepants:Battle For Bikini Bottom.It was on promotion so thought I might get it but didn't.Went to the Adidas shop there,the largest I've seen so far in Singapore that is.Found a lot of nice stuff but I can't afford them,just yet.Found this


Lampard+10




















How cool is this.I'm guessing Sophia would be happy now.I can't believe I was tempted to take a picture of Lampard.Worse still,he was wearing a Chelsea shirt.I'm betraying myself.If only they have Ronaldo's picture in Nike shops that would be so cool.Plus advertising the Mercurial Vapor III.Next to it is his famous line "Those I can't outrun,I'll outmanouvre." I didn't catch Chelsea's match yesterday but I heard Cech got injured and Cudicini subbed him.At the final minutes Cudicini got himself injured.Since they have no other Goalkeeper on the bench,the captain John Terry took over the gloves.Hilarious.Next time Manchester United has problems with the two goalkeepers I won't be surprised to see Rooney being goalkeeper just like in the Nike advertisement.

And this week the trend
Was to not wake up till 3pm
I picked the few conscious hours that I chose to spend
And slept away the rest of them

And this week the trend
Was to crash and burn and then return again
To practice the life that I pretend
Provides enough to get me through the weekend

So I say
Give me a solution
And watch me run with it
And then you gave
You gave me a solution
What have I done with it
Cause I was absolutely sure I had it all figured out
way back then
And now it's this minute, this hour, this day

And this week the trend
Was to backstab every single one of my friends
And leave a voicemail message trying to make amends
All the while hoping things work out in the end

And this week the trend
Was to borrow all the strength that you could lend
To keep my head above the water and not descend
Back to where I said I'd never go again

So I say
Give me a solution
And watch me run with it
And then you gave
You gave me a solution
What have I done with it
Cause I was absolutely sure I had it all figured out
Way back then
But after this day it's this week all over again

And I just want to get mugged at knifepoint
To get cut enough to wake me up
Cause I know that I don't want to die
Sitting around watching my life go by
And what we take from this is what we'll get
And we haven't quite figured it out just yet
Because all of us are all too stuck
Strapped to a chair watching our lives blow up
Stuck watching our lives blow up...

This Week The Trend by Relient K.

Flights Of Fancy...

Let's put it this way,I see no point in doing a test after exam.Not exactly a test but more of a quiz for catechism class and today's lesson,or is it counted as a lesson was more of a revision.The catechists sort of summarize the year's workload into a powerpoint slide and I have a funny feeling in my stomach that I'm going to fail this quiz.It's going to be hanged between the F9s of A Maths and Chemistry.I'm just not in the mood to open a book.I couldn't be bothered to take down notes in class just now because was super sleepy and dead beat.I think I slept for about a minute during homily and I can barely keep my eyes open.

Went back just like any other ordinary day with a bowl of instant noodle for dinner while watching Manchester United take on Wigan Athletics.Shocking goal by Wigan in the third minute and they manage to hold it until the half-time break where I ironed my clothes.Can't believe I did a housework.Manchester regained their pride in the second half when they brought Ryan Giggs on for Wes Brown and a corner from him met the head of Nemanja Vidic.1-1 game on.About 4 minutes later,Rooney's cross was beautifully controlled by Saha's athletic-ism before he slotted the ball.It hit the post and into the goal.2-1.92 minutes,Ole Gunnar Solskjaer lobbed a ball over a defender to Rooney who returned the ball with a heel flick-on.On the left foot,Solskjaer scores again.Final score Wigan 1 Manchester United 3.We're still at the top of the table.

Played some Winning Eleven before I'm staring into the computer now.Watching some videos of West Grand Boulevard doing their gigs.Sounds pretty cool to me.Check this on out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OGQha-RARb8 and http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=prtj-8x4ms0,it's called Flights Of Fancy,to me it's their best song.Sorry I can't put the video in my blog,my computer is crazy.Enjoy.


Anyway,I'm off now.

Sit with me
Come and play
I need you
So near
Stay a while
For a day
Maybe two
Have no fear

What I am
It's not all good
It's not all bad
It's okay
Time has come
Wish we could
Get it back
It's too late

And I...
Miss you the most
And I...
Miss you the most

Sing to me
Once again
In your room
Like old days
Speak to me
It depends
On how you do
In all ways

Bring me back
Little smiles
Funny ways
You speak to me
Bring me back
All your wiles
Whimsical Fancy...

And I...
Miss you the most
And I...
Miss you the most

And I...
Miss you the most
And I...
Miss you the most...

Flights Of Fancy by West Grand Boulevard.

Unwell...

I'm still waiting for lunch since my brother has to go to school and I can't be bothered to go out.My stomach is roaring so he better come before I starve to death.So bored now,basically my life is pretty much boring since noone is here ordering me to do stuff.I have until Tuesday until my mom comes back so until then,I'll have to go out for every meal of the day,do the laundry and a little watering plants here and there.Have to go to church and catechism class later but I'll be going home straight to catch Manchester United versus Wigan at 7:40.I'll probably have instant noodles for dinner.

What an interesting life I have eh?Oh yeah,we as in the history students are going to Singapore Discovery Centre on Thursday.Though it's probably not going to be any different from other excursions at least we don't have to Labrador Park for their geography trip.Beat that.We got an air-con room excursion while they have to sweat it out looking at plants.However the Muslim students have to follow us because it's their fasting month and therefore the school decided not to make them tired walking up and down hills under the hot sun.

It's going to be another boring week when it reaches Monday.I'm feeling rather sick and tired of going to school with no real purpose.The effects of over-schooling maybe.And I'm a little homesick,I want to go back Indonesia for holiday.I miss the cheap goods and the big malls which takes a whole day to explore.I miss sitting in the back of a car,a real car and not a taxi.I miss going to visit my so and so relatives.I miss the atmosphere there,though polluted but still it rocks.All the not so fresh air,quality food.I miss my relatives.I miss my cousins.I miss my cousins' dog.I miss the my messed up home filled with lots and lots of things left undiscovered.I miss my father.I miss my Grandmothers.I miss looking at my mom standing beside her twin sister and guessing who is who,but I can tell them apart now.I miss the mosquito bites,I can't believe I missed them.I miss Indonesia.

Well I'm not that patriotic,I don't even remember how to sing Indonesia's national anthem.I miss going to the mall watching weekly movies with my family back in the days.Those were the times,it's not ever going to come back.I'm just homesick.I want to visit my cousin's school with my mom's twin sister and just looking around there.Derby too.The guy who's part-time actor who's around my cousin's age.Such a fun guy to be with.Funnyman.Those candid moments.What a life.

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of meI'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be, me

I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think
There must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell...

Unwell by Matchbox Twenty.

You're Not Alone...

I don't feel sleepy but I guess I'll try sleeping soon.My eyes are still wide awake.Thanks to Dharma from West Grand Boulevard who introduced me to this song.He was playing it in his shop while I was trying out the digital bass guitar/drums machine.It sounds kind of familiar and so I got this song.Rocking awesome song that makes you bang your head.But what a funny band name.Rock on!!And thanks Dharma.

It's just like him
To wander off in the evergreen park
Slowly searching for any sign
Of the ones he used to love..

He says he's got nothing left to live for
(He says he's got nothing left...)
And this time I think you'll know...

You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

She's just like him
Spoiled rotten
Confused by the lies she's been fed
And she's searching for no one...
(But herself)
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy
That she is here
And this time I think you'll know...

You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out

(There is more to know)

We're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell...
(So tell me)

You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
(Make it out)
You will live to tell
(Live to tell)

You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
(And I know)
You can make it out
You will live to tell...

You are not alone
You're not,you're not alone...

You're Not Alone by Saosin.

With You Gone...

After awaiting the judgement day,the day after promotion day,I still have no idea where I'll end up in next year.It's not eagerness,it's more like "I wan to know so I can get this done and over with once and for all" feeling.The school is being such a pain,they might just come and tell us when we're not prepared to handle it.That's why it's important to know when we can know the results since the whole level knew their fate already.I don't know whether the school is still considering the students or whether they are just stalling for time for no apparent reason.I can't take it anymore,it's killing me.

Had nothing exciting in school today except watching Charlie Chaplin during history class.He was trying to make fun of Hitler,more like mocking him.Hilarious how these old film still can make us laugh.Quite spastic too,the part where he tried throwing a bomb but it dropped into his shirt through the long-sleeve army uniform.He even made the famous speech of Hitler,the Nazi symbol supposedly a red swastika became a multiplication sign.This guy is probably the one who made a comedy,a comedy.

Went to parkway for lunch with Eugene before he came over to my place to teach me a couple of things in guitar-ism.I learned Rooftops by lostprophet.It's actually pretty simple but I haven't learned finished just yet.Only learned the introduction and the chorus.He tried helping me out with the new song I created.It's called Without You.It looks like a copy of Sophisticated but it has different element into it.Deeper and more emo-rock,I like.

Sometimes I wonder,did I make the right choice?I read my Slam Dunk comics again and came across a page where Ryota said these about Ayako(the girl he's eyeing) to Sakuragi."It's practically impossible.I don't exist for her,she won't take me seriously.I tried going out with other girls to forget her.But they all dumped me." It sort of happened to me,although I don't go around going out with different girls I feel the same way. "I decided to stake everything on basketball.I was going to lead the team to victory and she's smile at me.That's all I ever wanted."

It hit me like a blinding light.That's exactly what I feel,although I don't do basketball.It's complicated.I wanted to forget about her by covering her up with other girls but I can't let it go.I'm still holding on,I got in too deep now.It's either I get hurt or I ain't letting go.It's not my fault I fall in love with you,you tripped me.You were the best thing I ever found,I thought I was prepared to let you go because I knew I never stood a chance.I tried to forget you,I couldn't.I can't do anything now,more like I'm confused.I wish I could go p to you and just tell you how I feel since I've nothing to lose anyway but something's pulling me away.It's consious,it's telling me "Why bother when you end up hurt?Why even try when you know you'll fail?You might even lose a friend by such a rash decision." I'm stuck in a moment and I can't get out.I don't know whether I should make a U-turn before I reached the one way street or keep continuing my journey to a new pasture.

I can't believe I wrote this at a time like this when I sould be more concerned about my results.But still there are things in life which we can't ignore,one of which is this.I hate myself for being so easy to fall for someone.That's my weakness,my soft spot towards people.It will really be the death of me.Lonely goodbyes doesn't work for me.I'll take this into consideration from now onwards and make a stand as soon as the haze in my head clears up.I miss the old you.

Looking back if we had one more night to spend
I would steal every second I would never let it end
Like the taste of your lips what I'd give to drink you in

I will always remember and I know that it goes with me
I will never leave this part of you behind

With you gone it plays on it's so hard to move on
I want to but I wanted you
Now you stay in my head
I'm not over you yet
I try to but I wanted you

What I miss overall is a smile I can't replace
'Cause it starts in your eyes and
It filled up all the space in my heart

I know I will always remember and
I know that it goes with me
I will never leave this part of you behind

With you gone it plays on it's so hard to move on
I want to but I wanted you
Now you stay in my head
I'm not over you yet
I try to but I wanted you

Make no mistake I'm here in this place
And I'm waiting around for you
And I can't help it Im still searching
For some way to get through

I will always remember

With you gone it plays on it's so hard to move on
I want to but I wanted you
Now you stay in my head
I'm not over you yet
I try to but I wanted you
I wanted you
I will always remember
I will always remember...

With You Gone by Ryan Cabrera.

When You Were Young...

Woke up feeling all my muscles aching.I'm so glad it's a holiday today because due to 2 months of not exercising my body to the max,I can barely move much.My body feels heavy and all.I can't even stretch out my arms without feeling the tightness in the muscles.I feel so much weaker today than ever.Luckily Luqman has rehearsals for his school's concert or else I would have cancelled our first hang-out since yesteryear.

Well,my mom's going back to Indonesia tomorrow morning until Tuesday and so I'm going to have the house all for myself.Almost,my brother is still here.And training tomorrow is cancelled because the lower secondaries have to go to some excursion.So the sec threes consisting of less than ten people won't be able to use the hall.What a waste,just when we thought we could have some private training.I'm going to make sure I got my place to play singles for the tournament in February next year which means,I'm going to have to beat practically everyone in the badminton club.

I still remembered vividly during my primary school days when I first represented the school in badminton.We were of course the first batch of students to take part in badminton in my primary school.In primary five,we had two guys from primary six who were overaged playing with us.They were pretty good back then.I can't remember what happened that yar during the tournaments though but I'm quite sure we didn't make it into the second round.All I remembered was when the teacher-in-charge's husband came for a training session during the holidays he made me captain of the team.That felt so good,I was in fact over the moon.I also remembered when me and Luqman played doubles against the two primary six guys who were at least twice our height and smashes twice as hard as us.Somehow we managed two win.Luqman was named vice-captain.

In primary six,we had a decent enough squad.We were grouped alongside Maha Bodhi,Gongshang and two more which I can't remember.We lost to Maha Bodhi and Gongshang because they were practically the school who have been running the show at that time.We won one school and we needed a last win to ensure we got to to the next round.We lost the first single and the second single.But we won our first doubles.Our second doubles played their first set.Since other schools finished their matches first we played our third singles before out second doubles match finished.I played the third singles and although I was practically thrashing him,he fell down and hurt his ankle.As a result he sort of gave me a walk-over due to his withdrawal for spraining his ankle.I missed the second doubles second set,I think we lost the second set but won the first.So now,I watched the third set which has been played half-way through.I was sweating from my match while drinking and watching them at the same time.Our qualifications depends on the hands of Luqman and his doubles partner.

We reached a point of time when the score was 14-14 and we had to deuce to 17.By then,I was biting my nails in the nerve-wrecking moment.And the match feels like forever from there on.Continuous service-overs.Every time we got a service-over,the other school fought back and got back the service.It goes on and on for a long while.We ended up losing.But still,our teacher-in-charge who happens to be my form teacher in class bought us pizzas to celebrate this feat.

I have this funny feeling that the school have that badminton team just for our batch.Our batch was more of the more talented bunch of kids who did well in almost every cca we took part in.When my form teacher found out I could play badminton as she saw a number of us bringing rackets to play in school during recess,she decided to form a team.We held a trial and I got in.That was the probably the highlight of my life.Now my primary school badminton team has been disbanded and I missed the old days.Captaining the school into something isn't just another thing,it was the moment of pride.From then on,I grew into someone who hates losing and refuse to accept being second best in things I know I'm capable of doing.I'll always find a way to get myself better and better to ensure I'm always at the top.My never-say-die spirit is born.

Now,I still can't believe the roller coaster ride I've gone through in primary school.And I ccan't help feeling a sense of owing something to the school for opening the badminton team just our batch.I can't thank my form teacher/teacher-in-charge for the badminton team, Mdm Rozi.I feel that I owed her something and hopefully she hasn't forgotten me.That was how me and Luqman became such close friends.We have history like no other.It was more of a rival-friend relationship.We would work our socks off to outbeat each other but in a positive way.Though he was just another primary school buddy,he was the one I think I owed the most to because without him,I would have led an entirely different and meaningless life.At least now,I've something to boast about in my ability.

That was the good old days.Now I'm still talking to Luqman although not as much because we each have our own things to do.We haven't caught up with each other since primary school so I kind of missed the old times.Thanks for the thinks you taught me and after looking out for each other when we were young...

You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
To save you from your old way
You play forgiveness
Watch it now
Here he comes

He doesn't look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentleman
Like you imagined
When you were young

Can we climb this mountain
I don't know
Higher now than ever before
I know we can make it if we take it slow
Let's take it easy
Easy now
Watch it go

We're burning down the highway skyline
On the back of a hurricane
That started turning
When you were young
When you were young

And sometimes you close your eyes
And see the place where you used to live
When you were young

They say the devil's water
It ain't so sweet
You don't have to drink right now
But you can dip your feet
Every once in a little while

You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
To save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness
Watch it now
Here he comes

He doesn't look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentleman
Like you imagined
When you were young(talks like a gentleman,like you imagined)
When you were young

I said he doesn't look a thing like Jesus
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus
But more than you'll ever know...

When You Were Young by The Killers.

The World Is Black...

I'm still keeping my fingers crossed for tomorrow,well more like later on since it's 00:02.I think I'm screwed.Damn it.No use saying all this now I guess.But it was a little obvious since Monday because my face looked all weary and moodless.Today is Promotion Day and of course,like every other Promotion Day,it's a holiday.Most of the schools should have finished or at least almost done with their papers by today.I'm just afraid to disappoint my parents.

I guess the post-exam activities were not very interesting and my school which coincidentally celebrate their 25th anniversary is going to receive a present in the form of a new principal.Although we don't even know the new principal,I think it was about time for a new principal to come in.No offence to Mrs Yap but the school do need drastic measures now that we're not achieving anything other than reaching sepak takraw finals.So and so getting to represent Singapore.We need a new environment.Hopefully the new principal will make a few decent changes around the school.

It's too early to say but I made a terrible mistake.Guess you will never start noticing me after all this time.To top it off,if I get retained,I will get myself out of the picture already.Much like the song by The Darkness,Love Is Only A Feeling.I'm starting to lose you and I don't think I'm willing to fight for the right.It maybe early days but I'm brushing it off and sort of get a hold of myself before I got in too deep.

At this stage in time,my life feels meaningless and I'm just feeling so lethargic.I'm not sure whether it was due to training just now but as far as I know,my stamina dropped a lot.I can barely finish doing the physical.By then I'm almost lost for breath.Still I don't know how I could get my touches back,well at least half of it in just a day.I missed the days I wore the school team jerseys and holding the grip of my racket.The adrenaline rush when I scored each point.All my sharp netting and dropshots.My passable smash.Since I've not a single clue on my future class I'm just trying to forget all that and focus on badminton until tournament begins.That's the only thing I know I'm capable of doing now anyway.Wish me luck to get through this in one piece.

Turn on channel seven at a quarter to eight
You see the same damn thing
It's just a different day
And no one really knows why this is happening, but it's happening

And everywhere you go it's just a different place
You get the same down feeling
See the same sad faces
No one really cares that this is happening

You come into this world
And we are all the same
And in that moment there's no one to blame

But the world is black
And hearts are cold
And there's no hope
That's what were told

And we can't go back
It won't be the same
Forever changed
By the things we see, see

Living in this place has always been this way
There's noone doing nothing
So there's nothing changed
And I can't live when this world just keeps dying,it's dying

People always tell me this is part of the plan
That God's got everybody in his hands
But I can only pray that God is listening,is he listening

We're living in this world
Growing colder everyday
Nothing can stay perfect now I say

But the world is black
And hearts are cold
And there's no hope
That's what were told

And we can't go back
It won't be the same
Forever changed
By the things we see, see, see
We come into this world
And we are all the same
And in that moment there's no one to blame

But we're living in this world
Growing colder everyday
Nothing can stay perfect now I say

The world is black
And hearts are cold
There's no hope
That's what were told

And we can't go back
It won't be the same
Forever changed
By the things we see, see, see

Turn on channel seven at a quarter to eight
You see the same damn thing it's just a different day
And no one really knows why this is happening...

The World Is Black by Good Charlotte.

Bruised...

I don't know what to do already,basically I'm praying that I did manage to pass English.I feel super disappointed that I failed my composition.Although I got 14/30 for it and people go,"Haiya,one mark only." That one mark could actually turn my results on it's head.I'm currently so desperate for marks now that I'm willing to beg the teacher for one or two marks.Simply because I'm really afraid all my previous 3 exams will pull down my marks.Just like the case of biology.I've been failing like F9s but for the final year I studied like hell.In the end only to get 46.That was so close but so far.The least I expect myself to get is a pass but in the end.That's the problem with me,over the years I've been doing better for the finals but I think my luck has ran out.Yes I did better but it is not good enough.

I even improve in my E maths,I used to suck big time but this finals I got 45.I'm like,I could have gotten a lot more marks if not for stupid careless marks.And trust me,it's stupid careless mistake.It's either I'm careless,I'm stupid or I'm both.It's inequalities some more,it was suppose to be one of those easy questions for us to score marks and it's paper one question.I's worth 3 marks.I did every single thing right until I reached simple division.What pisses me off was I divided 2 from 21 and the answer I wrote was 11.5.How stupid can that be?I mean,21/2=10.5 who in the world can get this question wrong?Foolish me.And for that,my overall was affected badly because I did every piece of homework thus I don't get marks deducted for not handing in homeworks.

Chemistry and A maths are gone case.Practically the whole class failed A maths and I just find Chemistry not making any sense.I don't dream to be a scientist mixing chemicals and like POA teacher said,"Why take pure Chemistry and Biology when you guys aren't going to be doctors and scientists?" It's not like we want it either,but I can cope with Biology if I worked harder but my chemistry will pull me down.Mixing chemicals is just not my thing.But what can I do.Though I know my results won't change overnight because obviously Rome isn't built in a day,I could have at least done slightly better.I'm so disappointed with myself.

Now,I only have Humanities and Mother Tongue which pass so I need English but chances are slim,that's what I'm told.But I'm preparing for the worst and I just have a funny feeling that two of the teachers will bring me down on promotion day,I'm not going to mention names though.Some teacher might be reading this and report to the teacher then I'm really going to get bad comments from them on promotion day.So many Should Have appears in my mind now but I guess the time to regret is over.I'm just finding ways to get rid of my anger and one way is probably through Badminton practice which resumes tomorrow.I'm going to whoop everyone's butt off.

My mood has been so down,I consider myself as depressed already.Anyone who tries to piss me off will probably get their heads chopped off by me.I'm in a foul mood.I'm hunting you down.And my brain is going blank from time to time.Mental lapse.Moody.Lifeless.I'm almost a walking zombie already.Those smiles are fake.My fate lies in the teachers' hands now.

I've got my things, I'm good to go
You met me at the terminal
Just one more plane ride and it's done

We stood like statues at the gate
Vacation's come and gone too late
There's so much sun where I'm from
I had to give it away, had to give you away

And we spent four days on an
Island at your family's old hotel
Sometimes perfection can be
It can be perfect hell, perfect...

Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes
That I am not there, I swear I didn't mean
For it to feel like this
Like every inch of me is bruised, bruised
And don't fly fast. Oh, pilot can you help me?
Can you make this last? This plane is all I got
So keep it steady, now
Cause every inch you see is bruised

I lace my Chucks, I walk the aisle
I take my pills, the babies cry
All I hear is what's playing through
The in-flight radio
Now every word of every song
I ever heard that made me wanna stay
Is what's playing through
The in-flight radio, and I
And I am, finally waking up

Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes
That I am not there, I swear I didn't mean
For it to feel like this
Like every inch of me is bruised, bruised
Don't fly fast. Oh, pilot can you help me?
Can you make this last? This plane is all I got
So keep it steady, now
Cause every inch you see is bruised, yeah

So read your books, but stay out late
Some nights, some nights, and don't think
That you can't stop by the bar
You haven't shown your face here since the bad news
Well I'm here till close, with fingers crossed
Each night cause your place isn't far

And hours pass, and hours pass, yeah, yeah...
Yeah, yeah, she still counts the minutes
That I am not there, I swear I didn't mean
For it to feel like this
Like every inch of me is bruised, bruised
And don't fly fast. Oh, pilot can you help me?
Can you make this last? This plane is all I got
So keep it steady, now
Cause every inch you see is bruised, bruised, bruised...

Bruised by Jack Mannequin.

Loser Kid...

Damn it.Blogger is being such an ass.I wasted close to an hour and my bloody long post went to la la land.My post was bloody long and it's gone.ARGH,I hate my freaking computer,I hate my life,I hate myself.

Like I was doing since an hour ago,I was ranting about everything I do in life.Since I'm freaking pissed by whatever happened just now and now that the bloody blogger just added fuel to the fire I'm overheating In summary,I'm screwing up in every single thing I do in life.

I'm partly blaming the class for making the teachers fuming angry for the noises we make because the teachers then spend their time scolding the students.Which affects both the mood of the teachers and the students.I mean,we aren't angels with halos on our heads but we have to know when to play and when not to unlike some people in class.The fact that teachers are leaving the school because of some of our pupil's behaviour isn't fair to students who do want to learn.I mean,I may be the slacker type but it's tough in enough concentrating but it's even worse in an environment amongst the chaos and craziness in my class.

Teachers have to me more understanding too,I don't expect teachers to be supermans but still when we say that we didn't do or bring the homework because it totally slipped our mind then don't blame us and make us go back home to bring it back to school on the same day.It's wasting everyone's time.Although it does work sometimes,they don't work everytime on everyone.But who can blame them,really.Out of the whole level my class is the worst in discipline.To make things worse,we ain't showing the grades either.Simply put this as the formula to doomsday.The perfect way to probably lead ourselves to a shallow future.Might as well say,NO FUTURE.The class is so noisy,it's barely impossible to concentrate on what's being taught because it's just too distracting.

I'm not even good with girls.My mind goes blank when I'm around them.I'm lost for words.I look like I'm in a daze or as if staring at someone when I'm actually in very deep thoughts on what to say.I froze up.And I lost my ability to trust now that the one I can really trust has gone to another school.I can't believe I still talk about this because we went our separate ways three years ago back in primary school.Secondary school is the time to pick up our lifeskill on things such as trusting and also the true meaning of backstabbing.Besides,we're still new adapting to our new environment with our raging hormones.We haven't understand the meaning of the word 'puppy love'.So when all these things came into our life at such a short period of time,our mind goes haywire.Then some people just blame us from having such social lives and thus some went behind their parent's back which is worse because when we get caught we're screwed.

I hate the fact that I think I'm failing everything and somebody just have to rub it in my face.It's like the feeling of being let down by ourselves only to try and stand up again but just when we were about to stand up,someone push us back down.They might think it's a joke but our pride just flew out the window.Life is hard and now I have doubts on what my purpose in life is.I'm even starting to doubt everything.It's like,one day I'm so relaxed about things and the next day a million 'What If's' come to your mind.I guess consoling me won't do any good this time,I'm just feeling so lousy.Somehow,I really feel that everything I've been doing and building up is going down the drain with just a flick of the hand.And I'm making a big statement which I have to do,IF I GET PROMOTED TO SEC 4 EXPRESS NEXT YEAR,I PROMISE TO WORK MY ASS OFF.I feel lighter now.

So I finished writing a summary of what I wrote an hour ago.What a waste of time...

I was always picked last for teams
I wore my sisters jeans
I was a loser kid
And the teachers didn’t care
They just left me sitting there
I don’t know what i did
But since then
How the tides have turned

Cos I used to be the loser kid
Who always ran away and hid
No one took the time to know me
The kick me sign was always on me
Now everyone wants to know
What I do and where I go
At least I know they wont forget me
Cos I live with Miss Mackenzie

And now its all history
And I put it all behind me
Look at what I’ve become
I get recognised in the street
And everyone I meet
Remembers the news I made
But since then
How the tides have turned

Cos I used to be the loser kid
Who always ran away and hid
No one took the time to know me
The kick me sign was always on me
Now everyone wants to know
What I do and where I go
At least I know they wont forget me
Cos I live with Miss Mackenzie

When I see the way you look at me
It takes me back to how it used to be
And still it’s clear
The way you locked the classroom door
And whispered in my ear...
‘You’re what I go to school for'

'You are
the one I go to school for’

Cos I used to be the loser kid
Who always ran away and hid
No one took the time to know me
The kick me sign was always on me
Now every body wants to know
What I do and where I go
At least I know they won’t forget me
Cos I live with Miss Mackenzie...

Loser Kid by Busted.The only problem is,I still am a loser kid and Miss Mackenzie isn't real.Cheers to my one hell-of-a life.

Over My Head(Cable Car)...

"What am I looking for?Fame?Fortune?Power beyond mortal reach?"Sergio asked himself as he gazed at the ceilings in his room.He got up from his bed and flipped open his clamshell phone.

It read 'One message Received'.He opened the message and deleted it without replying.He opened the door and went straight to the garage to pick up his bicycle.Soon,he was on his way to the estate park to meet his close friends,including one who stood out from the rest.He headed straight to the bench under the cork tree,their favourite hang-out.

As soon as he parked bicycle,they started their 'group discussions' and as fast as it started,it ended.Sergio plucked up his courage and asked his 'crush' Haylie,whether she wanted to drop by his place.She agreed and that brought a wide smile 'from ear to ear' for Sergio.When they finally reached his place,they talked about a lot of things and although they found it weird to be alone together,they tried to keep it natural.

Then she asked shyly,"So are you attached?"He shook his head and smiled back.

He breathed a loud sigh."I just have to confess,"he said before stopping to get back his composure.

"I don't know how else to say this but...You know I still liked you right?"He continued.She nodded and he cheeks turned rosy red.

"Will you be my..."Sergio said before she interrupted.

"I know what you are trying to say.I can't,I am sorry."Then she stood up from his comfortable leather sofa and headed straight for the door,without turning back or waving goodbye.

He sat there looking somewhat petrified,shocked but at the same time he felt a pain in his heart."So this is how a breaks?"He asked himself,his smiled turned to frowns."I just have to know why.That's all I ask for.Is it me or her?"he asked himself again.

A few days later when they met up again at the beach after they decided that ignoring and avoiding one another is not doing them any good.He started talking but she did not utter a word as they walked to the wavebreaker.However,she started talking when they were sure that noone else was around them,after countless persuasions.

"I am not who you think I am.My past,is tarred.I'm living life on regret."She said as tears rolled down her eyes."I don't deserve someone as loving and as caring as you.Look at you,you have everything.A top student,a first-team quarter-back for our school's unbeatable rugby team,popular and a well-off family.You are a role model,I'm not.I'm a nobody,a total shadow of someone I was,"she said,this time with her uncontrollable weeping."I hate myself for making that mistake and everyday,I always see you smiling at me when you never smile to any other people.Although I feel blessed,I don't want to be a burden to you,"she continued.

He started to sing his favourite song and seemed to stress a line from the chorus,"I don't care about the past,the future is what makes us last."

"Look,"he said."What I like about you is who is who and what you are.Not what you were."Her heart melted and she cried on his broad shoulders as the sun watched over them.

Back home,he gazed into the ceiling and once again,this time with his eyes shut.He prayed "Thank you God for leading me to the truth and guiding me to a wonderful friend who will always have a place in my heart." He held her close to him and planted a peck on her lips.She responded by leaning closer to him and tilting her head to his chest,feeling a sense of safety by every heartbeat.

Ten years on,they had twin sons to accompany their baby daughter,Layla.Although they are still quite new to life as husband and wife,they can never seem to get each other off their mind."Til death do us part." He whispered to himself,laying on his mattress with his eyes dead set on the ceiling.This time,four other people joined him,and angels watching over their every move.


This is a composition written a long time ago by me,myself and I.As you can see,this is my second post of the day which shows how bored I am.I have never written two post on a single day so I broke a record and a tradition.Well,I won't comment anymore about this story because it was ages ago so I can't really remember why I wrote this.Hope you enjoy it.

I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

And everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows
She's on your mind
Everyone knows
I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm in over my...

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind...

Over My Head(Cable Car) by The Fray...

Unchained Melody...

I've sinned,well sort of.Planned to go to church for evening mass with my family as we always do on Saturdays but the haze got the better of my mom.She has been feeling giddy the whole day though I can't blame the haze because it might not be because of it.In the end,we slacked at home and ordered pizza instead.Been a while since I last had pizza for dinner.What bugs me was watching boring shows on television especially during this anti-outdoors weather.At least show some decent shows on television now that we people had to stay at home.Some people just have to spoil the fun.I'll make up my missed trip to church by being holy again tomorrow morning,that's if the sky clears up.

I didn't go for Ian Lim's chalet either.Like hello,it's Ian Lim.I'll probably kill myself first before I ever attend any of his party.Maybe I'll attend his funeral.Oops,sorry.I've sinned again but look on the bright side,his birthday present was a hazy day.The perfect gift.I can't help it,I'm practically making fun of everything about him.Give that guy credit for being super desperate in everything.He shamed 'man'-kind.

As far as I know,my school is one of the earliest to end eond-of-years.I can't believe I'm still celebrating about this oh-so-boring topic.Hey Sophia,good luck for the next 3 days.

Life's a beach.I'm catching the Beach Life fever already.My brother re-installed the game so I'm probably play after this post.I'm sort of playing God by being boss of holiday resort.When I get a new computer I'm going to install Sims 2 and Grand Theft Auto:San Andreas.The computer I'm currently using doesn't have the requirements so everything turns pathetically laggy.

For my previous post,it was almost 1/3 finished.Some guy just had to say everything,no offence ZM.I guess this is too easy because most of the songs are pretty famous.Wake Me Up When September Ends was a give-away question.Anyone who has NEVER heard of the song I want to say something to you "What planet are you living in man?"Phew,feel much better.As you can see,my playlist is pretty current.I should try to give harder ones next time.

"If only you could see just who I am
If only I can make you understand"
That's just what I want to say to you.Hope to see you soon because I miss the everlasting smile on your face...

Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea
To the open arms of the sea
Lonely rivers sigh, wait for me, wait for me
I'll be coming home, wait for me

Oh, my love, my darling
I've hungered for your touch
A long, lonely time
And time goes by so slowly
And time can do so much
Are you still mine?

I need your love
I,oh I need your love
God speed your love to me

Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea
To the open arms of the sea
Lonely rivers sigh, wait for me, wait for me
I'll be coming home, wait for me

Oh, my love, my darling
I've hungered, hungered for your touch
A long, lonely time
And time goes by so slowly
And time can do so much
Are you still mine?

I need your love
I,oh I need your love
God speed your love to me...

Unchained Melody by Gareth Gates.I only have Gareth Gates version of this song in my computer so don't blame me for saying I got the wrong artiste.

My Playlist...

Saw this from Peter's blog and caught my attention.It's quite interesting and fun so just guess the song by dropping by the comments.

Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 30 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is cheating. no cheating, please.

The only difference is I'm not putting my songs at random.I'm really putting my playlist that contains the songs I'm listening to at the present moment.So here goes.Happy guessing.

1. I never knew,I never knew that everything was falling through...
2. Had a drive,driven by your love...
3. When our time is up,when our lives are done...Rooftops by lostprophet(Sadisticnoob)
4. This time what I want is you,there is noone else...Take Me Away by Lifehouse(Sadisticnoob)
5. I never get to see your face,I only get hear your drums instead...
6. Don't cry to me if you love me,you would be here with me...
7. Oh baby when we're together,doing things that we loved...
8. All these dreams and all these plans,I built them up with these two hands...
9. We'll do it all,everything...
10. When there's nowhere else to run,is there room for one more son...
11. She catches fire and she burns...Everything by Rafe(sadisticnoob)
12. I knew you for just a while before you left,you were young and full of happiness...
13. And I'd give up forever to touch you,cos I know that you feel me somehow...Iris by Goo Goo Dolls(Sadisticnoob)
14. Oh,this is the start of something good,don't you agree...
15. We're soaring,flying,there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach...Breaking Free by Zac Efreon and Vanessa Anne Hudgens of High School Musical (Hanis)
16. Look at the stars,and how they shine for you...Yellow by Coldplay(Sadisticnoob)
17. You're my past,my future,my oh,my everything...
18. The dawn is breaking,a light shining through...
19. Separation has it's faults,and I don't wanna leave it all...
20. Far away,I feel your beating heart,all alone beneath the crystal stars...
21. I've been thinking bout you my love,and all the crazy things you put me through...
22. Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you...Wonderwall by Oasis(Sadisticnoob)
23. This time this place, misused mistakes...Far Away by Nickelback(Sadisticnoob)
24. Truly Julie yet another day,you know it really isn't far away...Runaway by Electrico(Sadisticnoob)
25. Summer has come and past,the innocent can never last...Wake Me Up When September Ends by Green Day(Sadisticnoob)
26. This world,this world is cold...
27. Tell me that you need me baby,tell that it's true...
28. Wandering the streets,in the world underneath it all...For You I Will by Teddy Geiger(Sadisticnoob)
29. Another summer day,has come and gone away...
30. I can't believe what is in front of me,the water's rising up to my knees...

That's all folks.Just drop me a comment and I'll post those who managed to get them right...

Incredible(What I Meant To Say)...

Practically spend the whole day lazing around in joy because this is the first ever day of the year where I am not stopped from watching television and playing the computer or the Xbox.Woke up especially late and had lunch,that's how late I woke up.On the television and played Xbox for three hours after that.Dinner and now I'm using the computer.This is the life.The boring life of a slacker.

Kind of missed the outdoors a bit even though this is the first day of post-exam I'm feeling bored already.I can't go on like this for another two weeks.I need more life especially since my brother is still having his exams until tomorrow so the house would be less quiet after tomorrow.I plan to go out at least once every two days when the real holidays start but we'll have to see because I won't be able to if my results is bad.I hope I don't get retained.

Chatting around with my long lost friend.She was in the same class as me last year so didn't really have the luxury to talk to her this year.She is still an avid reader of my blog so thanks Hanis.

I miss your presence especially during this exam period.Now that I finished mine,I just wish you would be there just so I could talk to you.Now I'm spending my time alone but it's alright.Sometimes in life,you got to know that we can't have everything.These things are painstakingly slow and a very long and torturing process.But it's still a double-edge sword.You might end up happy when accepted or dejected when rejected.But that's life.We have to pick ourselves and learn from mistakes.The beauty of life.Painful but sometimes very rewarding.

Sometimes I just wonder why I end up being such a person I am today.I end up being very emo writing things and people just mistook me.I don't know how I could write things which ends up being labelled as emo.Is it my music exposure?I mean,listening to emo music I sense a feeling like no other.The meaning of the song catch my attention more than the introduction,the chorus,the solo or even the artiste singing it.Sometimes we have to figure out the meaning because everyone interpret each song differently but I found it rewarding when I found out that the song actually mean more than what normal people know.It's like unlocking a hidden door.

At times I wonder whether I should enjoy life the way I should or should I be the emo person I made myself to be.It's more than the clothes you wear.When I first saw a black shirt,I just got drawn into it and until today,black has always been black.So my perfect birthday gift will be anything black.I got myself a black guitar,lots of black shirts and the Xbox happens to be black.Black is so common you might say.But there's just something about black.Until now I can't figure out why I love the colour black.

And I got this thing towards carbon.I got myself a carbon-made racket and it has been something I take care of very properly.Then I got myself a carbon-made handphone in black too.Killed two birds with one stone.I don't know why.Some people might find me weird but hey,that's me.If you're not interested then why bother comint to my blog.What happened to all my emo posts?I don't know really.I just can't find the inspiration right now to write those things that would make readers have a tear in their eye.I don't really know when do I really have the mood anyway.I guess I wrote those when something happened to me and that special someone.Anything sad is always a good excuse to write an emo story or even a song.But I'm not one who consistently write good songs.I'm more of a one-hit wonder.

You said its over
I said "That's ok
I wasn't into you anyway"
I told you "Lately
You irritate me
Your laugh is too loud
You're the last girl I'd look at
If you were in a crowd"

Could you tell?
I was lying and hiding the truth away
And what I really wanted to say

Is you are incredible
You are amazing
You blow my mind one of a kind
I'm having a meltdown
You are incredible
You are amazing
But sometimes telling the truth
Is easier said than done
"Don't leave baby"
Now that's what I meant to say

"My worlds not ending I'll be just fine"
That's what my mouth said
But not what I felt inside
I told you "Baby,
You're not the answer to all of my prayers
Cos I like my girlfriends in short skirts with longer hair"

Could you tell?
I was lying and hiding the truth away
And what I really wanted to say

Is you are incredible
You are amazing
You blow my mind one of a kind
I'm having a meltdown
You are incredible
You are amazing
But sometimes telling the truth is easier said than done
"Don't leave baby"
Now that's what I meant to say

Well I said I didn't care about what you felt about me
Couldn't care less about what I said or done
I didn't mean it
It's not what I meant to say
You know the truth is that I care about what you think about me
Maybe too much, I've been putting on a front
I didn't mean it
And what I meant to say

Is you are incredible
You are amazing
You blow my mind one of a kind
I'm having a meltdown
You are incredible
You are amazing
But sometimes telling the truth is easier said than done,yeah yeah
Telling the truth is easier said than done
Can't you see telling the truth is easier said than done
"Don't leave baby"
Now that's what I meant to say...

Incredible(What I Meant To Say) by Darius Danesh...